This is gonna be a message and a half. So get ready. The backdrop of this writing is something I have wanted to write on for a while. And Jill wrote back about Dixie, as I had written about Dixie and I asked Jill if she had anything to write and she did. I don't know if it went to the letters group or not. I hope it did. In her writing, she told of the good works Dixie did and so did I. And in Jill's writing she talked about how I had loved Dixie so much but it was all so obvious that she never said Dixie loved me.
Dixie was very anointed of God as a wife and homemaker. She had actually seen the spirit of wisdom. She was the most spiritual woman I have ever known. But I had been out to see Dixie with Jill and she would hardly talk to me or almost ignore me. She would get Jill a cup of coffee and almost not get me one. Now this is actually very hard to explain. Sometimes if I came to see Dixie without Jill, she wouldn't answer the door. Jill will tell you Dixie almost hated me. I mean not all the time but a lot of the time. I wouldn't have put up with that from anyone else. But ya know Dixie had such an anointing from God on her that I wanted to come to her house under any circumstances. She would tell me that I was a feminist and she would rebuke the devil from me. Oh yeah, I would be insulted for a while. But I loved God so much and I found this anointing nowhere but with Dixie and I had to have what she had. And I bugged her to the point that she would give me what I wanted, just to get rid of me for a while?
And somehow I sensed when she was about to leave the farm and I went out to see her. No license and on a dark road with no street lights. I barely drove the car except to the store. But my heart ached for the anointing. And I went out to her house just days before she left there. Still she didn't admit defeat. But she took a picture off the wall of her farm and she showed it to me. And she prayed the anointing upon me from that farm area. Dixie, in a way, had forsaken her anointing at that point. And she gave it to me. And God knows I am trying to give it to you all.
Dixie used to tell me, as she was put out with me, "You are after my oil and you won't get it." Meaning I was after the Holy Spirit within her. I didn't see it as that, but maybe it was so. But if it had been legal, Dixie would have shot me with a gun.
Many people didn't know Dixie was anointed. Jill did and I did. I would tell Dixie that she had a message -- a message that the world was dying for. She would wave me on with her hand. "Oh, Connie, those women in the world don't want this teaching on homemaking." But, oh, you all did and do, and I need it, too, still as an old woman. Dixie lived the life, as Jill said in her writing, and I was the writer. Dixie used to look down at the floor and say, "Connie, you have a lot of faith ... more then most people." But it seemed she hated me for it in the end. I fought her as Jacob fought the angel for the blessing. Her anointing in wisdom and as keeper at home was an anointing that you will rarely hear about. Jill and I were eye witnesses of an anointing that could change our nation. If we can only pipe it to ya.
As I think of Jill as I write, I laugh out loud. As I wrote just now about Dixie, I cried, but now Jill is a piece of work and I laugh when I think of her. Jill is anointed, too. She told me a few days ago about sending a card to this young man in jail. He is a young man that everyone has given up on. Anyone who is thought of as a total loser, Jill will send them a card and pray for 'em. She won't talk to them. God forbid! But I am tellin' you what, Jill is someone who is out of this world as far as faith goes. If she and I agree on something in prayer, it's done. Pray that she will write more on here. You all would be so blessed. Her gifts in homemaking are absolutely a treasure that should be told.
The Anointing
And ya know, I wrote Part 1 to try to explain to you that just because you want an anointing don't mean you will get it. You have to fight the world and the flesh for it. You have to desire God above your hurt feelings.
Some of you with unsaved husbands who try to beat an anointing out of you -- don't go for it. Don't be led about by a bad husband. Don't throw out your anointing because your husband came in drunk. Or he said he didn't like you or your life as a homemaker. Desire the anointing of God above your marriage.
Protect your anointing by your marriage. Don't give up your covering of marriage in order to get back at your husband. You are playing a cat and mouse game that you will never win. Don't give up an anointing of God because you want to make this sorry sucker pay for what he did. Fight an angel and get a broken hip. But don't give up your anointing.
See, the woman with the PLAGUE (Mark 5:29) grabbed the hem of Christ's garment. The world had put a plague upon this woman. It was in her female organs. And what did she need to be healed? She pulled virtue out of Jesus' garment. She pulled the power of the virtuous woman out of Jesus. And of all the folks pulling on Him, He felt the virtue go out of Him when she pulled it out. She wrestled the crowd to get to Him. Her very presence was against the law as she was bleeding and wasn't supposed to be out in public. But she had to go -- she had to go to save her own life. She wrestled the crowd to grab the lifesaving anointing. She was afraid but the anointing of God was the greater emotion. She knew Jesus was the man who could heal her. Folks probably pushed her and called her names but she didn't care -- she had to have the anointing.
The same with Solomon. He wanted the anointing or the wisdom to lead his people. And he wanted it above his reputation. He wanted it above riches or the revenge of his enemies. And God rewarded him with wisdom.
The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. But you must run the race and take with violence the anointing. And when you get it, it is the pearl of great price. But it slips easily out of your hands. If you become offended, you will lose it. Also, if you lose it, you won't get it back. If you out and out forsake it. I don't care how much you want it back, I don't think you can get it. I mean this is just my observation. I am sure Solomon wanted it back after he lost it. But he never got it ... I don't think, anyway. See, this is why God doesn't sometimes give us an anointing. Because if we are young spiritually, we may give it up too easily and never have a chance to get it back.
And I think God knew that Dixie had given it up and he gave it to me to see what I would do with it. Time will only tell what I will do. The question of many around me is, "What is Connie gonna do?" I have Jill tellin' me she will break my legs if I go against God. I tell folks that I am stayin' right here at the house until Jesus comes to get me. And the people of the world say, "Well, ya never know." And I say, "Well, I will just do what Jesus tells me to do." But I am tellin' you one thing, I am protecting the anointing on me at all costs. I am a covenant box and the covenant is safe at this point in me. But will I make it for the long haul? I don't know. I am depending on Him.
If anyone could break me, it would be Mary Elisabeth who I raised at my knee. If she doesn't break me, nothing will. But so far, the devil is putting much pressure on me to give up and declare that being a godly mother is worth nothing. My flesh screams out that all is lost. But the anointing in me cries out, "Don't give up -- help is coming."
We are tested and tried. But, oh, that anointing of peace that I feel is so precious. The works of righteousness brings peace and rest. "Oh, dear Jesus, anoint the daughters of Zion with an oil of Joy. Let our faces shine with the oil of Your anointing."
Wisdom
I dare say I have never written much of anything. If you were me, you would know what I mean. It is not a false modesty that I am tryin' to display. The only writings I ever wrote that even begin to touch on the reality I want to write about are the writings on Wisdom. The writings out of Proverbs 1-8 are the important writings ... as far as I feel it, anyway. Because the other, you can get from Debbie Pearl or some of the other writers. But what I haven't seen out there is the wisdom writings. Those are hard to write as they are so out there. They set ya free but you ain't sure how? But most of my writings are things I have learned on my knees and the wisdom writings are the writings I have to dig for in a different place. I have had a vision of myself laying face down by Dixie's old garden and sucking the wisdom out of the earth. As I swallowed it, and it was sweet in my soul, it came out my pen as a ready writer.
"Lord Jesus, please anoint our heads with oil and make our hair wet with thine anointing. Let us as Mothers and Wives see signs and wonders in our families. Let our homes be built upon a hill full of shining windows. Oh, God, as Satan desires to sift us as wheat, let us arise unto living lights that glow in the darkness."
OK, I have written about Spiritual Housewifery but it was choppy and wordy at best. It's hard to explain, I guess. Dixie was 135 pounds of wisdom and I only got about 30 pounds of that. I am a poor excuse.
But in Proverbs chapters 1-8, it speaks of Wisdom having a voice that you can hear. So it's like you can hear the Holy Spirit. And there is a male and female wisdom. But what I want to write on is the female part of wisdom. She has a voice. Chapter 1:20 says Wisdom crieth without. She utters her voice in the street. Verse 21 says she cries out in the chief places and in the gates of the city. Verse 23 says as Wisdom speaks "Turn you at my reproof. Behold I will pour out my spirit unto you. I will make known my words to you." She speaks as a mother to us and we can hear her with the ears of our spirits. Our spirit has ears but, so often, many of us only hear Jezebel's voice such as, "Make something of your life -- get a job" or "I want a divorce." But what does the virtuous woman of Wisdom say to us?
Also it is to her son so I will pick out the parts where she speaks to women. I mean all of it is for us. Just please read it. But one place, Chapter 2 verse 16, says that wisdom will deliver us from the spirit of Jez or the strange woman. Verse 17, the strange woman forsakes the guide of her youth and forgets the covenant of her God. This is speaking of a woman who knew the Lord. The Christian whore who knew the covenant and forsook it. Her house is the house of death. So this means not to have anything to do with a whore or a church that doesn't teach on Titus 2.
Proverbs 2:13- Happy is the man (woman) who finds wisdom. 14 says that wisdom is better than money and worth more. And I am here to tell you, this is true. 15- Wisdom is more precious then rubies. Her ways are ways of pleasantness and all her paths are peace.
18- She is a tree of life. "Happy is the one who can retain her." Yes, to retain her is important. To retain her until you see His glory. It don't count if ya give up. You young women are being trained now to be virtuous Titus 2 Mothers.
19- "The Lord founded the earth with wisdom." Wisdom is our foundation. The wise man (woman) builds their house upon the rock. Proverbs 14:1 says EVERY wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down.
Chapter 4:5- Get wisdom. Get understanding. 6- Forsake her not and she shall preserve thee. Love her and she shall keep thee. 7- Wisdom is the principal thing. 8- Exalt her and she shall promote you. She will bring you to honor when you embrace her.
I want to keep writing on this but I want to say that the Proverbs 31 woman is the picture of Proverbs.
