Well, Dot, I know I said I would write on wisdom today. Well, I almost need a vision to do that ... anybody got any? I have never read anything on the wisdom of the Bible as it pertains to the homemaking spirit. So I have to get it all from the Lord. And, ya know, ya can't very well just turn Him on and off at will. I am hoping, as I write, He will feel sorry for me and give me some wisdom.
Well, Dixie talked about it. But I am the writer and so I have tried to put her into words. And only from what I remember. I have some of wisdom on my own but not that much. But, ya know, Dixie never watched TV when she walked with wisdom, and she never had a phone. Certainly, she never had a computer. She had a radio and listened to that in the evening. Aside from that, no ... she only heard the Lord ... and the voice of wisdom.
Dixie's husband Bill was a truck driver and gone a lot. So a lot of the time, it was just her and Emily in the house. But when you were with Dixie, you were always totally entertained. And Em just loved being with her mother, and just loved listening to her and working with her. Dixie was like a book of wisdom and you wanted to hear every word that came out of her mouth. I never wanted to miss anything. And I would leave her house long before I wanted to, as I wanted to be able to come back again. Emily loved me and wanted me to stay ... and so she would try to keep me there and I would be trying to leave.
Oh, that Em was always such a cute little girl. And as a mom of 2 preschoolers, she is still so cute. Her husband Chris is a good husband to Emily, PTL. Em tells me, "Mom was my best friend as well as my mother. I was blessed to have her." Emily was adopted when she was only 6 months old.
Well, Jim just got home so I have to quit. Hopefully, I can write tomorrow.
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Well, Dot asked me to write about Ruby and her voice of wisdom. So here I am attempting it again this morning. Boy, Dot, you know how to open up a can of worms.
I say this because the wisdom of God is so illusive. It's like playing a violin and somehow reaching a certain tone that pulls at your soul. And you hear it and long to hear it again. But you can't find it. It's like a song you made up and forgot, and it was so lovely and it moved your soul and set you free. And you have tried to find that wind of inspiration again but you couldn't. And now it is a bittersweet moment that you feel as though you will never find again. And then someone asks you to find it for them, and so you search for it again. Discouragement will take the wisdom of God right out of ya. The world will take it out of ya.
The wisdom of God is the natural revelation of God, as talked about in Romans 1. And, of course, Proverbs. I think Mother Nature is the voice of Ruby.
The wise woman builds her house. Wisdom is the stability of the times. The voice of wisdom can bring order where there is disorder in the home. It's because the wisdom of God has nothing to do with the world and the voice of the world. The voice of feminism is what will choke the wisdom out of your heart. A woman's home is a place of a authority for her. It is a God-given authority. We are called as women to be keepers at home. When a married woman with children leaves her home, she comes out of her place of authority and loses her authority to the world.
God plants seeds of wisdom in our hearts, but then the devil tries to choke it out with the lust of other things. Worry will keep the wisdom of God from flowing in your heart and from being fruitful. You become as a woman who can't receive a physical seed from her husband. She may want to become pregnant, but the worry and confusion keeps her from conceiving. And in the spirit realm, the woman is to conceive spiritual seeds from God. And the main one for a married mother is the wisdom of God.
A godly woman is always fruitful, both in the physical and in the spiritual. Psalms 92:14 They shall still bring forth fruit in old age and be fat and flourishing. I think this is talking to Godly older mothers and speaks of being fruitful in the spirit and in the physical. Sarah bore fruit in her old age and, of course, she is our mother of faith. Sarah started out contentious but learned how to be a submissive wife. And she became spiritually fruitful and physically fruitful. Just think what she would have been like when she was young, had she been obedient to God.
And this is a side note, but I think women like Joyce M are like this. They are great women of faith who are misdirected because of a contentiousness toward their husbands. And they are jumping over a great teaching for women that would set them free. But pride and and lack of knowledge holds Lady Preacher in bondage. Satan has rewired these women who could have been fruitful for God.
Our world is crying out for women who have the wisdom of God. I know of it, but I have a danged hard time walking it out. If I ever figure it out, it will be my best writings. So thanks, Dot, for shaking me out of my thud? You have set me back on course and, hopefully, my sail in the wind is pointed toward the wisdom of God.
I do see in my spirit volumes of books on wisdom. They have gold pages. I pray I get that written some day. I can see this book as I write. It will be about the old time homemaking. I see a book on sewing taught by Ruby and one on washing the clothes with a wringer washer, and one on child training. I see different books written with the Wisdom of God.
"Oh, pull us back, Lord, from the world, that we will see the true riches from heaven. That we would know the wisdom of God."
OK, as I write, I am having a picture in my mind. It is of a mother flipping from the wisdom of God to the world. She is caring for the baby and the phone rings or something distracts her. She leaves her place in the Spirit and visits with the world for a while. She flips from the leading of the Holy Spirit to the calling from the world. As she flips from one side to the other, she never holds the wisdom of God in her spiritual womb long enough for it to take hold. Worry and fear causes her to chase one spirit to the next, never settling long enough to let her seeds of wisdom take hold and grow. And some women, this is their problem of why they can't get pregnant in the physical. They start out in the wisdom of God, then fear comes and they worry over it and chase the fear and not the wisdom of God.
"Ruby" is the name I have given to the voice that is described in Proverbs -- I think about the first 8 chapters. Ruby don't play with us women. It's her way or the highway, let me tell ya. She won't come to a house where a woman is contentious with her husband. Proverbs describes her. She is not the strange woman who runs about uncovered by her husband. Ruby's voice is in the city as well as in the home. But her voice calls the women who are worldly out of the city to come back home to do their work at home. She calls us to our sewing and making crafts and cooking supper and baking a daily bread.
Today Jim and I will go to the Amish village for our anniversary. When I go into some of the stores there, it breaks my heart. Ruby calls me and I get so sober and my heart calls back to her. When I go to the grocery store there, and see all of the homemade bread the women make, then Ruby calls me. "Connie where is your homemade bread? You could do all this in your home." And I wonder to myself, "Connie, what are you doing? How long will God stay with you on this?" And my heart is crushed as I know the Lord calls me to homemaking. And I wonder just how much longer the Lord will strive with me and put up with me.
Oh, I am into my homemaking. I made pumpkin bread yesterday and chocolate chip cookies and chili. But I have a deeper calling to wisdom and I know the Lord wants me to bear much fruit concerning the wisdom of God. But I am such a loose goose sometimes. And Jim has been out of work and wanting me to do this and that. I long for the quiet days to do my homemaking and to hear His voice. But that is not enough to have a few days here and there.
The deal is not to find the wisdom of God, as we can all find Ruby in the word of God. But the work of faith is to find Ruby and have her live daily in our homes. We need to call wisdom, or Ruby, our sister and understanding our kinswoman. Ruby needs to be our companion that we walk with daily. She is the helper, the counselor. Her voice must call us to our children and to our homemaking. Not once a week, but daily and each moment.
Her voice is clear in Proverbs. She calls us to exalt wisdom and listen to her voice. In the world, let the dead bury the dead. But we sisters of wisdom have a heavenly work to do. We must catch the voice of wisdom through reading Proverbs and let her voice dwell in us. Let the wisdom of God direct your steps and not the voice of feminism or the voice of the world. Do whatever it takes to root out the bitterness in your hearts, and let your hearts be pure and tender to follow Ruby. And in this journey, you will bear much good fruit for your families. Don't be weary in well doing, for your shall reap it if you faint not.
Most of what is taught in these churches is a stumbling block to the teachings of God's wisdom. And, ya know, some of that teaching has become a wicked stronghold for a lot of Christian women. I am dealing with one now that I don't even know where to begin with. She has been in the church for years and makes no sense whatsoever. Pray that God will deliver her. And, ya know, when I write like this and look at my own sinful self, all I can say is, "God forgive me!" The Lord has been long suffering with me. And why and how do I get so far off the mark? Because I look at the world and what they are doing instead of looking at God.
The devil pesters me and tells me that I am a nut, anyway. And when my own mother asked me if she could read my book I said, "Well, Mom, it's a bit to the edge, ya know. I don't think like everyone else."
And she said, "Well, you just better start thinking like everyone else." Ya know, like I was a pervert or something. And I feel like I get in enough trouble without going full blown into the wisdom of God. But ya know what? People are fickle and they think I am a nut already. And they probably think I will get nuttier, anyway. And this life is short and we need to follow the Lord at all costs. Eternity is for a very long time? This life is but for a moment. Whatever we plan to do for God, we had better get on it, come hell or high water. And, ya know, I know some of ya think I am crazy but I have to tell ya the truth.
Some of these churches are just railroading these women away from their families. And especially at my age, near 60. These women are so lost. I have nothing to say if I don't tell you the truth about what I see going on in the churches of today. They are for the most part a crime against the wisdom of God. And this writing isn't for everyone. I always write to the broken and contrite heart.
OK, so I hear Ruby calling me. She is saying, "Connie, come out from among them and hear the voice of the Lord. Don't listen to the world. Call Wisdom your sister and understanding your kinswoman. Hear the voice of wisdom. Be led by the voice of Wisdom. It is your stability and your place in God. Let the instincts in your heart lead you. Listen to the voice of wisdom in your heart. Forsake the strange women and stay away from them."
Well, I should go pray.