Well, I hope Jim gets to come home today. I have to go get groceries this morning. I want to spruce the house up a bit, too. I know Wild Man will be fuming if the doctor says he would have to stay another day. As it is, he is about to jump out of his skin. And, of course, I am ready to do the same because he is.
I had to give myself a pep talk in the night last night. Oh, mercy, I had better be made out of more blood and guts than I ever have been. I was telling MaryL, my mentor, last night on the phone that I always feel I am pressing on the boundary line. Always going beyond where I ever have.
I used to be able to see my pathway but now it's like each day I am hitting into new spiritual places that I have never been before. I think of Daniel Boone who was a trailblazer. Each day he walked along alone and searched for new paths to bring the settlers through. But he had a thirst for adventure and he loved to find new paths to walk through. This morning, as I stand here writing, I am trying to think of the brave people who have gone before me. Folks who had to just get up in the morning and do what needed to be done.
I am a scaredy cat. Oh, such a scaredy cat. I cry out to God to let me PLEASE roll over and play dead. Can't I stay in bed with a pretty quilt over my head? To forge ahead in faith? Oh, my mercy. I know some of you are there, huh? You don't know what the future holds but we know who holds the future? Right? Hellllooo? I mean, we just have to expect a Miracle every day.
I heard a man speak once about his mother who had a lot of faith. He said that every time his Mother heard a knock at the door or she got a letter in the mail, she said, "Oh, is this an answer to my prayers? Is this my miracle?" Oh, we need faith like this. When Jim and I were separated many years ago and I would get a phone call in the night, I would think it was Jim and that he wanted to get back together again. Oh, we have to stay expectant as we blaze new trails and hear new callings from the Holy Spirit. We don't know what each day will bring. But we must be ready for a miracle each day. And we don't know what hour the Lord Jesus will come. He will come when we least expect it. But if we are expecting miracles in our lives, then we will be ready for Him, no matter when He comes.
We as believers are not of this world. We are living in an eternal kingdom even now. We are starting our Eternity now. We walk as if things are, that are not. We believe that we have from God what we ask for. Mark 11:23 and 24. Read both verses and then 24 says Therefore I say unto you. Whatsoever ye desire when you pray BELIEVE that you receive them and ye shall have them. So we believe first and then we receive. We don't pray and then look at circumstances to see if all is well. If it ain't all well when we pray, then it ain't all well, anyway.
We pray at home until we see His glory. Until we see the answer in our hearts. You believe with your imagination. You must see with the eyes of your heart and the ears of your heart. I mean, this is the ideal. But sometimes we pray and we don't see the answer and so we just have to believe with as much heart as we have then b.s. our way the rest of the way home. Thats just how it goes . We just go ahead and do what we need to do with as many guts as we can muster up. And may the Lord forgive us for our unbelief. "Lord Jesus, please forgive us and help us to walk with you."
The Lord puts us in these hard situations so that He can be glorified. We as trailblazers are called to go beyond the natural realm and press forward to the supernatural places in God. We want to see miracles but we don't want to be put into situations where we have to have a miracle or die. We want easy trials. I sure do. We want trials that are within the boundaries of what we have believed God for before. We don't want to be uncomfortable.
Walk by Faith
Ya know, as followers of Christ, we are on the move. We cannot please God without faith. We cannot do anything to glorify Him if we are walking by what we see. This world is temporary, a place to be tested. It is always subject to change. But the Lord God and His heavenly kingdom never changes. He is the same yesterday TODAY and forever.
Oh, we get up to blaze a trail through our darkness. We wonder what is on the other side of the hill. We shrink back in fear and don't want to walk to see what is on the other side of the hill. But we must go, whether we have a faith to hold us up and keep us happy or if we are just b.s.-ing. We gotta go look to see what is on the other side of the hill.
