I know that you all love to have me write about Dixie, and so I will this morning.

So many times, she and I would have a conversation that went like this. I would tell her a dream or whatever that I had about wisdom. And Dixie would say, “Now, Connie, you already knew that. You didn’t need a dream to tell you that.”

And I would say, “No, I didn’t.” Then she would tell me that I did, and that I had faith and understood wisdom. I didn’t, and I kept telling her I didn’t. I think one of the reasons that she thought I was such a pest is because I longed so for wisdom and I probably drained her dry.

And ya know what? That writing I did yesterday said a whole lot more than even what I knew it said. I think the Lord was trying to tell us that if we are chasing wisdom, we can’t be easily offended. Ya know, Jesus, in the Bible, seemed to let folks chase Him and seemed to often ignore them. Had they become offended, they never would have been healed. Was He testing them? Certainly. He knew they were calling Him.

But if you want the wisdom of God as shown in Proverbs, then you must want this wisdom as Solomon did. He wanted it more than he wanted a good reputation. And more than he wanted the life of his enemies. Do you want wisdom more than a revenge on your husband or the neighbors? Will you keep your heart pure and forgiving, no matter what, so that you can receive the wisdom of God?

Solomon wanted wisdom more than riches. And the Lord gave Solomon Wisdom because he wanted it above riches and reputation or the life of his enemies. Solomon just wanted wisdom to lead his people. He later fell because of his foreign wives that drew him away from the Lord and wisdom. Another lesson here is to stay away from the world and its deceptions. And away from the strange women who are into feminism.

If you want wisdom from God, then chase it with all of your life.

Good Morning! Man alive, I guess it didn’t rain again last night. Everything is so dry outside. I have the baby’s little kiddy pool set up behind the tree in the front yard. Lately, if she isn’t here, I set my plants in the pool. I have some pots of basil, etc. Well, herbs hate this hot dry weather.

It’s cooler this morning but we need the rain to come. Jim teases me about my letting an acorn squash plant take over the garden. But it does shade the tomatoes and I don’t have to water them as I normally would. Well, there may be a pumpkin plant out there, too. It all came up voluntarily. I throw all my old pumpkins and squash on my fall garden after the holidays. Well, I throw stuff out there all winter, too. So no tellin’ what will come up in the spring. But the squash vines, etc. are hiding the tomatoes and keeping them safe and sound.

I hope we have a nice rainy fall. If we do, my rhubarb will come back and I will use that again.

Dixie was never ready for summer to be over. She loved the summer and her garden. She was always hopin’ for a few more days of what she called Indian summer. I think that is when we have some really nice hot days in the fall. Or when it’s supposed to turn cold in the fall, but the summer hangs on and it’s warm. Dixie used to can and, in the busy harvest time, she would fill her big canner twice a day … so she canned about 16 quart jars a day in the summer.

I loved every room in Dixie’s house and, especially, I loved her root cellar. She canned pickles and rhubarb, corn and beans, and jams and jellies of all sorts. She had a big apple tree … not a dwarf. And she used every apple on that tree and made applesauce and apple pie filling. She treated every piece of fruit with special care. One time, I went out to her house when she was getting ready to can tomatoes. Mercy, the whole kitchen looked like it was red. She had tomatoes stacked carefully on every shelf, waiting to be canned. She had a little kitchen smaller than mine and so she had to work in her dining room. A dining room sounds fancy but, no, her room off the kitchen was not fancy. She hated worldliness or any show of money.

She loved her land and her life on the farm. Then some new houses started to be built about her. She let her weeds grow so that she couldn’t see anyone else’s house. She hated the new houses.

She would show me her little wash house where she had a wood stove. She would show me a pan she had found and bought at a sale. She would say, “Connie, this old pan has the wisdom of God on it.” And she would tell me about what the old time mothers used to do with a dishpan and how they used it for many things. To wash dishes and gather beans from the garden.

I remember one of the last times Jill, Dixie, and I were out on the farm before Dixie died. It was the fall and we were all bundled up outside, looking at Dixie’s garden. We were to get a hard freeze and so Dixie had us girls pick the last of the grapes. The air was so crisp and cool, and I can still see Dixie standing there at the farm with her headscarf whipping in the wind. Oh such an anointing on her! Oh, God, such an anointing. Our children were playing with Dixie’s girl, Emily, and they were running about in the grape vines. I can still hear her voice. “Now, Emily,” she would say to her daughter, “Wasn’t there something else I had to give to Jill and Connie?” She always depended on Emily to remember things to do. And Em loved her mother — adored her mother — and was always there at her right hand.

Ruth, Jill and I adored the ground Dixie walked on. Going to her farm was like going to an old time revival. When you left, you felt like you had heard the voice of God. Her life and homemaking, her garden and her home was a revival meeting … it was like being under a heavy anointing while you were there. And I would so long to hang on to the anointing when I left her house. Oh, how I would try to hang onto the anointing after I left Dixie’s farm. But usually, after a few days, it would leave me. But, oh what a place to go to get filled up with the Holy Spirit!

Dixie was in submission to her husband Bill. And, oh, what a picture she was of the Titus 2 Mother. She was a true Titus Mother. I feel so inadequate as I try to lead you ladies along. Upside of her and that strong anointing she had, I feel very lame. She was always talking about the wisdom of God. How she had a voice and how she would help her in her homemaking.

One time, when I went out to visit Dixie, Emily wanted to show me her new dolls that her aunt had bought for her. So we all went upstairs and sat on Em’s bed. The children began playing upstairs and running up and down the stairs. This was music to Dixie’s ears, and she sat in a chair in Em’s room and the Lord was speaking to her, and she began to speak of the Lord and His move of the Spirit, and His wisdom. She never spoke loud, but just softly. But she had such an anointing that you had a feeling the walls would just fall back and she would be in a big auditorium. You could feel how much the heart of God wanted this message she had to be told. Oh, how His heart must have ached for her to speak her message to the world. And Dixie often said, “Well, Connie you are the writer.”

I always told her, “Dixie, this stuff you say is what the world needs … what they are dyin’ for.”

And she would say, “Oh, Connie, those old religious women wouldn’t want this stuff.” She thought I was dreamin’ and very naïve. But I told her that she was so truly anointed of God and she thought I was a pest when I told her that.

Half the time when I went out to see her, she wouldn’t even come to the door. If she wanted to be alone with the Lord, then God forbid that anyone would interrupt her. And when the church women would come to invite her to church, oh man, did they have a fight on their hands. She hid away unto God. She had no use for religion. She wudda taken a BB Gun and shot a feminist on sight if she thought one had enough nerve to set foot on her property. She would say that she didn’t want demons like that on her land.

Jill was closer to Dixie than I was. But I was a pest to Dixie for the most part. And yet, when she died, she wanted me there and didn’t want her own relatives there. So I guess she did love me in the end. And yet I always sensed such an anointing upon her and I would face anything to be around her and listen to her talk. I know one time when Jill and I went out there, she served Jill coffee and almost didn’t give me any. She loved to ignore me. But, ya know, I was like the woman who wouldn’t leave the judge alone. I was like a fly that keeps buggin’ ya, and you keep tellin’ it that you are gonna kill it with the fly swatter if it don’t leave ya alone, and yet it bugs ya all night long? Well, that’s how much I wanted the wisdom of God. I was dyin’ without it. And I was gonna smile and get it, one way or the other.

I don’t have a drivers licence and have no sense of direction, anyway. But I would drive out to Dixie’s farm which is about 15 miles from here and up some country roads. I would find a way to get there, believe me. And had I not risked being embarrassed and told to go back home, then you all wouldn’t have a writer to this day to tell you about he wisdom of God. But, you know, I was like you are, Kelly, with your big family. Man, I needed a whole lot more than what this world had to offer. I was in the fight of my life. And being embarrassed wasn’t the worst of my problems. I had a big family to care for and I had … HAD — HAD to have the anointing of God upon me.

We need the wisdom of God and some of us are dying without it. Again, the scripture:

Proverbs 14:1 EVERY wise woman builds her house and the foolish woman tears it down with her hands.

In this hellish society, where the homes are being torn down, we must chase the wisdom of God.

CHASING WISDOM

Dixie used to tell me, as I was leaving her farm to go home, “Don’t come back out here for at least six weeks.” Man, I would go home and put it on my calendar, to the day, when I could go back out to the farm. Now, I am not like that with everyone and rarely go anyplace. But I loved the wisdom of God. I wouldn’t have taken a million bucks to replace Dixie and her wisdom.

In the old days, when our family would be at the grocery store, the kids would sign me up for ocean cruises, etc. I would tell them, “You kids knock it off — what if I would win?” Man, I hated to think of being around a bunch of worldly music out on an ocean, miles away from Home and my duties as wife and mother. I longed for the wisdom of God and I chased it daily. That was all I desired on the earth. And I remember one of the relatives was talking about going on this big vacation to Hawaii. I told Jim secretly that I would rather milk a goat than go to Hawaii. He told my relative and, oh, I could have shot him with my BB gun. But it was true in the deepest sense in my heart. I longed to understand my place with God as wife and mother and keeper at home. And God did give me a measure of wisdom. Enough to write a few thousand writings.

I honestly feel sorry for you all that you never met Dixie and you only have me. Dixie died of cancer I think in 2002. And, oh, how we miss her. I especially miss her in the fall at Harvest time.

I want to share some of my favorite scriptures on wisdom.

In Proverbs 2:10, etc., it says that when wisdom enters your heart and knowledge is pleasant to your soul, then discretion will preserve you, and understanding will keep you. Verse 16 is saying that wisdom will deliver you from the strange woman. The strange woman in the word is the woman who does not love God … she is the Jezebel.

Yesterday, I was writing about the interview with Jessica H that I watched on TV. So Larry King asked her if she was a Christian. She said, oh yes, that she was, and she lived with her boyfriend. And God had saved her from having to marry some guy and from hanging around the house with rollers in her hair. She said that she knew the Lord was helping her because she was rich. And some folks think this is a Christian woman because she says she is? And we don’t get to heaven on good works. Well, no, this woman is not a Christian … she is the strange woman that we are to stay away from.

Sometimes we are influenced by the strange women in our society. Yet the word says that if we study wisdom, that we won’t be influenced by the strange woman. Proverbs speaks so plainly about Wisdom being a she and having a voice.

Chapter 8:1 Doth not Wisdom cry? and understanding put forth HER Voice?

Go onto verse 6. Hear for I will speak of excellent things. And the opening of my lips will be right things.

Verse 7 My mouth will speak truth, etc.

Verse 8 All the words of my mouth shall speak truth, etc.

Verse 10 Receive my instructions and not silver. And knowledge rather than gold.

Verse 11 For wisdom is better than rubies.

Chapter 9:10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. (So in order to get wisdom, you have to know the Lord Jesus as personal Savior.)

Chapter 24:3 Through wisdom is a house builded and by understanding it is established. And by knowledge shall the chambers be filled with all precious and pleasant riches.

Then Proverbs 14:1 says Every wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her own hands.

So this verse doesn’t say that some wise women build their homes and others put their energy into something else. It says “Every wise woman.” So a home is built with wisdom.

Also I think of the scripture in the New Testament about the wise man building his house upon the rock. Wisdom in the word usually has to do with building a home or temple. Like King Solomon built the temple for the Lord with wisdom.

But we have to have the voice of wisdom to build our homes. We can’t be listening to the strange woman. We must learn and study the word so that we can learn to listen to Wisdom’s voice. You all have the Titus 2 mother with you all the time, as you listen to wisdom’s voice. Just soak your hearts today in Proverbs and study the Wisdom of the Lord. Learn to have the gift of discernment. Know when the foolish strange woman is speaking to you. Refuse to listen to her foolishness and tune her strange voice out. Open your heart to the word of God and the teachings on wisdom. She is real and you can learn to discern her in your house. Invite her to come and live with you and to instruct you in the ways of housewifery.

Dear Hearts, we must learn holiness and righteousness. God is a holy God. We must learn of Him and His perfect will. Without holiness and purity in our lives, wisdom will not want to dwell with us.

I realize that some of your husbands aren’t saved and you don’t want to act like a prude. And I don’t mean that. I mean submit to your husbands. But don’t forget the Lord. You are the covenant keeper. You must hold the word of God in your heart and it has to be the pure word. You are what is goin’ to save that home. They shall know the truth and the truth will set them free. No rascal from hell is gonna get set free by a lot of religious fluff or a half watered down Christian wife. No, it is the truth in your heart that will save the sinners around you. You are not to teach and instruct your husband. You are not to take spiritual authority over him. Just because you have the truth, this don’t make you the boss.

The truth is found in the meek and quiet spirit. But, dear wife, you must live a holy life for your own self. You are the word of God in your home. The silent word of God that acts out the truth in front of an unsaved husband. It is your spirit that will keep your home in His hands.

Now, by holiness, I don’t mean that you start running through the house and throwing all your husband’s dirty books away. It is your husband’s home and he is the head. You can’t just take over the home and decide that you are the one to run it. But if you have worldly magazines and you are acting in a way that is not fitting for a Christian mother, then you should get all this right with God. Don’t say “Well, my husband ain’t doin’ right so I don’t have to, either.” Yes, you must live a holy life, as far as it is up to you. If your husband says it’s ok for the kids to watch trash on TV, then that’s up to him. Yes, you pray about it and beg the Lord to intervene. But you don’t take over the spiritual head of the home.

Many Christians in the world are persecuted much worse than we are, and their children come through because of their mothers’ prayers. But, see, there is power in holiness!

Order in the spiritual kingdom is powerful. You can’t shoot a target without rules. You have to know how to aim your gun and how to hold it steady. To be slap happy with God and His laws is not going to get you any place but off the mark. God works through prudence and self control. You must study the word of God and be as prudent and studious as you can be in Him. And stay out of your husband’s way and let God have him. YOU make sure that YOU are right with God. God will work through YOU because you are the Christian. And weather your husband’s sins as a good Christian woman. Show yourself a courageous woman of dignity.

Your spiritual work is often so tiring and takes up a lot of your energy. But you must work spiritually and not give up. Take up your shield and sword and fight the devil out of your home.

Don’t you dare say a word to your husband that is cross. You don’t need to … it is not your responsibility. I mean, if your husband asks your opinion, then give it to him. But don’t give him unasked for advice.

Wives, we must be very sober in Christ. We must look to the Lord for His commands.

Ya know, my friend Dixie knew more about Wisdom then I could ever tell you. And I was often a bad influence on her, as I always made her laugh. Often, as she was tryin’ to tell me about wisdom, she would hide her face with her hand and say, “Oh, I shouldn’t laugh.” But I know the lord is telling me to be a lot more sober and serious, at times, than I am.

At Mary’s home (my mentor, age 76) on Friday I made a joke at the dinner table. She is always tryin’ to teach me to love everyone. Well, I cut loose with a comment and Mary’s silence convicted me of my sin. I didn’t have to look back at her. Her silence and no comment let me know I had gone over the line. She preached a sermon through her meekness.

This morning, as I write, I have stopped and visited with Jim. My husband is one of the biggest miracles I have ever known. This morning as we visited, I asked Jim what really helped him to get right with God. He said that it was my prayers mostly. “It wasn’t church and religious thinking,” he tells me.

I said, “Well, Honey, wasn’t it when you found your place as husband and father that your life changed?”

Jim says, “Oh, yeah. You bet.” See, Jim had tried to come to Christ many times in that first 12 yrs of our marriage. But we never heard much family teaching from the pulpit. After coming to the Lord, Jim had to learn to walk it out. The church often shows a person the way of salvation through the blood. But they don’t know how to show a person how to live in God’s order. Jim and I would go to this church and that one, and this and that prayer meeting. Jim would look like he was to be ok for a while. But then those demons would try to come after him again.

The miracles can’t happen unless you have a right foundation in the home. The Bible says for a pastor or deacon to have their family in order before they preach in the church. Always, the Lord puts the order of the family first. The wife must be submissive and the husband has to be head of the home. He may not do it right, but he is the priest of the home … right or wrong.

Hannah recognized Eli as her priest and God used Eli to tell Hannah that she would have a baby. God blessed Hannah for submitting to the Priest. Her husband had brought her to Eli — she didn’t sneak out the door to run to church without her husband. Eli was not living right … but Hannah was. She submitted to her own husband, who wasn’t that much on the ball, either. But she recognized the spiritual authority over her. And my Jim had not done right in our marriage, but I kept recognizing his place as Priest of our home and God worked through Jim.

We can’t make up our own rules. The Spirit will work in one way only … God’s way.

“Well, my husband ain’t doin’ right so we are cursed in our home.” Oh, Baloney. Hog Wash! If you, as a Christian wife, are livin’ right and in order with God, the Lord will bring the rest of the family into order. As you submit to your husband, then you swing him under the Lord’s judgment. If we as wives and mothers are doin’ right, then God will reward us. And like I have said before, rarely do any of you bring anything up that I haven’t already been through. And if God changed my husband, He can change yours.

I have written about my grandmother Juanita many times. She and Granpa Babe had a machine back in the 1950s that could record and make records. They recorded me and Daddy singin’ “Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer.” I was 5 years old. I sang the brown nosed reindeer, as I said on the record that no real reindeer had a red nose. Anyway, I kept that record for many years and, as a lonely wife and mother many years later, I played the record just to listen to it again. And I wondered if Juanita had put any other song on the back side of the record. So I played it. And as though it was the Lord speaking to me, there was Grandmother singing and playing her accordion. It was an old time song that she sang.

It is no secret what God can do.
What He’s done for others, He will do for you.
With arms wide open, He will pardon you.
It is no secret what God can do.

And it is no secret, dear wives, what God can do. I feel like I have been to the other side of the mountain and have come back to tell you that things ain’t as bad as you thought. God is able to do exceeding and abundantly more than you can think or ask. The devil is truly a liar and God’s word is true. Believe that you have what you asked for and you will receive it.

In the old days, I didn’t have anyone’s testimony to fall back on. I struggled very much alone. But you have our testimony. If God did it for us, He can do it for you.

The Lord told me that in this writing, I just gave a foolproof formula for a successful marriage. Yes, folks get miracles that aren’t living right in their families. But, see, if they don’t have a sure foundation of family order under their feet, they won’t keep the miracle. Obviously, I am speaking of married people. The firm family foundation in a home is the structure for every miracle. The miracles that God gives us for saved family members are not only for us. We are to hang onto the miracles and cause them to go to our children and to many generations to come. We are to hold our miracles in place and be able to testify and encourage our sisters in Christ to have a godly home.

We fight for holy land. We fight to take over territory for Christ. And we must maintain it and cultivate it and let it be a stepping stone for those who come after us. We must give the Lord good fruit, sometimes through much longsuffering. And yet our lives are marked with much victory. We are always victorious in Him.

I was thinkin’ last night … when I was a new believer? We Christians used to talk about practicing the presence of Christ. We tried to just think of the Lord being in the same room with us. Or we would see Him at our family table. Often, when two of my children would be in a room with me, I would say to them, “Children how many guardian angels are in the room right now?”

Of course, they would tell me, “Three, Mom — one for you and one for each of us.”

In our home, I tried to speak to the children often of the presence of Christ and His helpers, the angels. “We can’t see them, right?” I would tell them, “But they are here.”

Lately, as I have prayed, the Lord has spoken to me about Wisdom being in the room with me. Wisdom is like the older Titus Mother and she is with us. If I get befuddled or get kinda down, the Lord will tell me, “Connie, just imagine Ruby coming to your house in a few hours for a visit and what would you do?”

Yesterday, Jim was off work and he was working on our house. He is replacing some of the siding and painting. Often he would call to me from his ladder to come hand him the hammer he dropped or “Honey, how does this look?” The day wasn’t very quiet and I wasn’t able to really get into my homemaking. I had a lot to do, but just didn’t know where to begin. Not that I minded helping Jim, as he needed me. But then, when he comes in to rest for lunch, I don’t have anything much done. So the whole day went like that until after supper. So I got out some paper and sat on the couch and wrote my prayers to the Lord. And the Lord had me plan for Wisdom to come at 8:00 pm. So I got about the Lord’s business and planned for Wisdom to come at 8:00.

Who is she and what is she like? She is an older Titus Mother, an encourager. I think she would be like Dixie used to be when she would come to visit with her girl, Emily. When the children were young and we were poor, Dixie would come to the door with presents for them, or a ham, or some hamburger. One time, she came and we were without much food. And she said, “Well, I have a turkey in the freezer and I will go home and get it.”

Often, I would say, “Oh, no, I don’t want you to do that.”

And Dixie would say, “Connie, don’t embarrass me.” She was such a giver and would find a way to give ya something, no matter what. Or she would come to the door and say, “The Lord told me you needed this.” And she would hand me something I did really need. But, see, Wisdom is a great encourager and she brings JOY.

So many of us are used to the older woman being nasty and hard to get along with. She says, “Why do you have all those kids and you will never be able to take care of them?” But Wisdom is not like that. Wisdom is our helper like the Holy Spirit … she is a counselor.

And the other day I said to the Lord, “What does Wisdom look like?”

And He said, “Well, she looks like an older woman.” If she speaks, as she is described to do in Proverbs, then she has a mouth and a face and she is real. Jesus came to the earth to give us a picture of God. He was God in the flesh. I think Wisdom would look like a Mennonite woman, in a way. But often, I see her with her hair flyin’, and she is busy about the home, and her spirit is musical. In my mind’s eye right now, I see her so full of childlike imagination and faith. She has energy from the Lord that works like electricity. She has the power of Christ. He is her electricity. She is a spirit that submits to Christ, like the angels do.

Often in my prayers, if I cant find the move of the Holy Spirit, then I go to Wisdom first and she often points me to Christ. Sometimes I write her a letter. And after the first paragraph, I seem to enter His temple.

A few nights ago, I was prayin’ at night in bed silently. Jim was asleep beside me. The Lord told me, “Oh, Connie, ya know, back in the old days, up in the hills where Wisdom lived, folks saw so many supernatural miracles.”

Ya know, Wild Man and me haven’t had health insurance since 1988. And we have seen so many miracle healings. And ya know, the Lord was tellin’ me the other night about how the housewives during the Depression era didn’t have the money for doctors, etc. And they saw many miracles in their homes. God gave these women a supernatural wisdom to know how to raise their families when they had nothing. But, of course, we don’t hear about these miracles, as many of these mothers couldn’t read very well or write. They read their Bibles the best they could and they believed what they read. They didn’t have a TV to watch and to get fouled up with. They just had the Bible and they believed it.

I have read some of the stories in the Foxfire books. And it tells about how the midwives would throw a newborn baby in the air and then catch it if it was a stillborn baby. And how the baby would come alive. These Mothers had faith and never heard of doing anything any other way. Many healing gifts floated around the mountains … they needed the gifts of the Holy Spirit and the Lord gave them to them. The women found their power in wisdom. Their husbands were the undisputed heads of the house.

A few years back, Jim was moving our piano around several times a day as he was painting. He would move it out to paint and then back. But he moved it a lot as to not get paint on it. Well, that evening after several days of this, he comes to bed with, “Connie, my hernia is seriously hanging out and I can hardly walk.” He had an operation for double hernias years ago, but the doctor botched it up and he had a lot of trouble with it. But after the piano moving, he had A LOT of trouble. He had a girdle, but the hernia was too bad and that didn’t work … so he comes to bed barely able to move.

I said, “Oh, Honey, I will stay up all night and pray and the Lord will heal you.” See, by this time, we didn’t have any hospital insurance … so, as usual, we were up a creek without a paddle. Anyway, I laid my hand on the hernia in our bed and planned to pray all night until I saw the glory of God. Well, instantly, as I laid hands on Jim, the bed shook and Jim’s leg flew in the air and he heard a POP!!! I said, “What happened?”

And Jim said, “You didn’t hear that POP?”

I said, “No, I didn’t.”

He said, “I was healed. The Lord healed me.” And the bed just shook with the power of God.

Once, I prayed for Jim in the living room, as he had a bad headache, and the power of God came down and it hit Mary, our daughter, in the bathroom. But this is not strange to me, as we live like this. And my tooth that was badly abscessed last month is now healed and has a permanent filling in it. And I haven’t been able to eat with that tooth in 16 years. But I am starting, barely, to eat with it now. I never went to a dentist.

But, see, I love Wisdom with all my heart. I could go out and work like anyone else and get health insurance for Jim and me. Papa, of course, works but has no health insurance. But, ya know, I have chosen to follow the Wisdom of God. Why should my Baby Rose have to be taken to a daycare when I have a roof over my head and plenty to eat? Why would I want to do that so I can follow the world?

To know Wisdom is the deepest desire of my heart. I have no other desire as deep as this. And God will not give you the wisdom of God until you want it as Solomon did. He wanted Wisdom more than money or the life of his enemies. He wanted it more than he wanted a good reputation.

As women, some of you won’t find wisdom, as your enemy is your husband. You want him to suffer more than you want the wisdom God has to offer you. You will run out and get a divorce and forsake the wise woman. Pride wants to guide you and Wisdom wants to bless you.

I was raised in a nice home and Dad always had a good factory job. But money never made me joyful like wisdom does. Wisdom has called me to a humble home and a place where I have to use my faith like money.

And, ya know, after I have been with a bunch of church women, they get me so confused. They love to talk about psychology and being balanced in our Christian life. Balanced?? What kind of idiot talk is that? Christ dying on an old rugged cross, after being beat to death, is not what I would call balanced.

The Christians are so worried about their reputations and they would die for ‘em. Some will go to hell for ‘em.

Jesus Christ and His followers were not running around spouting doctrine and staying under the guidelines of the Baptist church. Trust me!!! Christ’s followers were mavericks and rebels who rebelled against the Pharisees. They never did one balanced thing in their lives. They lived in the supernatural and outside of their comfort zones. They glorified God and not themselves and their jobs or new house. Jesus Christ was a radical revolutionist. And He gave His life for what he believed.

His mother was the same way. Can’t ya just see the church ladies laughin’ at her supernatural birth? They whispered behind her back, “She thinks she is pregnant with the Son of God. She needs to go before the elders and have them pray for her and counsel her.” Well, Mary knew they would say that. Talk about unbalanced!!!

I don’t know about you all, but I am gonna chase the wisdom of God with my whole heart and soul. And hopefully, I can be a radical and be called “unbalanced.”

Dear Mothers, don’t look at the world. Don’t listen to the strange voices. Listen to the voice of wisdom.

Get out your rolling pins and pie plates and light your scented candles. Let your spices of cinnamon, ginger, cloves and nutmeg bring joy to your baking and to your home.

Picture Ruby standing there with you as you fight the good fight of faith.

Clear off your table and light your lanterns. Make sure you have plenty of lamp oil, as it is a symbol of the oil of the Holy Spirit.

Oh, dear Mothers, I know how hard it is to fight the good fight of faith and to fight against the feminism. But virtue is moral character and it comes only as the Jezebel comes to taunt us. We gird our loins with truth only as we are attacked from the spirit of the strange woman. She is as a hill to climb or a dragon to run from. And as we run, and as we climb, God creates in us arms of strength and loins of truth. We press on and God gives us virtue and makes us virtuous women of God.

Oh, we hate the tests, as we are tossed about and we lose our walk with God. We feel lost and forsaken as Jezebel condemns us and our children and our families. But without her strange smoke and fire in our homes, we cannot learn to be virtuous women. Our moral courage cannot be developed. Our spiritual muscles cannot be made strong.

Oh, we hate the attacks and we cry out to God. But, yes, the tests of our faith must come. And we feel so lost and forsaken and so in the dark when we lose our homemaking spirit. But Wisdom waits for us in the darkness and God trusts us to keep on and not give up. And as we press on against the strange woman’s comments and the Jezebel spirit of feminism, we are rewarded with the spirit of virtue and wisdom.

We must press on, ever seeking the wisdom of God as Keepers at Home.

Virtue means power and it takes a powerful woman of God to fight the foolish women, especially in this sinful society. In the Bible, the woman with the issue of blood touched the hem of His garment and was healed. What healed her? It was the spirit of virtue. And this is the healing for all of us women in God who hope to please Him. Virtue is the answer for a healed marriage and for a barren womb.

We must cry out to God for virtue and become women of moral excellence. And how does virtue work? Proverbs 31 gives us a picture of the spirit of virtue. The virtuous woman is a woman of courage, strength and dignity. She will not be moved, as she is a woman who has developed spiritual muscles and bears much holy fruit for God.

God knows His stuff and knows what we need in order to be developed spiritually and to see healed marriages and fruitful wombs. Our answers to prayer come as we follow the spirit of wisdom and virtue. As we run after Christ and we touch the hem of His garment, virtue will be pulled out of Him and we will be healed. Virtue heals any female problem and makes us like the Proverbs 31 woman. As we chase Him and we bust our way through the herds of feminists, we, too, will be healed. But we must fight the good fight of faith in order to win the prize and to touch the hem of His garment. We are saved on earth through childbearing and through our works as keepers at home.

Virtue is our spiritual map and the Proverbs 31 woman is to be our guide.

I am up in the night writing. I don’t have anything on my heart to say. Just up as the Lord has called me to get up and write.

We had a big storm last night. As I laid peacefully in my bed, I could hear out my window the air raid thing warning goin’ off. And a man with a big loud speaker is yelling, “This is it … take cover, etc.” Well, I guess they have to do that. As I laid in my bed, I thought, “Now, ain’t that just like the world? Here it’s late and everyone is in bed, and they have to try to scare ya to death.”

I thought of myself as being in the boat with Jesus … and how he woke up and rebuked the winds and told them to be still. And I saw Wisdom telling me to just look at Jesus and not at the world. I saw her and Jesus outside my house protecting it. She was walking around my house and she was saying, “NO, you will not have this house. NO, Satan you will not have this house.”

And I could see her talkin’ to me and telling me in so many words, “Connie, don’t look to the east or to the west, to the north or to the south, but look at Jesus for your answers. Keep your mind upon the Lord. Don’t look at the world, as they will try to make you fear and try to make you want to give up. Don’t give up — look unto the Lord.”

And she said “Be stout hearted, hard to tame, hard for the world to get along with. Be a homemaker with an attitude. Have courage and a spine of steel. You take the world down … don’t let it have ya.”

All day yesterday, I was thinkin’ of the cooking shows I have watched on TV. They have kinda put a pebble in my shoe spiritually. Those women are good with a can opener, I will tell ya.

But it is like I could hear wisdom speaking last night, sayin’ “Connie, cook from scratch and get deep into your homemaking.”

And lately the Lord has spoken to my heart AGAIN about how submitting to our husbands is submitting to all things concerning our roles as keepers at home.

We must press deeply into our roles as keepers at home. Our greatest battle is not to listen to the voice of the world, but to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit. Ya know, the more I write and obey the Lord, the more He secludes me from the world. I feel like I have a veil over my heart and soul. As the world shouts and screams “FEAR” … the Lord’s voice is the voice of peace and anointing.

Oh, God calls the foolish to confound the wise. Can’t ya just see me tellin’ a feminist that she would feel better if she would just go home and stay there?

The Lord calls us mothers to bake our bread and to know the state of our pantries.

He calls us to deep homemaking.

He calls us to a committed spirit of homemaking.

He calls us to hang our clothes on the line and to make our own soap.

He calls us to cook from scratch and to be very leery of store bought mixes. We should be buying things like flour and sugar and shortening to make cookies and cakes and pies for our families. I really think that so many of these mysterious illnesses are coming from chemicals in our foods. I know we can’t escape all of the bad stuff in the air and around us. But I think we should try to, and we should pray over all of our food. Our society seems to ingest anything these days. It’s not to be like that in a Christ centered home. The Mother is to keep the HOME and not the GROCERY store.

The Lord says in His word that we are the keepers at home. As much as it is possible for us, we should be making everything from scratch. That soap idea that Wendy sent in was sure a good idea. I, of all people, know there is only so much time in a day. But we should do as much cooking, etc. from scratch. Wisdom really spoke to my heart, too, about planting as much as I can this year in my garden so I can harvest a lot in the fall and do more canning.

But, ya know, the world will try to scare ya to death, but don’t let ‘em. Submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Submit to God by submitting to your homemaking.

Oh, the wisdom of God is so precious. The word says that wisdom is the stability of the times. With all the confusion around us, and the fear and instability of the families about us … it’s hard to not get caught up in it. But we as Mothers and keepers at home must lay brick upon brick in our homes, as we keep our eyes upon the Savior. As the world tries to take our families down, we must keep on building our temples in the wilderness.

We are wise women who build up our homes, and not the foolish who take it down with her own hands. We are to be line upon line and precept upon precept. We build a spiritual home with virtue and power. We gird our loins about with truth and we strengthen our arms. We as women of God are not to submit to this world, but to exploit it by our good works. The law of truth is upon our tongues. Our good works are to praise us in the gates.

Well, I should go back to bed. But before I go, I wanted to tell you all a salad I made yesterday using my leaf lettuce from my garden and my herbs. I just cooked up some pasta. Then I went out to my yard and picked a lot of dill. I don’t use my dill when it gets dry and has heads. I use it when it is young. I also added garlic, chives, onions, fresh basil, and black pepper. And I cut up my fresh garden lettuce and put this in, too. I just cut my stuff up with scissors. My tomatoes aren’t ready yet. So I put in a can of diced tomatoes and some Italian vinegar and oil dressing. Now, Papa wouldn’t eat this if ya paid him a million bucks. But it is fresh and good, and I will eat it myself with cottage cheese. When the kids come over, they will eat it too. I fixed Jim what he would call a regular supper?

But, dear keepers at home, learn to plant your herbs and use them fresh for the summer.

Also, yesterday, I picked two lovely bunches of flowers and herbs for my table. One bunch was the purple yarrow and yellow, too, mixed in with a blue flowered catnip … and long sprigs of mint. Another bunch was the yellow columbine mixed with bleeding hearts and the ferny herb camphor. I love the looks of the flowers mixed with herbs for my table. All of the flowers and herbs I just mentioned come up every year.

We need flowers and herbs in our lives. They are so lovely to look at, and the smell of the herbs is so refreshing to our hearts and spirits. As I look out the window as I write, I see that my Seven Sister Roses are about to bloom. They give me such joy each June. They are so faithful to come back each year to gladden Mama’s heart.

In closing, I want to say, “Dear Mothers of wisdom, let’s look to our gardens and our homes to find peace and purpose. Let’s be content at home. Today let’s again regroup and decide to submit to our husbands as never before. Let’s vow again to raise our children for the Lord … and to not give up or be discouraged. Let’s submit to God and resist the world and the fear in the world."

We are Sarah’s daughters, as long as we don’t fear with any amazement. This is the Day the Lord has made. Let’s rejoice and be Glad in it.

I am up in the night writing. The Lord spoke to my heart as I prayed in my bed. “Connie, some things you can only understand as the anointing falls.” So, as I write, I know the Lord will speak to me. Ya know, if you all learn anything at all from me, I think it may be how to chase the Holy Spirit. See, God answers us when we pray. The answer is close by, but we miss it. We get scared, and fear is an enemy of faith. We must sit back and rest in His word. But tonight as I prayed, I couldn’t get through at all. The Lord speaks, “Connie, dig for wisdom, dig for gold.” Of course, the wisdom of God is the answer. Most of the time, it is the wisdom of God I need.

I see Ruby in her cabin … she reaches out to me as we sit by the fire and talk. I can smell her kitchen and the scents of horseradish. I can sense her milk buckets by the back kitchen door, cleaned and ready for a morning milking. She sits with me and reaches out to me.

“You worry, Connie, over so many things. Trust in God, trust in God. You are the queen of your home and you have authority in Christ. God gave Eve authority to be the keeper at home. This was a curse and a blessing. You are given authority, too, over the earth. Take authority in your homemaking and don’t let it go … if you exalt Wisdom she will promote you. Don’t let anyone take over your place as keeper at home. This is your calling and your life. Your leading of the Holy Spirit. Don’t let confusion come in. Don’t let fear rule you. Look away from circumstances and look unto the Wisdom of God. Get deep into the wisdom of God … it is all very simple. There is a secret place in the depth of wisdom. The devil can’t find you there … it is your secret hiding place. Follow the Holy Spirit to a place where your spirit is happy to make bread and soup. Right now, you are fitful and confused. Come to a place where you are happy to be a keeper at home. Follow wisdom to the place of peace in your ministry as keeper at home. The wisdom of God will break the strongholds that bind you. Don’t blame anyone … don’t accuse anyone … just yield your members to righteousness. Yield your hands to your bread bowl and to your mixing spoons. Create an energy, a power that will run on its own. Prime your pump until it runs again on its own. The devil has knocked you down … he meant to destroy you but you got back up. (I was sick lately but I am better now.) Keep on fighting the good fight of faith … don’t give up. No, you don’t win every battle every day … but you don’t give up. Your power is in your homemaking. And you are going to a deeper level because of Baby Rose. You have absolutely no idea of the path before you.”

The Lord speaks, “I cannot tell you what is before you. Call upon Me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things that you KNOW not. You can not know the plans of God. You don’t know them. You can only find the path of the Lord as you follow God in obedience. I set a path before you. But Satan will steal if from you if you don’t hide in Him, as Mary did. Look not to the left and to the right as if you have no God. Look unto Him. He is the great Shepard. Why bat back and forth with all if this? Quit letting the devil steal the truth out of your heart because you fear. Fear is a sin and man’s opinions are just that … man’s opinion. But God’s opinion is what matters. Seek your sewing and your baking. Seek your broom to sweep your floor. Seek your garden and your garden hoe. There is power in your homemaking. Seek your apron and your potatoes to peel and your flour to make your bread. Don’t eat the food of the world. Make the food that you give to your family. Build your temple in the wilderness and don’t be discouraged anymore.”

Weep, oh Daughters of Zion, and pray for your nation. Hide unto God to let God adorn you as champions for Him. Live from your visions … from the inside out.

Wisdom continues to speak. “Hide in your homemaking .. hide unto the Lord. Hold on and bow low in humility before Jesus. Labor to bring forth the wisdom of God in your spirit. Grab ahold of the word that will push you on in Him. (I picture a canoe on the water.) Yield your arms and your whole body to His righteousness. Push and grab again His word and keep on grabbing and pushing His word out to where the Son Shines. Labor to bring forth mete for the Master’s use. They that plant precious seeds will ‘come again rejoicing bringing in the sheaves’ or the fruit of their prayers. God is not mocked … whatsoever a man or woman soweth she will also reap. Plant precious seeds of righteousness as you yield your body to the righteous tools and weapons of warfare. Don’t fight the good fight in the world. Hide in the obedient place and fight in there to enter His rest … and His anointing. Don’t move by what you see but what you believe. Stand against the wiles of the devil … fight for the will of God to be done on earth as it is in heaven. Take on the whole armor of God and bring down strongholds with your prayers. Stand firm against the enemy and bring forth the fruits of the spirit. Make a place … a home for the sweet fruits of the Holy Spirit to flow and to live and to develop unto a precious fruit for God. Hide and protect your home and your children. Make a home where the peace of God lives and is able to grow on its own.”

Our homes are to be houses of prayer. A place of blessings to feed the poor spiritual food.

Our homes are to be lights set on a hill. We are to have homes that are examples to the world of Holiness and Godliness. We must not partake of the bread of this world. We must be like Jesus when He was tempted with bread in the wilderness. He said, “I don’t live by that.” And we must say this, too, in our hearts, oh Daughters of Zion. We don’t live by this world or the things that are in this world. We live out of our wombs. We produce, we create … we are fruitful. We produce spiritually and physically as Sarah did. Even in her old age, she produced fruit.

We are to be as trees planted by the water. The water is Jesus Christ. And as we are planted beside Him, we can do great things.

We are not to be out in the world to satisfy the flesh. We are to stand beside the water and our roots are to drink deep of His supernatural power. We are not of this world. We don’t live by the dictates of the flesh … we live by the faith of the Son of God who loved us and gave His life for us.

Inside us is a map that tells us how to make a home. We are keepers at home. And our opinions and our intuitions are usually right concerning the home. Yes, we submit to our husbands. But the home is our place of ministry … and, truly, if it ain’t alright with Mama, then it ain’t alright … concerning the home and family. Because this is her place of ministry and we are queens in our homes. We know certain things … our intuition tells us things. Our maps are like radar within us.

And we are to submit to our husbands always. And as Sarah obeyed Abraham and went with the king to be in his harem … we are her daughters as long as we are not afraid with amazement. But her husband was wrong and he moved out of fear. And many husbands make wrong decisions because they are afraid.

I do things that just blows Jim away sometimes and scares the pants off of him. And then he will overly protect me and forget what he is to do as a man. And he will try to take over my role. And of course, that’s a “no go” for me. I won’t sit and let him take care of me. And it’s very hard for me to rise up when someone is feeling sorry for me. I walk by a different set of drums, I know. But I am used to going ahead by faith. It was not always so, as you well know, but now Jim would do anything for me … and overdoes it sometimes.

We, as Daughters of the King, have a place to take authority. This authority may get interrupted when we get sick or the devil interrupts it. Or our husbands move out of fear as Abraham did. But we must get back up and regain our authority in the home.

As we labor to enter His rest and our place as Keepers at home, it pushes our husbands to take their role as heads of household. The Bible says that we are to win our husbands to the Lord with our good works. Our good works means our ministry as keeper at home. The Lord doesn’t call the woman out of the home to have a ministry. Her ministry is at home … this is where she follows God and learns to be a faith warrior for Christ. As a mother and wife is obedient to God, this pushes the husband under the Lord. She doesn’t do this by worrying over her husband … or naggin’ at him. She pulls husband under God’s authority by her own actions of obedience as keeper at home. As she puts her spiritual oars in the water and she bows low to Christ in humility … she pulls and pushes and moves in her spiritual water and goes on in God. Her husband is then pushed into the obedience to God. But her actions of righteousness win her husband to the Lord.

1 Peter 2 and 3 compares us to Christ as wives who are obedient to God’s calling. Jesus Christ pushed and pulled spiritually at the Cross. He labored to fight the good fight of obedience unto a cruel death. 1 Peter 3 says Likewise, ye wives, be in subjection to your own husbands; that, if any obey not the word, they will without the word be won by the conversation (actions) of the wives. What actions? Her actions as keeper at home. As she stays in her homemaking and keeps the home fires burning, then she breaks the power of darkness in her home.

As Christ, through His obedience, set the captive free, then we by our obedience break the powers of darkness in our homes. One obedient wife can turn the family’s world around through her homemaking. As we sweep the floor and as we fix a meal, we are pushing and pulling our oars in the water and causing our spiritual boat to move on across the water to victory. We fight the good fight through our homemaking, through our obedience to God. We move in a silent obedience. Not looking from side to side but with our eyes upon Him.

Wisdom doesn’t look at evil. Wisdom looks at God. She looks at the victory in Christ. She looks at a healed family, if only through the visions in her heart. She looks well to the ways of her household and doesn’t eat the bread of idleness. Mother is a Queen and she opens her mouth with wisdom and in her tongue is the LAW of kindness. Strength and honor are her clothing and she rejoices in the time to come. Mother is a strong and gentle woman of faith and the Lord crowns her with joy and peace. Her own works … not her own mouth … praise her in the gates.

Oh, Daughters of Zion, yield yourselves to His righteousness and trust in Him.

Ya know, dear Housewives and Mothers, we can have peace in this corrupt world. “Thou will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed upon Thee.” Also the scripture that talks about being in peace and this is our confidence. I think, too, of the scripture that says the works of righteousness brings peace. As we cook and bake in our kitchens and as we trust in God for today, we will find peace and confidence.

Every wise woman builds her home. Wisdom is the stability of our times. In this world of confusion, we must cast down vain imaginations and everything that exalts itself above the knowledge of God. We are in this evil world but we are not of it … we are just a-passin’ through. We must work for eternity.

We are not to take part in the fear about us. We are not daughters who have no Father. We are the lights of the world. We are strong Mothers of faith and holiness. Our lives are not out of control. Our Father has a plan for us. We are not as street whores or the strange women of Proverbs. We are the daughters of wisdom. God is our Father and He has a plan for us. Jesus gave His life for us and He is the author and the finisher of our faith. Psalms 91 says that a thousand will fall around us but we will not be harmed. We are called to be confident.

We are called as wise women to be the lights and examples in this dark and confused world. We are called to be victorious, to be the answer and not the problem. As we see those who grieve about us, we can be in our kitchens cooking and baking and singing. We are not called to grieve as those who have no Father God.

As the world tears down its foundations, we must be continually building ours back up. The world can either come to our side or go with the hell bent. We Mothers are called to peace.

The men of God have been shackled in our country as women have taken over and belted them in the you know what. I hate that. I don’t want to see a man cry as some do today. I want a man that is strong and full of courage. That Papa is sure full of vinegar and I wouldn’t want him any other way. And some of you are married to hard men. Well, I will tell ya, in the long run of a marriage be glad. I mean, the Lord knew it would take a strong man to keep me in line. And Papa is just the ticket. How I get away with all this writing is beyond me. Well, it’s just the Lord. He makes a way where there is no way.

But ya know, as the world howls around us, we need to be makin’ cookies, breads and cakes. Speaking of cakes, I have to make a birthday cake for Mary today.

For supper this evening, I will fix bar-B-Q sprare ribs and cheese potatoes. I make my own bar-b-q sauce. I make it with a can of tomato soup, mustard, and brown sugar. Then I put in an onion slice or two and green peppers. Also salt and black pepper. I bake the meat in the oven for hours and hours until the meat falls off the bone. Bake on low.

Anyway, I had better get goin’. But today, dear Mothers, “Be Happy.” All is well in Him. He is still on the throne and is still running this side show. As we trust in Him and work in our homes and make peace, then we will find His righteousness. We will find stability in wisdom through obedience as Keepers at Home.

You must seek wisdom to find her. And if you want her with all of your heart, then you will find her.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

Do you fear God or do you fear your reputation will be ruined more than you fear God?

Are you goin’ out to find a job so that your close friends and relatives will think better of you? Even though you know the Lord has called you to be Keeper at Home?

If friends and relatives are intimidating you and pushing you to do things and you do it — then you won’t find the wisdom of God. You can’t find His wisdom until His word means more to you than the words of your relatives and friends.

If you are easily intimidated and you fear man — then you won’t find wisdom. You must be pulled and intimidated by the Holy Spirit and His words.

If you can’t forgive your enemies — then you won’t get wisdom. Your enemies and the things they have done against you cannot move you to sin. You may feel angry at them but the fear of the Lord has to be the stronger emotion. The fear of God has to be the passion above all other passions that leads you.

And if you can’t live on your husband’s income, and can’t live the humble life because of the fear of your neighbors and their low opinion of you — then, Darlin’, you will never know the wisdom of God.

The door to Wisdom is the lowly door and you must bow your heart to enter it.

Oh, yes, in the end, wisdom will produce the silver and gold, and you will have respect and power. And your enemies will be ashamed. But if you chase the gold and the power, you will never find the wisdom of God.

If you will exalt wisdom, then she will exalt you. As you put the cross before you and the world behind you, you will find eternal life.

Jesus died upon the cross to pay for your sins. He gave His life. Nothing less would do. He gave His life that you would have an eternal life in heaven that will last forever. And His sheep are asked to give their lives for Him. Nothing less will do. As we give up our lives and our fleshly wants, we find our lives anew.

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.

I used to tell Dixie on my visits to see her, “Ya know, Dixie, this wisdom you speak of is dynamite and could change the world.” She would laugh and say, “Oh, Connie, most women wouldn’t even give me the time of day. They wouldn’t listen to this.” I would tell her they would love it like I do, but Dixie would not open up or tell anyone about this wisdom.

After Bill left her, she went to work in a day old bread store. She met many people and would pray for many who were healed of different diseases. She had such an anointing of God upon her. But she didn’t share the wisdom of God through homemaking with very many. I wanted her to, as I felt she was so anointed to teach.

Dixie did her best to pipe the wisdom of God to me. I mean, when I got her cornered. But I think there is a lesson, too, in this. The woman who touched the hem of Jesus’ garment could have been killed for coming out in the open with an issue of blood. This was against the Jewish law. And the folks with leprosy would leave their places of hiding and run to Jesus as He came by. These folks knew that Jesus was their only answer to life and they had to get to Him. And I was like this, too. I knew that the world didn’t have an answer for me. I knew that the wisdom of God was my only answer.

The wisdom of God is the answer for our families. Read about wisdom in Proverbs. Dixie knew this, in part, and passed it to me. God’s wisdom has changed my life. I am passing it to you, and it will be yet a stronger anointing on you. It don’t come easy. If you want what I have, are you willing to walk in my shoes? The Lord used to ask me this concerning Dixie’s life. I am glad I haven’t lost my family as she did. Still, she had a voice that spoke from the wilderness a wisdom that this world will never know.

And to know this wisdom is a hard thing to understand. It takes seeking and knocking at the Lord’s door. It is the pearl of great price. It’s like losing a diamond in a meadow of wind, and you get on your hands and knees and, with your fingers, you sift through every blade of grass, seeking your treasure. Or maybe it is a medicine in the form of a pill that will save your family’s life, and you sift through the grass, trying to find this remedy to heal your family.

The pearls and the diamonds and the balm of Gilead aren’t just out there in the world, easy to buy at the store. It is found in prayer and learning to lean upon Him and His voice from the wilderness. If ya think you will get wisdom because you went to church on Sunday, you are sadly mistaken. No, it takes a diligence in prayer and worship that comes from your soul. When you want wisdom to save your life and your family’s life, then you will be rewarded with wisdom. If you are willing to risk life and limb to get it, the Lord will give it to ya. He rewards those who dilegently seek Him.