Dear Mothers,
I want to write on several things today. One thing I was thinkin' of this morning is, "How would I talk a woman who is a doctor or lawyer into being a Keeper at Home?"
Also I want to say something. Ya know I look at the body of believers and so many are in unbelief. I wanna say this to them. "Ya know maybe you didn't get your prayers answered but I got mine answered." And ya know we can't look at the impossible situations around us and guide our lives by who we thought was the best Christian around. We can stand alone on the Word of God. And we don't have to have many counselors when these counselors don't stand on God's Word. If the handwriting on the wall says, "It's just you, babe, and God" then that's OK. Yes, Glory! I am dancin' this morning already! And just because Sister Know it All didn't get her prayers answered don't mean you won't. You and God are a majority.
And I have these women tellin' me things are hopeless because their husband ain't saved or he is not walkin' with God. Hey, God answered my prayers and that's my testimony. My husband was in prison four times after I married him and, I think, two times before that. And he left me over thirty times and said he wasn't comin' back. Hey, God brought him back and the Lord gave me double for my trouble. God gave me a happy marriage and three more children. I got to have six children and Jim paid off the house. So, hey, maybe God don't answer your prayers but He answered mine. And I am not done yet! And God is gonna give me godly Holy Ghost filled children that will walk on heavenly highways with Jesus. He may not give it to you. If you tell me He can't do it in your life, then fine, but He did it for me and He is not a respecter of persons. And I won't look to the left or to the right but my eyes are to behold Him and to keep walkin' on the Lord's highway. Praise the Lord. And the blood of Jesus has power in my life and He has redeemed me from the pit. And the unbelievers can stand around and tell me that I can't do this or that. But I have to say to them, "You are too late -- God has already given me miracles and I know how it works. You just don't give up and you will see His glory!"
I am not a perfect person but I just don't give up on my family. All God needs is a willing vessel, and I am leaning on Jesus. I am leaning way over the cliff. I am doing the back bend to the floor. Leaning on Him. Leaning on the supernatural. Counting on the supernatural to push me over. Leaning on the signs and wonders and the anointing from Heaven to push me over. Oh, I don't walk by sight or the lies of Satan. But I lean on the fire from Heaven. I lean on the unseen. I lean on the visions of the Word spoken to me. My faith comes from the Alive Word spoken to me in my prayer chambers. I stand on a Rock I cannot see. I walk by a vision I cannot explain. I smell the scent of the Rose of Sharon. He stands with me in the dark and yet I see Him -- I feel His presence. The angels guard me and Heaven is brought down to me and is about me.
Maybe you prayed and that didn't happen to you. But it happens to me and I will not bow in unbelief to the lies of the devil and this world. Satan doesn't need to own you. He doesn't have your children. He doesn't have your family. He can't tell you what to do. You can tell Him what to do. You can learn to lean on Jesus who you can't see. Upon His voice that you can't hear with your physical ears.
You can tell me what you think. But you can't make me believe you, as I have already been to the River that never runs dry. And I have already drank from the water that really quenches your thirst. And I keep going back to the River of Life and I am as though a woman addicted to the Water of Life. The more I get, the more I want. Because it is a water that continues to bring forth miracles. And now Miracles is what I live on.
I don't know what the Lord is gonna say out of me anymore this morning. I am listening to the Lord in me. I have a lot to say but can't at times explain it. I need at times for someone to ask me things that pull virtue out of me. I can always tell a woman of faith. Kelly M. just draws virtue out of me. And Annie does, too, and a lot of the ladies on here do, too. But if a woman comes to me in unbelief, it stops me like a herd of elephants.
But ya know most mental illness I have seen is from wives who are not in submission to their husbands. The women who don't understand wifely submission are accidents goin' someplace. I don't care if the woman is a genius and finding the cure for cancer. If she doesn't understand that her husband is the priest of the home, she is probably takin' nerve pills. I am old, girls, almost 60. The Lord can't wait until I am 80 to tell this. So I have had enough life experiences to say with a good amount of confidence that a wife out of submission is a wife who is mentally off.
I love to talk to so called abused women. These women leave their husbands and go from husband to husband. All the while tellin' their sad story. And when they are young, then their stories are a little bit believable. But watch 'em when they get old and stuck away in a nursing home someplace, cryin' for mercy. Ain't no one listening to them then. They laid their life out and they reap what they sow. They never gave or forgave and they die horrendous deaths.
I tell my kids and their friends again and again, as I tell them Papa and me were married almost 40 years, "We were two sinners saved by grace who were two good forgivers and we never gave up." That is our success story.
Anyway, I guess what is on my heart is this. What I say on here isn't something that someone talked me into. It is the Word of God. When I was believin' for my husband to be healed, I would go to bed reading study books on marriage. I studied the Word of God as much as I could. I slept with my Bible. I read the King James version of the scriptures but I read the modern English Bibles, too. See, there is a miracle in the covenant of Marriage. I believed God for Jim because I studied until I could see the will of God and then I chased the Lord on it. I didn't just want a good marriage. I wanted the will of God in my life.
I am not the type to believe anything that comes down the pike. Most of my life, I have had to stand alone. And I have watched families and seen that what God taught me in my darkest hour was true. And just because a woman is highly intelligent or has a lot of education? Her rules are the same as mine. Let God be God and every man or woman a liar. EVERY wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with their own hands. This is straight across the board of I.Q.s or degrees in education. God's Word is for the rich and poor alike. What brings true peace and true riches is Wisdom!
A few days ago, the Lord led me to read about the Ark of the Covenant. And when it was stolen from the people of God, the enemy would put it in their kingdom. And the Ark would cause diseases and plagues to come to the area of unbelievers. I knew God was speaking to me about this. And in this Ark was evidence of the miracles the children of God saw in the wilderness. Such as Moses' rod. Also a jar of the manna that fed God's people daily in the desert. Also the 10 commandments. Numbers 17:10 tells about some of it and then the cross reference would tell you about the rest. But this Ark was so powerful. But it was a box with the reminders of the glory of God. And there was still the power upon these things even after Moses was dead. God had put His power upon His Covenant.
And there is power in the Marriage covenant. The Bible says that the wife has power over her husband's body. Not the live-in boyfriend's body but the true husband. You live in heavenly places in Christ Jesus and you can take the authority over your husband's body in prayer. If he is given to lust and to strange women, pray for impotence upon him and barrenness and that this relationship would be null and void.
Also the Lord is speaking to me about my house that it is like the Ark of the Covenant. In this house is a story of His power and His faithfulness to me and to my family. I have been faithful to my husband and to pray for my children. I will tell you one thing, He guards His covenant. Now I know that many widows are blessed to find another husband and to start over again and that is God's will for them. But my heart is here with the stories of His faithfulness to me.
I visited at David's house last night. I wanted to see again my new little grand baby David James, 3 weeks old. I loved holding him and his sister Kambree Kae, now 3 (Baby Rose). And when I walked into the living room the first picture I saw that sat above the computer was my beloved Jim's picture. I know David looks at Papa and wonders what Jim would do in this and that situation. John and Christine had Jim's picture out all the time, too. And Romeo would get out a toy or something. And John's wife Christine would say, "Grandpa got you that, Romeo." Jim's presence and ways are always about us. David dreams of his Dad about once a week. Danny dreams of him, too. They just dream normal things like he is at a family gathering, acting as he always had. And Jim wasn't super spiritual but he just plain loved us and wanted the best for us. He covered us with his wings of love and still does.
Well, Baby is cryin' and I need to get to work. Write later.
Love,
Connie
