Dear Mothers,
Jill came over yesterday with Jane and we had a wonderful time in prayer. I don't want to forget it or some of the things the Lord told me about it. Jane is doing so well and is another Dixie, as far as faith goes. Jane says electricity goes through her body when she feels the Holy Spirit. She is just loaded with Jesus.
When I woke up this morning, the Lord said in the ears of my heart, (I mean, this isn't word for word but in thought, it was), "Connie, I am going to give the women on the group many victories -- that's a given." He said that was just the overflow. But He said, "You and Jill have been praying a foundation of faith for your families and Satan will never have any of your kids. You have been through the tests and the trials and didn't give up. All of your children will be taught of the Lord and great will be their peace." I could see that very clear as we prayed here in the dining room.
Jill and I told Jane many stories about how Jim was miraculously saved and delivered. Jill told me that, as she reads my daily writings, I am getting closer to the reality of what Jim went through. She told me that it is so hard for me to explain because it was such a strange set of circumstances. I asked her to write some testimony of it on the email. I know that what I write about Jim and me is sometimes just out of this world. But it WAS very much out of this world! And there are deep hidden lessons to be learned in it all. There is a treasure of wisdom to be told about all of it.
I feel that I practice telling it to you ladies as I try to daily uncover the true flavor and mood of all of Jim's and my marriage. I know it could be a remedy to many broken marriages. I just feel, when I write, that the Lord wants me to call the broken marriage back to the land -- back to working with your hands. Back to you and your husband against the world. As women have become their own protectors, the husband no longer feels the need to protect or go out and slay dragons for the wife and kids at home. Jim always talked about "Connie and the kids." He felt he had to take care of us any way he could. And I kept myself by faith vulnerable to Jim -- and how did I do this after he had left me many times? That was such an uphill climb.
After we told Jane how we had prayed for Jim, she got up and went over to her sister Jill and cried. She hugged Jill and said, "Sis, thanks so much for not giving up on me. Thanks so much for praying for me." I hadn't prayed like Jill but I prayed some in agreement for Jane's deliverance. I felt so honored that Jane thanked me, too, for my prayers.
Jane was in the gay lifestyle. But it wasn't all that gay. We had been praying for her for about 20 years. She got set free the first time out on Dixie's farm. But then she went back and the past years, before she came to Christ again recently, were a nightmare. I see her now about every week or two. And I tell ya, every time I see her, she looks more anointed than when I saw her the last time. She is becoming quite the godly virtuous woman. She is a Joan of Arc. And we talked about being Warriors for Christ. The Lord told her He wanted to give her a real sword (representing the word of God). And the Lord told her to go to this store and it would be there. She went to this second hand store. And she couldn't find the one the Lord had for her. She had looked and looked. And pretty soon, she went up to the store clerk and asked her, "Do you have a sword I could buy?" And the lady took it out from behind a shelf. She said later that she wasn't going to sell the sword unless someone asked for it specifically. Jill told me that it is a beautiful golden sword. And on it says "The Crusader". The Lord has been speaking to me about being a warrior, too. Jane lives in a lovely Victorian home for Christian ladies. She studies and goes to Bible groups daily.
Victory in Jesus
But, oh, we had a lovely time in prayer. I didn't want to even bring up Mary and Brandon as I didn't want to cry. But the Lord said to and I did and, of course, I cried. Jill got up and prayed and swung that devil every way but loose. And then Jane came over to pray for me and when she touched me on my shoulder, I jumped. It was funny -- I could just feel the Lord in her touch.
This morning when I woke up, I could sense the angels rockin' Brandon's boat (life) back and forth and vibrating his soul. After Jill had prayed for me yesterday, she said, "Connie, this ain't nothin' -- you have been through worse than this." All I can say is if I was Brandon, I would quit now and give up while he still can. Because it is as though Jane has taken Dixie's place. And, ya know, when Jill and Dixie and I got in agreement, anything could happen. And, surely, Jim was a bigger gun than Brandon. So Brandon is in the bag. Praise God. And I know that all of you are in agreement with me, too, that Brandon will be raised up for the Lord Jesus Christ. He will be a mighty warrior for the Kingdom of righteousness.
And, ya know, I think the Lord healed Brandon of Chrons. Mary says he looks healthy. I mean, he almost died and God healed him. And so what does he do but get healed and go the wrong way. I mean, he was a wrack of bones weighing only about 90 pounds. Then God healed him and he has used his wellness for the devil. But God is ending his little career of evil. I can even see him in my spirit when I pray. And he is saying that he knows I have been prayin' for him and he knows he is doing wrong and plans to stop and do right.
I think sometimes a person taken in sin can't stop it, even though they know it's wrong. Sometimes they think they just have to ride it out. Or they are so bound that they can't stop or even ride it out. And a prayer warrior has to come along and pray and rebuke Satan. And, ya know, someone with the Power of God has to just keep bangin' into Satan until he lets the captive go free. I mean, this is why we believers are here. It is to pray the captives free -- to lay hands on the sick so they will recover. Satan takes folks captive to sin and they can't get loose on their own. And the devil will bang away at the believer and try to get the Christian to give up and quit slingin' that sword and shield. And, oh, he will lie to ya about who you are prayin' for. Mary told me so many things about Brandon and she found out later someone had lied to her about it. Here I would be up in the night prayin' and the whole thing was a lie. Satan is a deceiver. But we have to just keep on plowin' away and not stop, no matter how bad things get or what lies are told us. We can't give up.
We are here to bring heaven to the earth that His will is done on earth as it is in heaven. This is why we are here, to fight the good fight of faith. It isn't so that we can have a life of ease and luxury. In the Garden of Eden, Satan was not in control as he is in parts of the world today. Satan is an enemy of Christ, and our enemy as we follow Jesus. But some demons won't let go without prayer and fasting. The disciples couldn't do the works of Christ at times because they lacked the power. And Jesus told them that some demons are harder to cast out. Not a problem -- it just takes longer. But the fervent prayers of a righteous woman availeth much.
Love,
Connie
