Dear Mothers of the Light,
Yesterday our Mary was to come over to see me and never made it. Her boyfriend told me that she was missing me so. And my heart cried to see her. This morning I prayed and my heart longed so to see Mary -- to hear her voice and feel her presence. And the Lord quieted my heart. I listened to some mountain music. Then I picked up Baby Olivia and rocked her in my rocking chair. I put down an old quilt on the chair and rocked with Baby in the chair that Papa had bought for me for our 25th Wedding Anniversary. I rocked Baby but my heart had no song to sing to this little baby. As I cried so to hear Mary's voice and feel her presence.
As I rocked, I thought of the old time Mothers and how they loved their homes. How they found comfort in their babies and their work at home. They quieted their hearts as they rocked in their chairs and counted their blessings of home and family. And the Lord spoke to my heart about the marriage covenant. To stand for it for Mary and not let go. Not to beg and plead with God, but to quietly abide in faith. His word says "What God hath joined together let no man separate." Mary and Brandon are Christians half baked but believers, anyway. And me and God are a majority!
Papa was my covenant husband. Now he is in heaven and I am on earth. But to me, he is still my husband and always will be. My work is now to honor Jim for the rest of my life. It breaks my heart that Mary has dishonored Jim's and my Lord. But someday Mary will be my comfort. Jim comforted me and was used of God to give me double blessing back for what the canker worm had eaten. My Mary will take this message of the Marriage Covenant to a broken generation. Yes, long after I am gone. I plant precious seeds in Mary's heart as I am weeping. But I will doubtless come again rejoicing bringing in the sheaves. I must set my eyes upon the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ. I must set my face as a flint and not look back. I will not be confounded. (Isaiah 50:7) And in the modern English Bible, it says we set ourselves to endure hardship and the Lord will help us. But Mother abides and is comforted by the Lord as she honors and respects her husband all the days of her life. Yes, the young widows can remarry but they must always bring honor to their husbands the children's daddy for all of their lives. You just have two husbands and you have to honor both of them all of your life.
The Marriage Covenant is so Holy and has been such a stabilizer to me. Papa had torn up my world in the beginning but he put it back together in such a peaceful way. Better than before, he put all the pieces back just right. And in this I am confident that Mary will be healed, too. And in the end, she will be a comfort to me and to so many other Mothers. And as I sit in my old rockin' chair and rock the Baby and pray, I am going to count my blessings and abide satisfied in Him. And my conscience doesn't condemn me as I raised Mary at my knee to know my God. And this Word will not return void. It was sent out to do a great work as I planted many seeds into Mary's heart. And I must stand still before Him and see His Glory! I stand still and know that HE is God.
Love,
Connie
