Dear Mothers,
I am so tired this morning, I would have to dress up just to get shot. The new baby girl who is a one year old is so active. She is a doll baby, though. I can say that. She tries to eat everything. I turned around to look at her and she had a brown crayola hanging out of her mouth like a cigar. I only have her on Wedneday and Thursday. And it's a good thing as I would be dead by now if it was three days a week. Today I have Olivia Rose who is 8 weeks old and she is asleep. I just haven't had any time to write. But today should be an easier day. And tomorrow is Saturday. I love having the children but, boy, have I been busy.
I am so happy I can stay home and not have to go out to work. I have had so many thoughts about the Lord that I haven't been able to write down. I feel full but a bit confused as to what I should write.
I think one thing that has been a lot on my mind is the fear that seems to be out there. It seems so many are having anxiety attacks. Most of the women I know are on meds for nerves. I take them sometimes myself. But the Lord has been speaking to me lately about the discerning of spirits. A good friend of mine (we have been close for almost 40 years) just went to the hospital lately over an anxiety attack. That fear could kill us if we let it get too out of hand. We live in an era of such a feeling of doom around us. But an overcoming feeling of fear for no apparent reason is an attack of Satan.
Ya know the Lord says in His word that in the end days there would be so much deception, even the elect would be deceived. And here's my 2 cents on that. Well, first of all, I want to say something about the prophetesses and prophets of our age. See I learned a lot from being Dixie's friend. She was godly in the beginning and then backslid. We think if someone is helping us or the Lord uses them in our life and we are set free, then they are of God. But, see, I can play the piano by ear if I am right with God or not. I have this gift. Some women are very gifted. They are seers and visionaries. This is why when I heard the gospel message, I came to Christ so easily and believed in miracles right away. Because in my old life, I had made friends with the devil and knew him to be supernatural. The truth that set me free to receive Christ was the truth that I saw in the Word that said that Christ was the stronger power. I didn't know that. I thought if someone tried to fight me that my first punch was supposed to nearly kill 'em. I didn't know that Jesus was God -- I thought He was just a man. But, see, I thought Satan was the king of kings on the earth. I knew I was goin' to hell but thought I would get a special place as I was so bad. Then I read a book telling me what hell was like. YE-OW! I ran to Jesus as fast as I could. Oh Yeah! But, see, I was very spiritual but didn't know the Lord Jesus. But just because someone is spiritual and does signs and wonders for ya is not a sign they are of God or will tell you the truth.
Now see, Jonah was like this. He was a true prophet called of God but he went the wrong way. As he was taking a boat out of town to the wrong town, he could have gotten you set free because he knew the Lord personally. I mean even though he was in rebellion. Judas walked with the disciples. He healed the sick and raised the dead, too. But He was a deceiver. And the Bible tells of many false prophets in the Word of God. And the Bible says not to believe every spirit but to test them to see if they are of God. Also the Word says that in the last days many would say "Haven't I cast out devils and done many mighty works in your name?" And Jesus says He never knew them.
The Bible says Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get it. Wisdom, I mean. The Bible says that the every wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her hands. Then there is the parable of the wise man who built his house upon the ROCK.
And ya know at times, I get so spiritually hungry. And I turn on TV and watch the prophetesses speak. It's like going through the dumpster to try to find something to eat. See, our country is in a famine of the true word of God. It is no longer preached. But I can listen to prophets at times and pick up on what God is saying. It's like tryin' to listen to a tape recorder with a ten piece band marching in front of you. But God speaks His heart to me and often I can see He has spoken to the prophetess the same thing but she is in rebellion. See, women like Joyce M and some like Gloria Copeland are true prophetesses but are in rebellion. No one could dispute that. They are gifted and have an inner voice speaking the power of God. But they are Jonahs and are going the wrong way. They are Christian feminists. God has called them to be virtuous women -- to be keepers at home. How powerful they would be if they would obey God. Think of the abortions they could stop with their prayers. Think of the marriages they could save. No, I don't have the power of God that Gloria has. But I have the TRUTH. And I am tellin' you that in these last days, the Truth is what is gonna take you to heaven, not your power.
I am tellin' you what. The foundation of our nation is shakin'. We must be true to God and His word at all cost. No matter what we see or hear or experience, we must stay on the marriage covenant. This is our stability and our covering. We can't go around thinking about who should get a divorce or whatever. I am tellin' you what. God has kept me as I have stayed in my marriage promise. And yes, even though Jim is in heaven, I am going to still honor my marriage until I die. And this has brought stability to me, even as I have had many adjustments as a widow. But, see, the Bible speaks as wisdom being a foundation. The fear of God is the beginning of Wisdom.
The whole Bible speaks of the powerful women of faith as women who are keepers at home. None are preachers who stand up in church with a word from the Lord. She is not the spiritual leader as she stands and takes authority. She does take authority as she is obedient to her husband. Yes, she leads, guides, and directs the home with her prayers and intercessions. But on the outside, she learns in silence and subjection to her husband. Her husband is priest and covering of her life in the home. Jezebel stood up and ordered the prophets about. But Mary waited on God to give her beloved Joseph a dream. Elisabeth never told her husband off for not believing God. Zacharias was not a good and righteous man. And God took his voice away until John was born. And Elisabeth was the woman of faith who really saved the life of John through her faith.
True women of God are silent but deadly. God stands up for her and orders heaven and earth to attend her. She is not the strange woman who won't go home and be a servant to her husband. She is not full of pride. She takes the secret place and hides away unto God until God calls her out. She has a place with God and doesn't cry out for the attention of others. She has forsaken father and mother to cleave to her husband. She has abandoned herself to her husband and his seeds.
The word says that our children are not to forsake the law of their mothers. And the true mother of God would not ask her daughter to forsake her husband. And in this age of wickedness, we had better stand even more upon the marriage covenant. If your husband is truly hopeless or would harm the children, I think the Lord would cause the husband to leave. Because He says that the believer should not leave the unsaved. But too often, the wife leaves a terrible husband, only to find a boyfriend is doing worse to the children than the husband was. No. I mean, guard your children. And if husband doesn't leave, then stand for the children and don't let him harm them.
I want to say again that it isn't the power we have as women -- it is the TRUTH we have. I mean, the Bible says that we are to be keepers at home. So, of course, the devil is gonna try to throw us out of the house and into the lions den of the world. A mother bird thrown out of her nest will do a lot of tap dancin', especially if there is a cat in the area. And it seems a lot of these women are like that.
Well, I have to go.
Love,
Connie
