This morning I wanted to write but little Baby was cryin’ and wanting another bottle. So I held her and sang to her in my bedroom. As I was sitting there on the bed, the Lord told me to write about the vision I had last night of Mary. I saw her come in my front door with a dress on like the dress I had her wear as a little girl. I was very careful in how I dressed her, always in a feminine way. Her hair was curly as it once was. And I asked the Lord what this meant and He said this. The teachings that Mary had when she was little are coming up into her spirit. He said, in essence, “Connie, the devil has taunted you as a Christian Mother and told you that you raised Mary in holiness for nothing. But it was only that Satan attacks the truth of God.”

And as I sat in the bedroom holding sweet Olivia Rose, 3 months old, the Lord caused my eyes to see the books in my bookcase. I raised Mary out of old books of Wisdom from the 1800s. I would seek out these books to read to Mary and to teach her the deep wisdom of God. I would spend much time in prayer as I would seek out wisdom. I brought Mary to Dixie’s and she spent a lot of time with Jill. When Mary first married, she had pictures in her home of who she thought Ruby looked like. And they were pictures I loved, too. Mary knows Ruby and Ruby knows her. As I sang to Olivia Rose this morning, I sang to Wisdom and called her my sister and understanding my kinswoman. As I sang, it was as though the Holy Spirit whispered through me.

I am changed inside as I saw the Wisdom of God upon Mary. I feel that the Lord is saying that Mary will have a much deeper calling of wisdom upon her than I have ever had. Mary is a writer and she will write many books on the Wisdom of God. My mentor MaryL has told me, “You have passed down your mantel of writing to Mary.” Our Mary sent out thank you notes to all who came to her baby’s funeral. And so many have told me, “Oh, your Mary is a writer.” And she is. The writing she wrote about the soldier who fought a bloody battle for his country and his ring, is so powerful. It is about a young man who fought for his marriage or his ring. Brandon will be a mighty warrior for the Lord. Well, even now he is! He has always been a shepherd to Mary. And my writings I feel, up to now, haven’t been as good as the Lord wants them to be. But the writings on wisdom that will come out of this deep wound with Mary will produce some very spiritual writings.

Sometimes as we pray for our kids, we think the answer will come as we think in our minds. But I taught Mary when she was a child out of my own broken heart and many years of experience. I knew the wisdom of God. But this kind of wisdom doesn’t come upon a proud heart of flesh — it comes only upon the broken and contrite heart. The broken heart has to make a decision in the arena of fear and darkness. “Though he slay me yet will I trust in Him.”

Mary received the wisdom of God from me as her Mother. And now I have birthed the wisdom of God to Mary’s broken heart. “Oh, little bird with a broken wing, trust in God. Just because you find a high branch to jump from doesn’t mean you can fly. Your wing is broken and only Jesus can heal you. Only Mother’s tears can water you. Build your house upon the Rock Mother told you about. Not on the world’s sand. Mary Rose, remember the teachings of your Mother.”

God cannot melt His word into the rose’s thorn but only upon a bruised petal. He bleeds His crimson stain upon the pure white rose. We wish the petals to be pure white but they can’t be pure without the crimson stain of Christ’s blood. No matter how white the rose is, it is not truly pure without he crimson stain. And when a Mother goes to pray for the child of her heart, it seems her faith is tested. And the vision she has for her children seems to die. And it does seemingly die as it is a seed being tested. But Mother must endure the test.

Dear Mothers,

I am so tired this morning, I would have to dress up just to get shot. The new baby girl who is a one year old is so active. She is a doll baby, though. I can say that. She tries to eat everything. I turned around to look at her and she had a brown crayola hanging out of her mouth like a cigar. I only have her on Wedneday and Thursday. And it’s a good thing as I would be dead by now if it was three days a week. Today I have Olivia Rose who is 8 weeks old and she is asleep. I just haven’t had any time to write. But today should be an easier day. And tomorrow is Saturday. I love having the children but, boy, have I been busy.

I am so happy I can stay home and not have to go out to work. I have had so many thoughts about the Lord that I haven’t been able to write down. I feel full but a bit confused as to what I should write.

I think one thing that has been a lot on my mind is the fear that seems to be out there. It seems so many are having anxiety attacks. Most of the women I know are on meds for nerves. I take them sometimes myself. But the Lord has been speaking to me lately about the discerning of spirits. A good friend of mine (we have been close for almost 40 years) just went to the hospital lately over an anxiety attack. That fear could kill us if we let it get too out of hand. We live in an era of such a feeling of doom around us. But an overcoming feeling of fear for no apparent reason is an attack of Satan.

Ya know the Lord says in His word that in the end days there would be so much deception, even the elect would be deceived. And here’s my 2 cents on that. Well, first of all, I want to say something about the prophetesses and prophets of our age. See I learned a lot from being Dixie’s friend. She was godly in the beginning and then backslid. We think if someone is helping us or the Lord uses them in our life and we are set free, then they are of God. But, see, I can play the piano by ear if I am right with God or not. I have this gift. Some women are very gifted. They are seers and visionaries. This is why when I heard the gospel message, I came to Christ so easily and believed in miracles right away. Because in my old life, I had made friends with the devil and knew him to be supernatural. The truth that set me free to receive Christ was the truth that I saw in the Word that said that Christ was the stronger power. I didn’t know that. I thought if someone tried to fight me that my first punch was supposed to nearly kill ‘em. I didn’t know that Jesus was God — I thought He was just a man. But, see, I thought Satan was the king of kings on the earth. I knew I was goin’ to hell but thought I would get a special place as I was so bad. Then I read a book telling me what hell was like. YE-OW! I ran to Jesus as fast as I could. Oh Yeah! But, see, I was very spiritual but didn’t know the Lord Jesus. But just because someone is spiritual and does signs and wonders for ya is not a sign they are of God or will tell you the truth.

Now see, Jonah was like this. He was a true prophet called of God but he went the wrong way. As he was taking a boat out of town to the wrong town, he could have gotten you set free because he knew the Lord personally. I mean even though he was in rebellion. Judas walked with the disciples. He healed the sick and raised the dead, too. But He was a deceiver. And the Bible tells of many false prophets in the Word of God. And the Bible says not to believe every spirit but to test them to see if they are of God. Also the Word says that in the last days many would say “Haven’t I cast out devils and done many mighty works in your name?” And Jesus says He never knew them.

The Bible says Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get it. Wisdom, I mean. The Bible says that the every wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her hands. Then there is the parable of the wise man who built his house upon the ROCK.

And ya know at times, I get so spiritually hungry. And I turn on TV and watch the prophetesses speak. It’s like going through the dumpster to try to find something to eat. See, our country is in a famine of the true word of God. It is no longer preached. But I can listen to prophets at times and pick up on what God is saying. It’s like tryin’ to listen to a tape recorder with a ten piece band marching in front of you. But God speaks His heart to me and often I can see He has spoken to the prophetess the same thing but she is in rebellion. See, women like Joyce M and some like Gloria Copeland are true prophetesses but are in rebellion. No one could dispute that. They are gifted and have an inner voice speaking the power of God. But they are Jonahs and are going the wrong way. They are Christian feminists. God has called them to be virtuous women — to be keepers at home. How powerful they would be if they would obey God. Think of the abortions they could stop with their prayers. Think of the marriages they could save. No, I don’t have the power of God that Gloria has. But I have the TRUTH. And I am tellin’ you that in these last days, the Truth is what is gonna take you to heaven, not your power.

I am tellin’ you what. The foundation of our nation is shakin’. We must be true to God and His word at all cost. No matter what we see or hear or experience, we must stay on the marriage covenant. This is our stability and our covering. We can’t go around thinking about who should get a divorce or whatever. I am tellin’ you what. God has kept me as I have stayed in my marriage promise. And yes, even though Jim is in heaven, I am going to still honor my marriage until I die. And this has brought stability to me, even as I have had many adjustments as a widow. But, see, the Bible speaks as wisdom being a foundation. The fear of God is the beginning of Wisdom.

The whole Bible speaks of the powerful women of faith as women who are keepers at home. None are preachers who stand up in church with a word from the Lord. She is not the spiritual leader as she stands and takes authority. She does take authority as she is obedient to her husband. Yes, she leads, guides, and directs the home with her prayers and intercessions. But on the outside, she learns in silence and subjection to her husband. Her husband is priest and covering of her life in the home. Jezebel stood up and ordered the prophets about. But Mary waited on God to give her beloved Joseph a dream. Elisabeth never told her husband off for not believing God. Zacharias was not a good and righteous man. And God took his voice away until John was born. And Elisabeth was the woman of faith who really saved the life of John through her faith.

True women of God are silent but deadly. God stands up for her and orders heaven and earth to attend her. She is not the strange woman who won’t go home and be a servant to her husband. She is not full of pride. She takes the secret place and hides away unto God until God calls her out. She has a place with God and doesn’t cry out for the attention of others. She has forsaken father and mother to cleave to her husband. She has abandoned herself to her husband and his seeds.

The word says that our children are not to forsake the law of their mothers. And the true mother of God would not ask her daughter to forsake her husband. And in this age of wickedness, we had better stand even more upon the marriage covenant. If your husband is truly hopeless or would harm the children, I think the Lord would cause the husband to leave. Because He says that the believer should not leave the unsaved. But too often, the wife leaves a terrible husband, only to find a boyfriend is doing worse to the children than the husband was. No. I mean, guard your children. And if husband doesn’t leave, then stand for the children and don’t let him harm them.

I want to say again that it isn’t the power we have as women — it is the TRUTH we have. I mean, the Bible says that we are to be keepers at home. So, of course, the devil is gonna try to throw us out of the house and into the lions den of the world. A mother bird thrown out of her nest will do a lot of tap dancin’, especially if there is a cat in the area. And it seems a lot of these women are like that.

Well, I have to go.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I felt so desperate yesterday. Thanks for all of the prayers.

I am wanting to cut loose on the teachings on wisdom. One thing I was thinking of, as I was meditating on wisdom, is this. When I went out to Dixie’s and then came home, I could hold that imparting of wisdom from the wisdom in Dixie for about three days. She had a gift of wisdom and even the crumbs from under her table would be enough to hold you in your homemaking for a few days. Jill had other gifts like Dixie’s. But I don’t know if I was just spiritually inept in this area? I dunno. But Jill and Dixie would go more by the Holy Spirit’s voice, but I had to have words out of the Bible for everything. Turns out they were right. But I had to have the scriptures to back everything up. Why? I guess because I was to become a writer, a wordsmith. Dixie used to give me a pad of paper and say, “This is for you. You are a writer.” Jill even said the other day, as we were praying for Jane, “Connie, I always pray in tongues and you pray in words.”

But this gift Dixie had was more then just a desire to do housework. After being with her, I would come home and do something like go straight to the fridge and clean it out. I mean it was a spirit that came on ya that all you wanted to do is take care of the children, cook, clean, and adore your husband. It was not a normal desire. Other gifts would accompany it like a gift of inventions or knowledge. Like the spirit of wisdom taught Dixie to dress out a chicken when she hadn’t done it before. It was the difference in homemaking, like an artist that could paint a picture as opposed to one who could just draw a straight line.

This wisdom I am writing about, out of Proverbs, is a wisdom that was like a sport. I would get this wisdom on me as I would go out to plant herbs or gather them. It was like playing with a puppy or doing something so fun you couldn’t stop. You get lost in time as you are caught up in the Holy Spirit as the gift of wisdom is in operation. I went out to Dixie’s once and the kitchen looked red. She had tomatoes stacked almost to the ceiling as she was canning. And almost every one of those tomatoes was perfect and the same size and color. Jill had a perfect garden. I am talkin’ perfect. It looked like she had a name for every vegetable. Even though her children were young. Even though her husband had deserted her. These women were unbelievable.

But I would tell Dixie that I needed the wisdom and she would say, “Oh, Connie, you have it.” But I didn’t have it and I am still looking for it. I mean, like I said before, Dixie was about 135 pounds of wisdom and I got about 30 pounds of it. But she got this imparting of wisdom in about two weeks and I have been lookin’ for it for about twenty-one years. But Dixie gave up everything to find it. No phone, TV or anything like that. She had a radio that she listened to after supper.

But with every blessing, there is a monster there to destroy it, like I said in my last writing. Dixie’s husband, I must say, finally won out on that deal. He was an unbeliever and finally managed to destroy Dixie with his ways. She finally became discouraged and gave up a lot. Still, she fought the good fight and died knowing more of the wisdom of God than I ever got in twenty-one years. And no tellin’ if I will keep it to the end, either.

Dixie lived in the word — not especially Proverbs, like I go by. But a lot of what she said and did was out of Proverbs. Dixie’s dream, of course, was to always go deeper into the wisdom and buy her own land. But then cancer came along. Boy, did she fight that. But eventually the hospital killed her with a medical procedure that they goofed up on. They wrote Em, her daughter, a letter and told her that Dixie never died of cancer. But that they were giving her an antibiotic and a blood transfusion at the same time and this put her into an a coma and she died.

I mean you can have faith but not have a gift of it. You can be wise but not have a gift of wisdom. Wisdom has other gifts that accompany it. Wisdom is instinct in animals. It teaches the birds to fly south for the winter. It teaches a mother to nurse her baby. We are to learn wisdom from the ants. (Proverbs 6:6)

“With Wisdom a house is built” — this means spiritual and natural. Every wise woman builds her house, meaning she is wise and to prove it, she builds a house. If she is wise, she is good at what pertains to the home. She is a good mother and wife and homekeeper. Usually, a woman who loves her husband is wise in her homemaking and is a good mother. Because she is wise. Wisdom always has to do with building a home. Like Solomon built the temple with wisdom.

The strange woman is so talked about and rebuked in Proverbs because she is the opposite of wisdom. She is strange. Her feet abide not in her own home. She is an adulterer. She is feminism. She is a strange spirit. And as Solomon was taken down because of his many strange wives, the wisdom of God is choked out of us through the strange woman of Proverbs. “Strange” meaning she is not God’s daughter. This woman directly or indirectly comes at the wise woman and seeks to destroy her spirit of wisdom. She is the harlot of Revelations that drinks the blood of the saints. She is after our lives! Like my Mary who has become a harlot. She breaks my heart and nearly kills me. But this is the spirit that will take you down, either as adultery in your home, or an outside influence, one way or the other.

If we plan on getting the wisdom of God and keeping it, we need to stay away from adultery. Because this is the main spirit that will take the life of God out of you and your home. The wisdom of God will save your home. Or the spirit of adultery will destroy it. The foolish woman is foolish to begin with and this is why she runs out of the house to get a job when she doesn’t have to.

There is also much wealth in wisdom. Spiritual wealth and physical wealth. The wise woman’s price is far above rubies. And also we will attain wealth through wisdom as Solomon did. Wisdom also brings health and happiness. Happy is the woman who trusts in the Lord. Also it brings long life that satisfies.

Proverbs says to call wisdom our sister and understanding our kinswoman. Wisdom is to live with us daily and we are to train our minds to hear her, as she is a woman’s voice, as I wrote about it yesterday in the first part, as spoken of in the first 8 chapters of Proverbs. Our problem is that we have a voice in our heads, most of the time, from the world that is the voice of feminism. We have to renew our minds with the voice of wisdom in Proverbs.

Adultery is like idolatry and it causes a woman to chase other gods. She wants her husband and other men, too.

The gift of wisdom doesn’t depend upon having a husband. As in Proverbs 6:6, the ants have wisdom without any overseer. It’s good to have a husband so that he can protect you as you play out wisdom in the home. But if you don’t have wisdom, it’s not your husband’s fault unless he is in adultery, and the strange woman is coming in the home through husband. Wisdom is stronger than adultery — way far stronger, as greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world. Strange women took the wisest man who ever lived down.

But like Dixie always told me, “Connie, the wisdom of God is a secret.” And I would say, ya gotta dig for it. Ya gotta seek it as gold. It is your life. Seek it in Proverbs and learn to hear the voice of wisdom. Exalt her and she will preserve you.

Well, this writing is, um — well, moving right along. I had to stop and make lunch.

So, anyway, wisdom is a foundation. We build our homes spiritually and physically as Nehemiah built back up the walls of Jerusalem.

We will always have the woman in the strange land, foreign to God and His word, she will taunt us and try to kill us. But we fight her off with the Word of God concerning the virtuous woman. And we as wives and mothers fight to keep adultery out of our family. If a family member is in adultery, then we must deal with it. Not deny it as it will bring more deception. Ezekiel 3 says that we are to tell the truth about it so that the blood won’t be on our hands. And that we will save our own lives. Adultery will kill you spiritually, as you are worshiping another God. It will send you to hell. (I dare say, too, that there is a woman on this group, a Christian, who is in adultery. I can feel it.) But, anyway, yes, we need to deal with adultery in our families as Mothers and Wives. There is hope in this, and it can be worked out. We are to tell the truth about it and pray for the person. And the Lord will heal them and they will go and sin no more. But no one commits adultery because someone made them do it. It is a spirit and the innocent mate didn’t give it to the adulterer. But the guilty one will try to accuse the innocent.

Adultery comes as folks get into the world and begin to chase other gods. I think fornication is different if it doesn’t include married people. But a lot of Christian women divorce as they have chosen a new god. One that isn’t in the Bible. One like what Joyce portrays and not the truth of the Keepers at Home.

Many Church women get away with multiple marriages and divorces. And no one skips a beat. But when the old harlot gets sick or needs a miracle, God will wonder who she is and why she expects to be healed. Like Aunt Toot says, “Pay day comes.” A lot of harlots can get a miracle by going to church as the truly Christian women will pray for them. Of course, then the blood of the harlot is on the Christian woman. The Bible says not to fellowship with unbelievers. The wise woman will not have fellowship with darkness. But she will reprove it. She will call it out in order to give the harlot over to Satan that her flesh would be burned and her spirit will be saved.

But, no, you wives don’t need to tell an adulterous husband off. It isn’t your place. But the truth within you will begin to work on its own. God’s word works. As you know the truth, you will be set free and your husband will eventually be set free, also. But if you stand in guilt as the innocent party, then you will be feeding this demon and it will continue to try to kill you and slowly destroy you.

Truth and wisdom has to build the home. We are building temples of righteousness as women of wisdom. And, yes, we love the sinner but we can’t be stupid enough to ignore the sin. The sin will take down the whole house for generations to come. We don’t have to try to stop that wild bull of adultery. We let the truth do that as we are covenant keepers and we hold the TRUTH in our hearts. And the Truth is what will bring our families into God’s holy order.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

This morning I was watching Christian TV. They had a good teaching on wisdom. I think the preacher’s name was Keith Moore? It was good and I took notes. Of course, he spoke from the man’s point of view. Couldn’t ya just see him speaking from the teaching on wise women? If he had of quoted Proverbs 14:1, you would have heard a BOOOM that would have reached clear to the moon this morning.

Proverbs 14:1 “Every wise woman builds her house and the foolish woman tears it down with her hands.” It doesn’t say “Some wise women build up their homes and some wise women leave the home and put their children in Daycare and go out to seek their fortune in the street.” But since I think the Lord is speaking now to some about wisdom, I thought it was a good time for me to write on it.

Preacher was saying there is a difference between knowledge and wisdom. Knowlege is being aware of something and wisdom is knowing how to deal with knowledge. Wisdom means skillful. We can be skilled in homemaking but if we don’t have the knowledge of the Word, then we don’t know what to be skillful in.

The worldly church tries to get the woman out of the home to be skillful in the work place. But God calls the wise woman home to learn to be skillful. Also the wise woman can discern good from evil. She can discern the times and seasons she is in. And good night! I mean we need to learn the skills of home and how to be self sufficient. We are in dangerous times in our country. We need to learn how to somehow make it with the wisdom of God.

Love,
Connie

I am up early here writing. I hope you all have enjoyed Emily’s writings as much as I have. Emily is going through some problems and writing about her Mother is really good for her and nice for all of us.

When Em said that her Mom canned 800 quarts of food a year, this was true. I remember Dixie saying that she filled her canner twice a day in the fall when the food was ready to be canned. Her canner held 8 quarts. She made a lot of grape jam from her grape vines. She had a huge apple tree and made a lot of applesauce. Then she had a freezer that she filled with apple pie filling for winter pies. Then, of course, she always had a huge garden and canned her vegetables and fruits. She tried to make everything they ate and hated to go to the grocery store. But if she did have to have store things, she took the labels off, as she didn’t want to have store advertisements in her house.

Like Em said, she hated worldliness. She had been out in the world before she was saved and so wanted nothing more of it. She had a wild life before she knew the Lord. A very hard life and that was enough. Emily, if you want to tell any of that, you can, as a lot of the ladies could relate.

I remember when the spirit of wisdom first came to Dixie. And, oh, I would sit at her feet to hear her speak of the wisdom of God. Well, if you had heard her, you would have loved it, too.

Emily was always fascinated by her Mother, even as she got older. Dixie would just go about her business and talk about Wisdom as her sister. You always felt when you talked to Dixie you were talking to her Sister Wisdom, too. She always talked about how we need to cry after the Wisdom of God. I used to tell her, “Dixie, this stuff is dynamite. So many women need to hear this.”

And she would say to me, “Connie, the feminists would laugh their heads off at you if you were to tell this to them.”

I would say, “Yeah, but not every woman would laugh.”

I mean if Emily and I weren’t here to tell you about all of this, you never would have heard it from Dixie. And I was always the writer. Dixie would give me paper and say, “You are the writer, Connie.” And Now I guess Emily is a writer, too — a good one.

Emily, you are like Laura writing about your mother. Ya know, this is why Laura began writing, is because she missed Pa and Ma so much, and her sisters and the baby boy who died. Dixie and Em loved to read the Little House on the Prairie books. Emily was brought up on them and all the cook books and song books, take offs of Laura’s books. Dixie used to tell us girls, “Connie, there is wisdom for today in those books.” And there sure is.

But Dixie was a forerunner. She was the head goose who led the rest of us in a “V”. She cut the wind for a lot of us to follow.

And the thing with learning wisdom is that one can never learn it all from one who has the wisdom of God. You have to learn the wisdom by experience, right Emily? We can pick up a taste for it or an inspiration. But we have to get the true wisdom from God. Just Him and us.

I am such a Word person. I was brought up in my faith in a little Baptist church. And those Baptists are pretty stiff but stay a lot on the Word of God. So when Dixie started talkin’ about Wisdom, I really prayed about it. Dixie had more Spirit than I had. So the wisdom didn’t come to me as quickly. So I was always in the Lord’s face about it and in the Word of God.

And you all should study it, too, as I did. Because if you don’t, then the devil will come to try to take it out of your heart. And if you stand there and say, “Well, Connie said this and that” — well, no, only the Word of God can rebuke the devil. You have to know on your own why you are the wise woman who builds her home.

Ya know, deception is out there as thick as mud. But I tell ya, I am almost never confused anymore about what I believe. Because I know the wisdom of God concerning being a keeper at home. That is a basis for truth.

But, no, this stuff with women preachers and all will be the ruin of ya. Women are not to take authority over men. Not in the home or any place. And especially not in the church of Christ.

I save myself more grief just because I know this. The Lord takes me to the craziest meetings to show me stuff. I mean stuff that is like a circus side show. And everyone is always going to these meetings where women prophesy. Now why do we need so much prophesy? And it isn’t prophesy for the whole family. It’s this prophesy for the wifes gifts to be used outside the home. Nothing about the home or the children. Just about women being like movie stars. What a bunch of junk!

But all of this religious garbage being preached by these so called women preachers are making way for more deception. And the most godly people are falling for this deception! But as the teachings are lost concerning home and family, the stage is set for horrid deception. I wonder if this is the deception in the end times that will deceive the very elect. I feel it could be.

Walk in holiness and don’t divorce your husband. Stand for the family. Take care of the children. Your salvation is in taking care of your family. This is your holy covering.

Dear Mothers of the Home,

Last night, as I awoke in the night, I could feel the presence of Wisdom and I call her Ruby. The Wisdom in Proverbs, about the first 8 chapters, speaks of the voice of wisdom. In my heart, I could see the word Ruby made out of grape vines. I sensed the colors of Wisdom. The blues and purples, colors of royalty. With shadows of gold and glistening of silver.

I see the olive trees and hear the branches whispering in the wind. The olive branches stand for healing and prosperity. The oil from the olives is used to anoint the prophets and handmaidens of the Lord. The oil is used in the lamps of the virgins who wait upon the bridegroom. The Lord anoints our heads with oil and our cups overflow. He gives us the oil of Joy for mourning. The garments of praise for the spirit of heaviness.

The Bible calls Wisdom our stability. The wise woman builds her home but the foolish tear it down with her hands. Prov. 31, about the virtuous woman, is not a chapter all by itself but it is a conclusion to Proverbs. You can sense the virtuous woman’s ways in all of Proverbs. Prov 24:3 says Through Wisdom a house is built. And by understanding it is established. And by knowledge it is filled with precious and pleasant riches. Then in the New Testament, we have the parable of the wise man building his house upon the rock, or the foundations of Christ and His word.

Solomon built God’s temple with Wisdom. God gave Solomon wisdom because Solomon desired wisdom more than the riches of this world, or honor, or the life of his enemies or a long life. Solomon only desired to do God’s will. He wanted to lead God’s people and judge them righteously.

And as we as wifes and mothers, as keepers at home, we must come apart unto God. We need the wisdom of God to lead our families in righteousness. Of course, as women, we teach in silence and submission. We must allow God to order our thinking as we watch our husbands.

2 Chronicles speaks of Solomon and how grand the temple was that he made for God. When Queen of Sheba came to see for herself the glorious temple Solomon made, she comments, in chapter 8 verse 7, how happy the workers are and everyone in the palace. Wisdom brings joy and gladness. You get the idea that the Queen was astonished at all that she saw. Solomon’s wisdom was so powerful. Chapter 9 verse 23 says that all the kings of the earth sought the presence of Solomon to hear the wisdom that God had put in his heart. This is the wisdom that is our stability. The wisdom that we are to build our homes with.

Ya know, the world is gonna lie to ya and try to break you down. I have never felt so broken as lately. Satan has slammed against me with all he has. And yet he Lord has been mighty to save me.

The wisdom of God will hold us in place. But we must want the wisdom of God more than riches or reputation. If you are worried about what the neighbors will think, or what anyone thinks of you, then forget wisdom. Jesus made no reputation for Himself. He was called a criminal and was nailed to a cross like a common thief. And Joyce M likes to say that the Christians should be rich so that the unbelievers will want to get saved. The unbelievers are not that STUPID. They look at Joyce and think of how STUPID we Christians are that we are being robbed by women like Joyce. Every time she asks for money, the unbelievers go, “Well, here she goes again. I wonder if she needs a new car.”

No, the unbelievers are looking for some radical Christians that that will stand up in the face of all hell breakin’ loose and stick their tongue at the devil. And our world don’t need anymore money. Obviously, the more $$ they get, the worse off they are.

I am sick when I think of those poor folks in New Orleans. They had a house one day and the next they day have nothing. As they sit with little or nothing, how can a sermon on prosperity help them? These people need to be helped up.

Solomon represents Jesus in the Bible. And we, as women of God, keepers at home, represent Jesus as we remain in the wisdom of God in our homes. We must come apart unto God and learn His wisdom as dish washers and gardeners. We must take up spiritual tools of righteousness and make a home upon the rock. Upon the foundations of Christ.

The Word says that wisdom was with God as He built the foundations of the world. We must build our foundations with Wisdom. We must be wise women who build our house upon the rock. And when the winds come the house may weave a bit but it won’t fall. Because our house is built upon a sure foundation upon the Rock Jesus Christ.

Don’t divorce and don’t go out to work. Stay home and take care of the home. I live among grown children that do well but the $ isn’t there as they need it. They work hard but the $$ is hard to come by. But so often the vanity arises. “Well, I don’t wanna live in a dump.” Well, if it’s a roof over your head and it has a kitchen and it’s warm for the children, then take it.

Jim and I raised 6 children and never had government help after he was saved. But God knows we never lived on $$$. Good grief! He had a minimum wage job. I stayed home and prayed and worked like a dog. No insurance of any kind. We couldn’t afford it. But Wisdom kept my children safe and well. The angels brought in what we needed.

To build yourself in the Lord and to be accomplished in Wisdom is far better than rubies. Who can find a virtuous woman for her price is far above Rubies. Money is a trade but a sorry one if ya ain’t got enough. But the wisdom of God will give you more $$ than the gold of this world. But, again, if you are wanting to make it and learn wisdom, then you have to forget the world and what they think about ya. If you are out there to be a success in this world and drive a new car to prove it, then forget Wisdom.

Now Wisdom brings riches. Oh, yes, it does. But the Wisdom without reputation and power and glory has to come first. Seek first for God’s kingdom. Do right in your marriage and with the children. Lay a foundation of wisdom. Build a house with wisdom and, when your heart is totally His and not on riches, then the $$ will come in. And when the $$ comes it won’t be important to you. The new car and shiny ear rings won’t count anymore. When you do get $$ you just keep stackin’ it back into the good of the family.

Folks give me Birthday $$ or for Christmas to spend on myself. But if I see my children falling, I will give it to them to help them back up. I am not going out to buy myself new STUFF! No, I put it back into building the wisdom of God in my children. I teach them, as I give them my $$ for pleasure, that it means nothing to me. NO. Nothing means anything to me except that I would teach my children wisdom and the anointing of the Lord. I build my house with wisdom and with all the energy I have on this earth to give. Ya know? Because I don’t desire the things of this world. I truly desire wisdom above everything else. And it is wonderful to be set free of wanting this and that to make me happy.

See, ya know? Chasing riches on this earth is so silly. If you find the wisdom of God and how to relate to her, as in Proverbs as a keeper at home, then you feel so satisfied.

Dixie used to tell me when I was all worried and upset, “Connie, Wisdom doesn’t look at evil.” Or she would say, “Soooo Jim isn’t the boss anymore — you are?” Oh, I was like some of you all as a young wife. Boy, I thought I was livin’ on Jim’s paycheck. Well, if I looked at his paycheck, I would scream bloody murder. But, see, I would go back and forth between the wisdom of God and the foolish woman.

Jesus’ Mother didn’t live on this world’s goods. She didn’t take Jesus to the world if He got sick. She didn’t go to the world for anything. She went to God. And yeah? An angel comes and tells Mary who is a virgin that she is pregnant?

The Wisdom of Mary

And how many of us are wise enough to be like Mary? An Angel comes to her and tells her that she is pregnant by God. I would do some fancy tap dancing if I had to explain that to the relatives, if I were a good Christian single virgin.

We as wives and moms want everyone to think we are ok and upstanding. Well, where do we get this? The Saints of old knew that to suffer for Christ was a privilege. All of us aren’t called to do this. But when we do suffer for righteousness, we should rejoice that we can suffer with Christ. Jesus was a radical Revolutionist and He gave His life for His cause.

Mary was a keeper at home and she gave her life. Mary had listened to the sermons in the temple. She knew that Jesus was to come and He would come through a virgin. She knew she was a virgin, even if no one else knew it. She knew she was innocent of any wrong doing. But who stood with her and protected her? No one. Well, finally Joseph did, as God gave him a dream. But Mary always stood with Jesus and even to the cross of death. Mary was serious about God and loved God even if she was called to stand alone.

Paul in the Bible, after he was saved, didn’t confer with people for 3 years. Moses stood alone, and Noah, and in just about every chapter in the Bible, you see the examples of people God called out for Himself who were tested and tried and ask to stand alone unto God.

We Mothers who build temples in the wilderness for God must know how to stand alone. Will we stand alone on the Word of God? Will we learn wisdom in the dark when nothing is familiar around us and all seems to be lost? Can we call upon Wisdom with our faith and make a Joyful home and see things in our Spirit that God alone has shown us? And let the world laugh at us? They laughed at Jesus who said He was the Son of God. He told the truth — He is the Son of God. And His nature is to call disciples out with His personality. And if you are like Jesus, you will be misunderstood and called a sinner. But can you stand alone, as Mary did, and quietly build a temple in the Wilderness?

Your seeds are blessed and God has called you to build a platform, a home, for Kings and Priests. For Prophets of God and for Handmaidens who learn to be keepers at home. A strong Christian Mother who has lived a life for Christ in her home will speak to generations to come. Not because she published herself. But she will be published all over the world in every language as Mary, Jesus’ Mother, was. But to build a temple on the foundation of the Lord is the hardest task you can do.

Will you remain in Him and not give up and get a divorce or leave the home of your husband? The wise woman gives her life for the Lord. She doesn’t chase happiness in this world. She chases happiness and the Joy of the Lord that comes through obeying the word of God.

Weeping lasts for the night but JOY comes in the morning. As we follow Christ, we lay down this world’s code of rules and we look to our God. We crucify our flesh. We lay down the happiness of this world and we willingly die to our desires. And when we do this and we give our all to Jesus, then He gives us true JOY and Happiness. And the worldly happiness comes, too. But it is no longer first in our hearts to be happy in this world. Jesus is first and the riches of this world do come. But our hearts are no longer chasing the stuff that is killing us.

God teaches us through many tribulations what the true riches are. He washes our eyes with tears that we may see that the broken heart we had was meant to be. Oh, it’s hard to praise God for a broken heart. But can we see in any other way the face of Christ upon the Cross at Calvary? Can we be made in His image without a broken heart? He breaks our hearts and molds us to His image. Then He comes to bind up the broken heart and to set the captive free.

Jesus is the Victory that overcomes the WORLD.

Ya know, the more I go along, the more and more I understand of the wisdom of God. I know my friend Ruth and I used to get sorta put out with Dixie when she would say to us, “Are you into your homemaking?”

We would say later after Dixie left, “Well, yeah, I am into my homemaking. If I wasn’t, the house would have fallen in by now.” I never could quite figure all that out.

My friend Jill would just wake up in the morning inspired. So it was hopeless to me to try to figure that out. And if you saw Jill’s house you would faint. The homemaking spirit is just padded on the walls. If ya go there and are not inspired, then I dare say, you are made of something different than I am. Jill’s house looks like a stage set for Ruby.

Emily says when she comes here it is like her childhood home. It’s hard for me to see that. “Your home drips with the wisdom of God,” she tells me. I am glad she said that, but I don’t see it myself.

But the other day, it came to me so clear that wisdom has to be first in your homemaking. We have all cleaned our houses because we had to. But the wisdom of God causes us to clean our houses and do our homemaking as a sport. Dixie used to tell me this but I couldn’t get it. But, see, the wisdom of God has to be nourished always within you. You have to pivot from wisdom as you do your housework. So that means reading a scripture about wisdom and doing housework out of the scriptures.

If a woman does not understand that her place is at home with her children as keeper at home, then the wisdom of God cannot come to her. Or she may get it, sorta, but all this does is cause her to flip back and forth from home to her job. A double minded man (woman) is unstable in all of her ways. It has to be settled in your heart through the scriptures that your place is at home with the children. But if you are like me, you think, well, you should wake up inspired. But we live in such a feministic society that feminism just hangs on us like rain. And feminism ain’t gonna produce anything but barrenness and poverty of the soul.

You can be very poor financially and still be lavishly rich in your soul. Wisdom is our gold. It’s our gold and silver. And unless we seek it as a treasure, we will not find it. And I dare say that we have to dig for it each day in prayer. Some of you, like Ally, are too busy to seek and pray for very long. But just keep your Bibles out and read a scripture in Proverbs on wisdom and try to memorize it. Or maybe put a wisdom scripture on the fridge. But I think what the Lord is saying is we need daily manna from the word of God.

The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. The wisdom of God has to come first and then the joy in our homemaking comes. But the platform of joy in our homemaking cannot come as we dust and sweep and wonder if we should be out getting a real job. We must understand the word of God that says “Every wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with their own hands.”

See, we as Christian mothers and wives really never had to learn about being homemakers 30 years ago. Most of our mothers were homemakers and it was a common thing for us to understand our place at home. It was socially acceptable. All the old ladies loved to encourage the younger mothers and help them with their children. Folks loved babies and it was odd to find women who didn’t want their children. Abortion was murder. Plain and simple. Birth control was not given to single women at all. Not unless they were having trouble with their cycles or something, but this was rare.

Now in this day, the whore on the street is normal and the stay at home mother has to hide under a rock where the whore used to hide. So let’s not kid ourselves — we all need to study the wisdom of God. And the wise woman has to build her house upon the rock. And we had better get that straight. It is life and death that we get wisdom.

Hard times are upon many of us. Jim is just starting now to get more hours at work. And, ya know, it is good to store water and canned items and all of this. It’s wise to have your homes prepared for whatever may come. But the most important of all things to have stored up is the wisdom of God. Let me tell ya, I have rarely run out of food in hard times and I have known many hard times. But I ran out of wisdom. I would get discouraged. I would get tired of the work and the duties set before me. My soul would often become lean when those I loved suffered around me.

I could starve to death if I had wisdom in my heart. Our spirits are much bigger and more real than our flesh. Our spirits are eternal. And our spirits must be fed the wisdom. Well, we as wives and Moms need all of the word of God. But when the house is falling in and you have little babies crying and the phone is ringing, then you better have the wisdom of God up front in your mind. I would say it is an emergency that we get the wisdom of God. It’s not a “nice to have” thing … it is a “must have.”

Ya know, the poor people are feeling this financial crunch right now. And when we hear the gas bills are going up, we scramble. But I am amazed at the people that aren’t listening. I want to stand up and wave a red flag. I mean, you get some 700 or 800 buck gas bills and that will push the stay at home mother right out the door for a job. I mean, this will be like paying for another house to rent. But, ya know, you can be cold with wisdom in your heart. But ya can’t be cold with panic in your heart. And the wisdom of God is your most important thing to stock up on right now. If we as stay at home mothers don’t get this wisdom we will perish. And our places as keepers at home will be over and outta here.

You can’t make enough money with a job, dear mother with children. You can make it with the wisdom of God, but you can’t work enough to make it with your outside job. It’s God that has to put us over. We must cry after His miracles. Solomon was given wisdom to build the temple for God. He asked for it as he longed for it above wealth. This was God’s plan. God didn’t want a temple built on man’s earthly wisdom but upon the wisdom of God. A home put together with answered prayer is the family God will use for His glory. We must raise our children and teach them the word of God and the laws of God. Through this we lay a foundation for them to receive the wisdom of God. Wisdom will take you much further than your outside job will take you dear mothers. Learn now how to live off wisdom. God must call the shots in our lives. Our money is an earthly trade that we use on earth. But the wisdom of God is a trade also. It’s like money, but it is a spiritual money. The Bible says it is our silver and gold, our treasure.

As Christian wives and mothers, we pivot from heaven to earth many times in a day. We call upon the Lord and He hears us. And, yes, we use money. But we also use the treasures of wisdom. And as wise mothers, we are on earth and in heaven. And we must store up our food supplies. But the most important supply to store up is His wisdom. Read Proverbs as if it was your last book on earth to read. Hear her voice and forsake the voice of feminism. Feminism is a plan that failed. A cult religion that has proved to the world it was a farce to begin with. But the wise women with the true holy oil of wisdom in her lamp will see the Lord when He comes. They will hear His voice and will listen with the spiritual ears of their hearts. Wise women will now study wisdom in the word of God and will practice hearing her voice. And when the voice of the strange woman comes, they will know it and cast it out of their thinking.

We live in the best of times and the worst of times. We, for the most part, don’t have a traditional Titus 2 Mother to teach us. And this is good, even if we thought it was a curse. We Mothers after God’s own heart do not have the hand of the Titus 2 Mother to teach us, or the voice of a real live human mother to talk to us but, as Solomon built his temple, we too must desire only the wisdom of God to lead us. We don’t have any props to hang onto as our grandmothers had. We don’t know the feelings of tradition and the old time ways. And so God seems to have brought us out to a wilderness and we cry out, “Lord, don’t you care if we perish?” And He has called us mothers to make our tents in a dry and thirsty land. And in this place of lack, we must call upon Him. And this place in the wilderness is where we will find true treasures of wisdom.

We want it second hand — we don’t want to have to dig for the golden wisdom. We can wish that our grandmothers understood it. We long to hear the voices of our great grandmothers but cannot hear them. If only we could see their faces. Oh, how I long to look into the face of a virtuous woman. I used to cry out to God as a young Mom on my knees. I would cry out in prayer, “Oh, God, if I could just touch the hair of the virtuous woman. If I could only know her.” And my heart, in bitterness, would say, “I have been cheated, Lord. You have called the older women to teach me to be a keeper at home. And instead they chide me and mock me in my misery.”

I was especially mocked and hurt when I was pregnant. One older woman asked me out for lunch to put me down for being pregnant. “Just look at the shape you have gotten yourself in,” she snarled at me, and I could barely eat. She tried to kill the wisdom of God within me as Herod tried to kill Jesus. It broke my heart. I was so ashamed of her.

And yet, ya know, I was made to build my house upon wisdom. My home was never put together with money. It was put together with the voice of God in my private prayer chamber. Alone, I would stand before my King. Always seemingly in life and death situations. Always hoping in His mercy. And this is how the Lord has kept me and made me. Not with human hands, as I longed for, but with His voice. And with the voice of wisdom.

I talked to crazy Annie last night on the phone. Now I am nuts! Naw, we prayed and now “Crazy” is OK and I am, too. I told Annie I felt like all my hens were out of the hen-house, and the lady in charge is off her rocker, and now what? Well, ya know what? Our country, I think, is in a mourning and we feel it. Many people are depressed because of the hurricanes. There is fear out there because I think we all wonder, “Oh, what next?” But it is in times like these that the Lord’s compassion does bring the wisdom of God.

I learned the wisdom of God in the worst of times, and Dixie surely did! She was an absolute basket case just before she learned this wisdom. Jill and I didn’t know what the heck to do with her. She was like a madwoman. She stood crying on my doorstep about every day. Here I was with a houseful of children to care for. And at first, Jim would pray with me for Dixie when she came. He had just gotten saved and all.

I even made a place in the root cellar for Dixie and me to pray. But ya know? I couldn’t talk to someone every day. I had babies to tend to … it was a mess. Dixie had been so full of the Lord and had helped me in prayer to see Jim saved. So I felt I owed her. But I think probably I saw her every day for like 3 years. Almost every day, she would be outside my door early in the morning to pray. And nothing worked to get her set free, either. I ran out of answers. Jill and I said that we even wanted to slip her some cold pills or something to calm her down. She was driving us nuts.

And then one day she stopped coming into town to see me. At first, it was a vacation for me. But I loved Dixie and got to worrying about what happened to her. So I went out to see her. I found this woman to be sound in her mind and well. I said, “What happened to you?” And she said she had found the wisdom of God. She was as calm as the center seed of a cucumber. She had been like a wild hurricane and now the storm was over.

She said she had seen the wisdom of God. She was a woman and she came out and talked to Dixie. She was the spirit of homemaking. And this homemaking set Dixie free.

Well, when I got saved, it was in a strict Baptist church. No funny business with the talking in tongues or seeing things. So when she told me about the wisdom of God … Man, that was something else. I couldn’t deny that the Lord had answered my prayers for Dixie. But talking to Wisdom? Well, I understood the homemaking spirit. I knew it was for real. But the wisdom of God I didn’t understand.

I went home that day and just ate my Bible, trying to understand this Wisdom. And at night my pillow was like a board as I tossed and turned and asked the Lord for the wisdom that Dixie had. But God didn’t give it to me for about 3 or 4 years. He wanted me to read the Bible and find it in there. He wanted for me to catch Wisdom’s voice and be able to listen on my own to her. She has a voice as described in the first Chapters of Proverbs. See, we hear Feminism all day long, as she has a voice. But we think it is “Out There” to hear the voice of Wisdom. But, being part Baptist, I had to make sure this Wisdom stuff was on the up and up.

Well, also, the Lord wanted me to understand it in words, as I am a writer. Dixie told me about Wisdom but just told me to read my Bible about it. She didn’t really explain it verse by verse like I wanted her to. She had the wisdom and walked it out. But I needed the proof in the word for it. None of us should just take someone’s word for something about the Lord. I trusted Dixie and I knew she was legit. But I had to KNOW it for myself. And, of course, this journey is what I write about.

Dixie walked in this wisdom for about 10 years. But then she had another down time and and it was horrific and she needed another touch from God. I dunno … she somehow lost the wisdom of God. So, anyway, I can’t say for sure what happened to Dixie. But when she got the wisdom of God, it really saved her marriage. Anywhere Wisdom is, the spirit of happiness and joy is. Depression never stays when the spirit of Wisdom is there.

Anyway, Dixie left the temple she built in the wilderness. That home was so powerful. I mean, the prayers were answered out there … it was like a temple to me. It was glorious. But it is mighty dangerous to follow God as she did and then somehow lose your home. Dixie was renting. And when Dixie left there to go to town to find a job, the devil began immediately to take over the house.

The landlady sold the house to a monster. This guy burned the house down and let it fall into the basement. It was even against the law how he did it and the fire department had to come out. And before that, someone came and hacked off the trees. It looked unreal. They didn’t just saw them down — it just looked like someone knocked them down.

Dixie had told me not to go out there and look at it. But I did, and I wish I hadn’t. It was like seeing your beloved place of prayer ripped down. It was a nightmare. It was as though Dixie had held this place of prayer up with her spiritual hands. And when she barely backslid, she lost it all.

I think that the wisdom of God, for a wife and mother, is lethal. It is more powerful than we know. And the devil stands right behind ya, when ya have it, and he hates it and wants it more than anything. Proverbs is not just some nice verses in the Old Testament that mean nothing. These words are life and power to the mother at home.

I tread mighty lightly when I speak of Dixie backsliding … except for God’s grace, there go I. But Dixie was a trailblazer and I don’t think I will learn more until I learn what she knew. And she had some real basic teachings under her belt that I am still trying to grab hold of. I used to tell her, when I went to to see her, that the world was hungry and dying for what she knew. She would tell me, “Oh, Connie, the women of today could care less about the wisdom of God.”

But I told her, “No, Dixie, this stuff is hot off the Lord’s heart … it is cutting edge stuff.” And it is! This truth on Wisdom is what will either make or break you mothers in the home. It is your stability. It is your power and my power. We have no place else to go but to His heart and His word.

The spirit of Wisdom calls us home to our own business. To our homes and to our children. We submit to our own husbands as unto the Lord. We must submit and listen to our husbands. We need a covering … a holy covering. Women are not made like men. They need a covering in order to make the home. We need a cover for our emotions, as we need to be sweet in order to raise children.

Let he world howl. God is on your side. Stay inside and submissive to the husband God has given you. Don’t try to digest all the News on TV. Oh, yes, it is sad! But the word says that no man when he warreth entangles himself or herself with the affairs of this world. Our world is with God under our husbands.

We have no other world than that as Christian Mothers. We have no other occupation than to tend to the children. We need to make a home and a nest to comfort the family. Our loved ones need our gentle voices. They need a prayed-up mother to cook and bake and run the home in peace. Our feet need to abide in the home.

The more wisdom you get from the Lord, the more hidden you need to stay. Hide away unto God and fellowship with the children. You don’t need to go to this church meeting and that one. Your church is at home … your husband is your priest. We are to submit to our own husbands. And if your husband wants to go to church, then go with him under his holy covering. But keep your eyes upon your husband and his guidance. To leap over your husband to go have fellowship with preacher will cause CONFUSION!

Well, later this morning Wild man and I are going for a ride to a town about 20 miles from here. It’s Jim’s birthday so we are just going out to goof off. I am making our dinner now in the crock pot. We already celebrated Jim’s birthday last week with the kids.

Anyway, I am making a favorite dinner for Jim in the crock pot. As I have been writing this morning, I have been cooking. I put about a fourth of a pound of hamburger in the crock pot with onions, salt and pepper. Then I put in a pound of hot dogs and they are cooking now. Next I will make up some baked beans and add them. They will cook all morning and be ready when we get back home. Mary will stop later today to visit. I will probably make cornbread, too.

But, dear mothers, just get out your crock pots today and make something good. Like Canaan, get out your scented candles and light them and make a sweet home. An inviting home to greet the family when they come home for the evening. Of course, keep the candles away from the children. But we need to make our homes with our own hands.

Let’s close in and sit by the fire and learn the wisdom of God.

Well, Dot, I know I said I would write on wisdom today. Well, I almost need a vision to do that … anybody got any? I have never read anything on the wisdom of the Bible as it pertains to the homemaking spirit. So I have to get it all from the Lord. And, ya know, ya can’t very well just turn Him on and off at will. I am hoping, as I write, He will feel sorry for me and give me some wisdom.

Well, Dixie talked about it. But I am the writer and so I have tried to put her into words. And only from what I remember. I have some of wisdom on my own but not that much. But, ya know, Dixie never watched TV when she walked with wisdom, and she never had a phone. Certainly, she never had a computer. She had a radio and listened to that in the evening. Aside from that, no … she only heard the Lord … and the voice of wisdom.

Dixie’s husband Bill was a truck driver and gone a lot. So a lot of the time, it was just her and Emily in the house. But when you were with Dixie, you were always totally entertained. And Em just loved being with her mother, and just loved listening to her and working with her. Dixie was like a book of wisdom and you wanted to hear every word that came out of her mouth. I never wanted to miss anything. And I would leave her house long before I wanted to, as I wanted to be able to come back again. Emily loved me and wanted me to stay … and so she would try to keep me there and I would be trying to leave.

Oh, that Em was always such a cute little girl. And as a mom of 2 preschoolers, she is still so cute. Her husband Chris is a good husband to Emily, PTL. Em tells me, “Mom was my best friend as well as my mother. I was blessed to have her.” Emily was adopted when she was only 6 months old.

Well, Jim just got home so I have to quit. Hopefully, I can write tomorrow.

(Continued …)

Well, Dot asked me to write about Ruby and her voice of wisdom. So here I am attempting it again this morning. Boy, Dot, you know how to open up a can of worms.

I say this because the wisdom of God is so illusive. It’s like playing a violin and somehow reaching a certain tone that pulls at your soul. And you hear it and long to hear it again. But you can’t find it. It’s like a song you made up and forgot, and it was so lovely and it moved your soul and set you free. And you have tried to find that wind of inspiration again but you couldn’t. And now it is a bittersweet moment that you feel as though you will never find again. And then someone asks you to find it for them, and so you search for it again. Discouragement will take the wisdom of God right out of ya. The world will take it out of ya.

The wisdom of God is the natural revelation of God, as talked about in Romans 1. And, of course, Proverbs. I think Mother Nature is the voice of Ruby.

The wise woman builds her house. Wisdom is the stability of the times. The voice of wisdom can bring order where there is disorder in the home. It’s because the wisdom of God has nothing to do with the world and the voice of the world. The voice of feminism is what will choke the wisdom out of your heart. A woman’s home is a place of a authority for her. It is a God-given authority. We are called as women to be keepers at home. When a married woman with children leaves her home, she comes out of her place of authority and loses her authority to the world.

God plants seeds of wisdom in our hearts, but then the devil tries to choke it out with the lust of other things. Worry will keep the wisdom of God from flowing in your heart and from being fruitful. You become as a woman who can’t receive a physical seed from her husband. She may want to become pregnant, but the worry and confusion keeps her from conceiving. And in the spirit realm, the woman is to conceive spiritual seeds from God. And the main one for a married mother is the wisdom of God.

A godly woman is always fruitful, both in the physical and in the spiritual. Psalms 92:14 They shall still bring forth fruit in old age and be fat and flourishing. I think this is talking to Godly older mothers and speaks of being fruitful in the spirit and in the physical. Sarah bore fruit in her old age and, of course, she is our mother of faith. Sarah started out contentious but learned how to be a submissive wife. And she became spiritually fruitful and physically fruitful. Just think what she would have been like when she was young, had she been obedient to God.

And this is a side note, but I think women like Joyce M are like this. They are great women of faith who are misdirected because of a contentiousness toward their husbands. And they are jumping over a great teaching for women that would set them free. But pride and and lack of knowledge holds Lady Preacher in bondage. Satan has rewired these women who could have been fruitful for God.

Our world is crying out for women who have the wisdom of God. I know of it, but I have a danged hard time walking it out. If I ever figure it out, it will be my best writings. So thanks, Dot, for shaking me out of my thud? You have set me back on course and, hopefully, my sail in the wind is pointed toward the wisdom of God.

I do see in my spirit volumes of books on wisdom. They have gold pages. I pray I get that written some day. I can see this book as I write. It will be about the old time homemaking. I see a book on sewing taught by Ruby and one on washing the clothes with a wringer washer, and one on child training. I see different books written with the Wisdom of God.

“Oh, pull us back, Lord, from the world, that we will see the true riches from heaven. That we would know the wisdom of God.”

OK, as I write, I am having a picture in my mind. It is of a mother flipping from the wisdom of God to the world. She is caring for the baby and the phone rings or something distracts her. She leaves her place in the Spirit and visits with the world for a while. She flips from the leading of the Holy Spirit to the calling from the world. As she flips from one side to the other, she never holds the wisdom of God in her spiritual womb long enough for it to take hold. Worry and fear causes her to chase one spirit to the next, never settling long enough to let her seeds of wisdom take hold and grow. And some women, this is their problem of why they can’t get pregnant in the physical. They start out in the wisdom of God, then fear comes and they worry over it and chase the fear and not the wisdom of God.

“Ruby” is the name I have given to the voice that is described in Proverbs — I think about the first 8 chapters. Ruby don’t play with us women. It’s her way or the highway, let me tell ya. She won’t come to a house where a woman is contentious with her husband. Proverbs describes her. She is not the strange woman who runs about uncovered by her husband. Ruby’s voice is in the city as well as in the home. But her voice calls the women who are worldly out of the city to come back home to do their work at home. She calls us to our sewing and making crafts and cooking supper and baking a daily bread.

Today Jim and I will go to the Amish village for our anniversary. When I go into some of the stores there, it breaks my heart. Ruby calls me and I get so sober and my heart calls back to her. When I go to the grocery store there, and see all of the homemade bread the women make, then Ruby calls me. “Connie where is your homemade bread? You could do all this in your home.” And I wonder to myself, “Connie, what are you doing? How long will God stay with you on this?” And my heart is crushed as I know the Lord calls me to homemaking. And I wonder just how much longer the Lord will strive with me and put up with me.

Oh, I am into my homemaking. I made pumpkin bread yesterday and chocolate chip cookies and chili. But I have a deeper calling to wisdom and I know the Lord wants me to bear much fruit concerning the wisdom of God. But I am such a loose goose sometimes. And Jim has been out of work and wanting me to do this and that. I long for the quiet days to do my homemaking and to hear His voice. But that is not enough to have a few days here and there.

The deal is not to find the wisdom of God, as we can all find Ruby in the word of God. But the work of faith is to find Ruby and have her live daily in our homes. We need to call wisdom, or Ruby, our sister and understanding our kinswoman. Ruby needs to be our companion that we walk with daily. She is the helper, the counselor. Her voice must call us to our children and to our homemaking. Not once a week, but daily and each moment.

Her voice is clear in Proverbs. She calls us to exalt wisdom and listen to her voice. In the world, let the dead bury the dead. But we sisters of wisdom have a heavenly work to do. We must catch the voice of wisdom through reading Proverbs and let her voice dwell in us. Let the wisdom of God direct your steps and not the voice of feminism or the voice of the world. Do whatever it takes to root out the bitterness in your hearts, and let your hearts be pure and tender to follow Ruby. And in this journey, you will bear much good fruit for your families. Don’t be weary in well doing, for your shall reap it if you faint not.

Most of what is taught in these churches is a stumbling block to the teachings of God’s wisdom. And, ya know, some of that teaching has become a wicked stronghold for a lot of Christian women. I am dealing with one now that I don’t even know where to begin with. She has been in the church for years and makes no sense whatsoever. Pray that God will deliver her. And, ya know, when I write like this and look at my own sinful self, all I can say is, “God forgive me!” The Lord has been long suffering with me. And why and how do I get so far off the mark? Because I look at the world and what they are doing instead of looking at God.

The devil pesters me and tells me that I am a nut, anyway. And when my own mother asked me if she could read my book I said, “Well, Mom, it’s a bit to the edge, ya know. I don’t think like everyone else.”

And she said, “Well, you just better start thinking like everyone else.” Ya know, like I was a pervert or something. And I feel like I get in enough trouble without going full blown into the wisdom of God. But ya know what? People are fickle and they think I am a nut already. And they probably think I will get nuttier, anyway. And this life is short and we need to follow the Lord at all costs. Eternity is for a very long time? This life is but for a moment. Whatever we plan to do for God, we had better get on it, come hell or high water. And, ya know, I know some of ya think I am crazy but I have to tell ya the truth.

Some of these churches are just railroading these women away from their families. And especially at my age, near 60. These women are so lost. I have nothing to say if I don’t tell you the truth about what I see going on in the churches of today. They are for the most part a crime against the wisdom of God. And this writing isn’t for everyone. I always write to the broken and contrite heart.

OK, so I hear Ruby calling me. She is saying, “Connie, come out from among them and hear the voice of the Lord. Don’t listen to the world. Call Wisdom your sister and understanding your kinswoman. Hear the voice of wisdom. Be led by the voice of Wisdom. It is your stability and your place in God. Let the instincts in your heart lead you. Listen to the voice of wisdom in your heart. Forsake the strange women and stay away from them.”

Well, I should go pray.

Virtue lights the power of wisdom. It ignites the fire in the wisdom of God.

Virtue is what causes a woman to be fruitful. Without wisdom, a woman doesn’t want to be fruitful. Every wise woman builds her house but the foolish tear it down with her hands.

Virtue heals the mind of the grieved and barren woman.

Virtue is the touch of God for the Godly women of today.

“Oh, Father God, we cry out even now. And by faith we touch the hem of your garment. We weep as Daughters of Zion for the true healing of our minds and souls. We are broken hearted as we miss your presence and your anointing. We desire to build godly homes for your sons and daughters. Oh, quicken the scriptures of virtue and wisdom that we would understand Your ways and be set free of the curse in this land concerning feminism. Oh, the feminists slash our hearts and curse us … they are bitter against us. Guard us from evil prayers from Christian feminists. Feed us the word, Lord, in this wilderness, in a dry unfruitful land.”

We must drink our water from secret streams in the desert. There is a famine of the word of God in the land.

“Lord, give us words of truth that will set us free. Water our souls, Lord, as we are so in need of you. We are your people and long for Your presence. Anoint our heads with oil and prepare a table before us in the presence of our enemies. Oh, God, restore our souls … give us spiritual strength and virtue. And in the middle of it all, Lord, when the mud of sin seems to float up to our necks, we will praise you and do our homemaking as unto the Lord.”

I am gonna make that dang bread today if it kills me, and it may, as its supposed to be HOT? But I am gonna obey God today and make my husband some bread and God knows what else. I will not sit in the ash heap with the Christian feminism. I feel like sometimes I have a tent to live in. But, by golly, it’s home … and it’s paid for, thank you.

What’s for supper, ladies? I better get about my baking.