The gas heat just went on, so I heard it in my bed and got up to enjoy it. A lot of times, when it is so cold I don't want to get out of my nice warm bed ... well, I hate to turn the kerosene burner on and waste all the oil in the middle of the night, when I could just as well stay in bed and let wild man keep me warm. But, anyway, the heat went on accidentally and I am up and writing. Yee haw, heat!
I have a writing in my heart concerning the voice of His Spirit. Ya know, a lot of what we think is God's voice many times is not. If we have had the devil run into us and give us horrendous grief, then Satan will feed on that. Then we get horrid thoughts and the devil tells us it is God speaking to us. But, see, what we are doing is bouncing off the memories of the tragedy in our lives.
It's just like if you were to get hit by a car on your way across the street. Your body would be afraid to cross the street for a long time. And when our hearts are wounded, then for a long time, we want to bounce off that wound because we are afraid to go on or cross the street again. And we listen to a voice of fear as it seems so safe, in a way. But we can't cower down in fear -- we must go on. And we must sing a new song and ring another bell. We must put our hands to the plow and not look back. And God's word is true. It is the only truth and we must again train our spirits to be brave and to look at God as the authority in our lives.
We can't make our experience of tragedy our truth. Last night, I talked with Mary, our daughter age 20, who just lost her baby. "Mom, I don't think I will ever become pregnant again."
I said, "Mary, that is not God telling you that. You are only bouncing off the tragedy that happened to you. You will have many more children. The Lord will restore you and give you Joy again." But, see, Mary is very spiritual and she thought maybe God was telling her that she would never have another child. And, see, we as women do this. We gauge the voice of God by our own experiences. But God speaks the command to us believers, "Multiply and replenish the earth." So we know it is God's will for Mary to have many children and I don't doubt she will.
But, see, when we have a Mack Truck run over our hearts, we then gauge the voice of God by our experiences rather then the word of God. Also, we underestimate the devil. No, he doesn't have the power God has. But he isn't a sort of elf out there with the mind of a 5 year old. He is a spiritual outlaw. He has a mind like Hitler. Only, he is spiritual and plays with the mind of the believer. He is criminally insane. And he connives thoughts in our minds and then tries to develop images of evil for us to look at. He has no power over the believer. But he is hoping that you don't know that? He works through fear to paralyze us and keep us from moving out in faith. He works through your inner court and tries to run the world through your mind. Your temple.
Satan comes easily into the inner court of a woman who is out of submission to her husband. The word says that the meek and quiet spirit is the spirit of a woman who submits to her husband. Satan gets some women so puffed up in pride that their husbands can't do anything with them. Our Mary's strength and her husband's strength is that they have a good marriage. They are one in their marriage. This tragedy has caused Mary and Brandon to cling to each other as never before.
Satan wants us to fear what will happen to us. But the word of God says that we are not to fear the devil, but to fear God and His judgment. So if you have a voice inside of you that is telling you to fear your circumstances, then this is not God's voice. This could be your imagination or the voice of Satan. But the voice of fear is not God's voice. See, the word of God tells us to renew our minds with the Word of God. And to meditate upon the word of God. So ya take a Christian woman who has a lot of pressure going on around her. Her family is out of order and she is running wild. Satan is screeeaming bloody murder and she says, "I think God is leading me to get a divorce." No, read the word of God -- don't judge God by your life. Judge God and who He is by His word.
So ya take this woman who has been dealt a hand of cards that is sure to lose. But she is stout hearted and loves God. She is under the gun and yet she reads the word of God and loves God. And as she meditates upon Him and His word, she hears a sweet voice and it says, "All is well -- do not be afraid. God is with you. Your family will come together and be OK." And this dear saint of God meditates on the word that says, "All of my children are taught of the Lord and great is their peace." Well, see, this is the voice of God speaking to this dear Mother, and she can take it to the bank. It's the truth and she can believe it, as it is God's Word.
But it seems that many Christian Mothers are just bouncing off their experiences and saying God spoke to them to give up on their children or their husbands. This is the voice of Satan telling you that. The Bible says that it isn't God's will that any should perish but that all should come to the knowledge of Christ. So why would God tell you that your child was hopeless? And we do have to spend time with the Lord in order to hear His voice. And if someone tells you, "Well, God told me to tell you thus and so." Well, line it up to the word of God. There are many voices out there to shut off or to listen to.
Honestly, I have never seen so many lying spirits out there as I have seen lately. Ya know, witchcraft is out there in full force lately. Cursing spirits are out there and they are strong. Folks do start stories to curse others and they haven't even a smack of truth in them.
But, see, often parents will put young teenagers down because they think they are facing the truth or the reality. But say ya have a child that is always "seemingly" getting in trouble and yet he is always found innocent? And over and over again you find no evidence that this child has done wrong. And yet you have a feeling of fear over the child. Every time this kid walks in the room, you feel a fear attack. And you think, "Something ain't right with that kid. Why do I feel fearful when he walks into the room?" Well, that is the devil cursing this child.
Fear is a power like faith. It is a spiritual thing and doesn't have to have a physical evidence of anything to make you fear -- you just do. Fear is the opposite of faith. But say someone has lied about your child and, even though he was innocent, you were attacked by a fear. The fear stayed, even though you knew your child was OK. The fear made a way into your inner court. You were attacked by the devil. He stabbed your Mother Heart. But Jesus has come to bind up the broken in heart and to set the captive free. So where there was fear because of cursing spirits from Satan, you, as this child's mother, must meditate upon the word of God and His promises concerning the blessings of our seeds. You must cast this fear out of your heart, as it is destroying your family. And replace this fear with the promises of God concerning your family.
When I went through my bad marriage for 12 years, I saw nothing but hell for a long time. Satan tried to prove to me that God hated me. I had been left and abandoned with my children over 30 times and the hell I went through, I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And Satan thought he had me down and didn't plan on letting me go. After Jim was saved, healed, and delivered, I was left with nothing but the past looming before me. But God told me that the devil had brainwashed me and that Jim was healed and all was well. And all was well, too. But, see, I could have destroyed my victory through the fear. The devil wanted to just kill me with fear.
So many Christian mothers are so weak in their spirits. They have a tiger by the tail and they can't let go and they can't hang on. The word of God is not preached to them concerning where they live and what makes their GUTS hurt. So they take nerve pills and what have ya in order to stand life. And if I get outta whack, no nerve pill will help me. I know that, so I try not to get too unglued. Both Mary and Brandon are on nerve pills. And they gave me one and it didn't even phase me. I mean my legs got weak but that was it. I had been so grieved and hadn't slept. They both told me that this nerve pill would put me out and it barely put me to sleep. So, I mean, if I am gonna get nervous, I will do it in a big way. So I know with me, it is His way or the highway.
But we have to learn to discern His voice and to meditate in His word. If you feel out of control and you just feel like you want to die, then this is because you aren't spending enough time in God's word and prayer and meditation upon Him. He is the peace that passeth understanding. We can be peaceful and content. And we can get back up, even though Satan has tried to kill us. I should know -- I do it all the time. Not with my strength, but with His strength. He can come into you and give you peace.
See, right after Jim got saved, I would have days of just battling the thoughts of fear in my mind. One day, the Lord had me get this old book at the library on Joan of Arc. I read it and the Lord spoke to me. He told me to listen to the voice of God and not the voice of Satan. Well, I had been trying to do that but was so weak in faith. And then, on and on, gradually, I was healed of my fears through the word of God. But, see, we need to hear a clear call of God.
I hear so much preaching going on that has nothing to do with where most of us live. Well, Jesus is with us and is interested? He is our personal Savior and wants to speak to us. He is the healer and the comforter. The truth is that we as mothers are called as keepers at home. Now, Satan will try to lie to ya on that and get ya to worry over it, and so forth. But read the word on it. Quit looking at who did what. God is your source of peace and rest in this troubled world. Yes, many mothers have jobs and all, and they are Christians. And they seemingly can do it all ... run a house and keep everyone happy at work. Well, she can do it, but what about the baby?
My friend works at a Christian daycare. And the workers there are just a breath away from calling D.H.S. and having them shut down. I would give that place about another week at the most. The woman who runs it takes off and goes shopping and forgets the whole thing. Kids are getting hurt because they have, like, one worker for 12 babies. The head of the place -- this woman -- fires people so she won't have to pay them. She wants the money only. And this is so-called Christian daycare.
Read the word of God. It's says "Every wise woman builds her house and the foolish woman plucks it down with her own hands." Anyone who tells you to go get a job when you have a houseful of babies has denied the faith and is worse than an infidel.
And, ya know, around here, if a woman gets pregnant, she has to hide from the church folks in most of the churches. Now, why would a family put up with this kind of nonsense? This is your child and they wanted you to kill it? At church? Or at least leave it in daycare. I mean, get a life and read the pure word of God. Quit trying to be like the men in the Bible, and rest in the teachings of the lives of the women who followed God through childbearing. Right here is where so many women are being deceived. They swallow this stuff about planned barrenhood and then the sky is the limit. They become deceived on every other level. They become accidents going someplace and they are their own worst enemies.
There needs to be a clear call to Mother to come back HOME. So you may ask me what I would do if Jim was out of work and I had a houseful of children and we were going under financially? Well, welcome to my life. I would stand still and wait for the Lord to rescue me. I would stand upon the word of God and expect a miracle. If the Lord blessed me with a houseful of children, I would think it common sense that He would provide for the children. I wouldn't abandon my children and go get a stupid job. I mean the children are hurting, too, when a family falls into hard times. Then the mother leaves the home and further upsets the family?
And, ya know, since time began, Mothers were keepers at home. But with this wicked society we have started about 32 years ago, we now don't believe Mother's place is at home. And look at the results? Let's go back to the bend in the road and start over and, as Mothers and wives, make homes and places of refuge for our families. And on this teaching and true standard of living, you will come more and more into the truth of the Bible.
Listen to His voice and His truth and give your life for it. To heck with what folks think. Don't throw your heritage away for this world's approval. Learn to stand alone on the word of God.
