Today I am answering Alaine's email response. Alaine is a young wife and mom of four children. She has been delivered of feminism lately and from the spirit of Lady Preacher. She has given her OK for me to share her life a bit. And, Alaine, maybe you could write a testimony that we could send to the letters group? Anyway, I want to share her life as I think, to some degree, all of us women fight the spirit of Jezebel. We are not really fighting women in the flesh but we are fighting demons of witchcraft in the spirit realm. Everything starts out in the Spirit first.
Satan has always been after the godly seed. Satan comes after the Marys, the ones who carry seeds of Christ. In the Bible, in practically every book, the devil is trying to kill the believer and their seeds. We as godly mothers evangelize through spiritual seeds and through our bodies of flesh. So, of course, we know that God doesn't want any true Godly mother to be on any form of birth control. The devil's crowd don't care how many seeds they plant. But it is so called "common sense" for the Christian mother to use birth control. Where would we be if Mary, Jesus' mother, used birth control? Or Elisabeth or any of the great mothers in the Word of God? Satan wants us Christian mothers to think we have no place in God until we tie our tubes and begin to act like Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. As if we have no place of power in our role as Marys.
Mary is our example. Mary didn't care what anyone thought of her. She was a woman of prayer and knew that the Son of God would be born soon and to a virgin. And when the angel spoke to Mary she was ready to believe God for a miracle. She had confidence in God and confidence in herself as His child. She didn't go back to church and have a deacons meeting to see what they thought about it. She just waited on the Lord and waited for her husband (to be) Joseph to have the dream from the Lord. Then, long story short, they ran outta town. Mary was a revolutionist -- she was a very free thinker. She knew how to submit to her Joseph but no one owned her mind but God. She was a Joan of Arc on a mission.
I wish I had enough faith to believe for a supernatural birth as she did. She believed it when the Lord overshadowed her, and she conceived a supernatural seed from God. That's beyond me! But I do believe that many of you will live to see the day that many women of God will conceive a baby supernaturally. This should be normal in the body of Christ. Sarah conceived supernaturally and so did Elisabeth and others in the Word. When Naomi's daughters-in-law wanted to go with her? Naomi said that she had no more sons to give them. Naomi didn't say she was too old to conceive a seed and bear a son ... because Sarah was her mother of faith. But Naomi said she couldn't bear anymore children as she had no husband. I think it was a normal thing in Bible times for women of God to bear children up to 60 years old. Because of the scriptures about the widows marrying again and bearing children if they are under 60.
See, our college of the Spirit is taught to us through childbearing. We are saved from the deceptions of this world through childbearing. We learn the gifts of the Spirit and the fruits of the Spirit through our place as Keepers at Home. And God knows (and I hope you all know) that I have learned everything I write THE HARD WAY! Well, I know you all know I didn't learn it at church.
I understood the Covenant of Marriage. And I let this cover me and keep me in His will. I let this marriage promise lock me in a prison the first years of my marriage. But then later, as I was faithful, my marriage covenant took me to a joyful place where I was set on a pedestal by my dear husband. But in the prison, I learned how to be set free to enter the palace and to be a queen.
It is God who exalts us or publishes us.
Lady Preachers
And ya know, Alaine, I knew I had such a call on my life from God when I was a young mom. Out in the garden, I would preach to the trees. It would just come up out of me -- then I would rebuke it in Jesus name. And I would tell Christians about it. That I rebuked the spirit of preaching in me. And they thought I was quenching the Holy Spirit wihin me. My own mentors would tell me that I was a lady preacher and there was nothing I could do about it. Many thought I would be free now to become a lady preacher since Jim died. No. Heck no. If God had wanted me to be a lady preacher, I would have been one, with or without Jim. But I could see early on that I could do a lot more damage to the devil by being a Titus 2 Mother.
The plan of Satan is to discourage, and to cause fear, to the Mother in her Home. Because Satan knows that God is raising up an army of children right now that will be mighty warriors for Him. I mean, we are in an all out war in our country. The heavenlies are ablaze right now with spiritual activity. It suffers violence and the violent take it by force. There is a part in the Bible where it tells the writer to mark the people who are not grieved and do not sigh while the temple is being torn down. And the ones who did not grieve and sigh were killed.
See, these lady preachers are a curse to the church and to God's people. It's not enough that the Mothers have left the home and the child predators have taken over. Now the Mother has left the body of Christ.
The Spirit of Christ cries with deep intercessions for the Mothers to come back home. He cries for them to quit killing their babies through abortion. How many John the Baptists are dead at the dump? Put there by Christian Mothers? The Holy Spirit bays and vomits grief for these children that are His. He knew them in their Mothers' wombs. He knew them. He talked to them. He made them. They were not just flesh but they were His own. How can our hearts as Mothers not do something about this? Well, it's because our hearts have become hardened.
Lady Preacher ain't worried about abortion or your marriage covenant. Lady Preacher is up there being seen and flaunting her new clothes. I often think, had these women been wise, what wonderful Titus 2 mothers they would be. But, see, the hidden woman that God uses for His glory is a woman of dignity and honor. She doesn't have to be seen. She is like Mary. She knows the times and the seasons of the earth. She knows the heart of God. She is the same on stage or alone in her house. Because Jesus is her confidence and not the applause of man.
Ya know, a lot of times, I write on here and I think it was good. And no one comments on it and I feel so lonely, needing a shoulder to lean on or to communicate with. But I know the Lord tests me. "Connie, will you write alone in your house with no one caring one way or the other. Or do you need to be petted all the time to write?" God don't need me if all I do is write for applause. He has enough of those women. And ya know, Alaine, I really tested God on this writing I do. For the first four years, I wrote on the e-machine and never paid my internet bill. Finally, when Jim saw that this writing was from God, he started paying it. Someone kept paying for the bill. I called the company and told them it was a mistake but they wouldn't listen to me. They would say, "Who is this?" I would say, "Connie." And they would say, "Connie is paying the bill." I really believe it was a mix up in their billing but they never figured it out. I tried to tell 'em. And I gave up this writing a half a hundred times. I wanted to take this e-machine and throw it out the window. I had finally learned how to be God's hidden woman and what did God do? He calls me to write on the internet. That nearly killed me. Talk about crying. I cried my heart out but wanted to be in His will.
Prison to Palace
But ya know, Alaine, if Sharon White didn't write my books for me I wouldn't ever get one published. My goal in life isn't to make some money. The push and shove of my life is to write the truth out for the wife and mother at home. If this writing makes me popular, or whatever, then fine. But it is more likely it will get me killed. But my heart wants to write out the truth.
I suffered like a dog as a young wife and mother. I had the Roman soldiers constantly about me, slashing my heart with a sword. One time an aunt of mine took me out for lunch. I was pregnant with David, my miracle child. She said to me, as I sat quietly waiting to be served, "Look a the shape you are in -- it is a disgrace." I was so hurt and I never forgot it. I had to hold back hot tears through the whole meal. And every time I got pregnant, the comments were so cruel from the older women around me. When I brought John home from the hospital, my aunt met me at the door with "What are you gonna do with it?" I had barley any pictures of Johnny. I was so poor and Jim was in prison. The neighbors hated me because Jim was always in the newspaper. They were afraid of me and tried to get me out of the neighborhood. The city sued us because our sidewalk wasn't shoveled and a lady barely sprained her ankle. The fight went on for five years.
I had so little encouragement. At night, I slept with my Bible and with study books all around in my blankets. I put the Word of God upon my wall and woke up to it each morning. I was too grieved to eat much and weighed from 95 to 100 pounds and was 5 foot 8 inches tall. This was my Bible college days and this is how I learned what I write. I learned that God can bring you through anything as long as your confidence is not in the arm of flesh but in the heart of Jesus. I literally climbed out of my prison one Bible verse at a time and landed in the Lord's palace. I learned to be the virtuous woman, the woman of power. I hung onto the hem of His garment and drew virtue out of Him.
What these lady preachers preach is pure poison. They have some truth and tell you how to get out of the mundane problems of the world. But a woman's true place in the home where she learns the deeper truths will never be told to you by Lady Preacher. She knows not the deep things of God. She lives on the crust of the land. But the deep delivering power of God is taught by the experiences of the home. And only as the marriage covenant is not broken.
Jesus went willingly to the cross to die. And some of us as wives must take a key and lock our own selves away in a prison to learn of God. Some of you feel like you are already in a prison. Don't fight this prison but wait upon God as Joseph did. If you will die with Jesus, you will also reign with Him. There is much to learn in the furnace of affliction. And even more to learn as VICTORY IN JESUS COMES.
God gave me more then double happy days for all that I suffered. He is true to His word. But, Alaine, I think it's all a choice in where ya want to end up in God. Will we be like Mary and be poor revolutionist -- or will we be like Joyce M who gets her glory here on earth?
I suffered enough, I guess, that money don't mean much to me anymore. I ache so much in my soul for the life of the Christian Mother in her Home. I guess I just can't stand to think that anyone would have to go through what I went through with no truth to uphold them. But you stand Lady Preacher up against the true virtuous woman and the virtuous woman's power is so much greater. As the days come to a close, the lady preacher knows her day is short. Now she is attacking openly the virtuous woman from the pulpit. It's sad, for sure.
Feminism is an unholy fire and only the truth will protect us. We must rebuke these spirits from our homes by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimonies. And most important is that we don't love our own lives unto death.
