Dear Mothers,

I had a lot of interruptions yesterday so didn’t get to write all that was in my heart. One thing I want to say here is this. Ya know it took me 12 years of prayin’ to see my family come into order. But it won’t take you all that long. See, Jill and Dixie and I, and some of the others, found our truth as we went along. But we were trailblazers. And so are many of you! But with my knowledge of the Word and some others — and with what God does for you personally that I don’t know about — you will get a healed family in a lot less time.

See, many came after Edison and improved the light bulb. They took his experiences and added them to what they knew and then perfected the harnessing of electricity. I don’t think Edison could have ever even dreamed up a computer … yet still he had a part in it. I remember when I first got my e-machine and was writing to New Zealand and Australia — wow! I could hardly believe that all I had to do to shoot a message all the way to the other side of the earth was to punch a button. How unreal is that! And how many minds made the computer? It was many people adding knowledge and wisdom to knowledge and wisdom.

But Ladies, use up what I know and add it to what you know and increase in more and more power and understanding. And you know what? Your testimonies will far outreach mine. I will be forgotten someday. But some of you will shine like stars. I am a forerunner because I don’t listen to the world. Hey. Hey???? Do I have your attention? The world and its folks don’t know how to stay out of a divorce! They don’t know how to pray a wayward husband home. Take a dang shortcut and quit listening to the world. They are here to crucify you, but, Girlfriend, if you can live long enough, you will be able to turn around and save their life.

I mean many years ago, Jim was my enemy and an enemy of Jesus Christ. But I loved him and didn’t give up on him. And do you know how you got to know me? You got to know me because my husband supported me so that I could go to the world with a message that Jesus can heal your marriage. Jim became my power to the world to shout the Victory. The man that nearly killed me with heartache has become the hope to many other families. It is no secret what God can do. What He has done for others, He will do for you. The husband who deserted me and sinned against me one day gathered me up in his arms and said, “I am so sorry.” And he lived long enough to give me a place of stability to shout this Victory to the mountaintops, “Jesus came to bind up the brokenhearted and to set the captive free.”

Ya know bless Jill’s heart. She would come to my house as I wouldn’t eat for such sorrow of heart. And she would all but feed me. I always tell her that she was the reason I am fat today. But I would not eat days on end. The deep sorrow I felt was killing me. I was 5 feet 8 inches tall and was lucky to weigh 100 pounds. Often I lost weight and got to 95 pounds. I just wept and prayed all the time. But God delivered Jim and He delivered me! And I have told God that I have needed an eternity to praise Him for just this alone. He saved my Johnny Paul in 7 years. And YEEEOOOWWW look out devil, I see Mary Elisabeth comin’ down the pike with victory in her wings!

It’s shoutin’ time in heaven! Oh, yes, its shoutin’ time! I am pullin’ glory out of heaven and makin’ a place for it on the earth. I am binding the evil on earth and the Lord is breakin’ heaven loose for me. Praise Jesus! Its shoutin’ time.

Mountain Moving Faith

Ya know Wild Man would go to the mountains to hide out when he would hit the road. And Mama was at home moving mountains with her faith. I was speaking to mountains to be cast into the sea. Must have made it hard on a wayward husband who was tryin’ to hide out in the mountains that wouldn’t stand still. Then Papa got saved and never again saw the mountains. We were gonna go there so he could show them to me. But we never went. Maybe someday I will go alone but I doubt it. Oh, how I loved that man.

And soon it will be Thanksgiving! I can feel the earth fairly shake as I know all of my seeds are coming home. Christian Joy and her husband are traveling by car from NYC. Hungry hearts longing to see their loved ones again. John and his darling wife Christine and son Romeo will be coming Wednesday night from Missouri. Jimmy and his wife Aleksondra and their little baby girl will come from Illinois and get here Wednesday night. David lives near here and his family will come with the new grandson, Papa’s namesake. And Mary will come, too. Dan will be the only one not coming and he will come for Christmas.

Aleks called a few days ago and she said Jimmy wanted me to make bread for Thanksgiving. She said he missed my homemade bread. I haven’t made it since Jim died. I have never made bread for anyone but Papa. I even made it for him when he was gone, believing God he would be home to eat it. I can’t imagine making bread that Papa won’t eat. And yet Papa sends me his love from heaven, always encouraging me. I know he wants only what is best for me and our children. I know he wants me to make that bread with as much love as ever.

Papa only wanted the best for me after he was saved. He spent the rest of his life trying to make me happy. I am always at peace knowing how much he loved me and honored me. He loved our children and grandchildren. Always wanted what was best for us. He had a heart of compassion for us. His greatest grief was that he couldn’t do more for us. But I was satisfied and happy with whatever he gave us.

I followed this man wherever he went from the time I was 19 years old. And when he did leave me for the final time and went to heaven, I knew where he was and I never feel I am without him. I have never grieved as others grieve for lost loved ones. I just know where Papa is and I know I will see him again. When you are as close as Jim and I have been, you just always know where the other one is. That comes as you go through the pit of hell and come out on the other end. Then the Lord gives you a heaven on earth. And then Jim’s body wore out and he had to leave for heaven. I know he couldn’t help it. It was his time to exit and he went in peace and love. I accepted it and let him go. I submitted to him … finally I submitted to him. Before that, I wouldn’t let him go. And we argued about it. He said a few weeks before he died, “Connie, it is my heart. I am dying.” I screamed, “No, you aren’t!” I wouldn’t let him go. But when Papa knew the time was right, he went on ahead to heaven. I submitted to it. And I felt such a peace. I was able to minister to the children as they all 6 wept and cried out for him. The grief was controlled and peaceful. The minister there said he had never seen such love in a family. If only he knew that all of the love he saw came through years of prayers and intercessions.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

Ya know when I was a young Mom, I used to stay home and pray when friends wanted me to go here and there. My one neighbor used to say to me, “Well, all you do is stay in that house and read your Bible and pray.” And ya know back then in the 70s, my life wasn’t at all like everyone else’s. I was alone raising my children. I went to church and most of the people there were in families. You didn’t see a bunch of singles like you do now in church. The churches were made up of families. I used to sit in church and cry, wondering what I had done to deserve such a fate. But God had His hand on me. And now, 40 years later, I look at society and I see many Connie and Jims. Who would have ever thought society could have gotten that bad? The strong Christian families seem to have faded into the background and the hurting families have become the majority. Yes, Jill was raising her family alone, and a few others. But very few!

What I am trying to say is Jill and I didn’t know of some woman who had gone through what we were going through and had came out on the other end. They weren’t around. I think this is why it took me 12 years to get through it all. My pastor, bless his heart, would tell me, “Connie, take off your rose colored glasses. Jim will never straighten up.” I mean the majority around me thought I was not playin’ with a full deck. But what was going on is this. I heard a new song. I saw a new vision. My faith was not of this world. I ran to a different beat of a drum. God put a stronghold of faith in me that wanted to live and breathe and have its being in God.

Oh, Satan tried to kill my faith. He proved to me again and again, “This is not working. You are a fool to keep going with waiting for Jim to change.” At one point just before Jim was saved, healed and delivered, I had almost given up. But a flicker of hope like a dying fire still remained in my heart. I thought, “Well, what if God’s Word is true? What if I have come this far to give up just before the miracle?” And it so happened that my miracle did come right at the midnight hour. But, Wives and Mothers, I am tellin’ you what. You can’t keep bouncing off what your relatives or your neighbors tell ya. You can’t bounce off how old you are or how young. You can’t bounce off the world’s system of things.

I am here to tell you this. “You have to see victory in your heart. Ya gotta see it to believe it!” You gotta get a vision. You gotta get a new walk and talk. Change your name if ya have to. This is why I started to call Luanne “Annie.” I wanted to see her with an attitude. I wanted to see her like Annie Oakley lassoing her problems. We need to give that devil some problems. But we can’t do it by listening to the voice of reason or common sense.

The Bible calls the preaching of the Word foolishness to those who don’t believe. Anyone in the Word of God that had Vision didn’t have anything to do with the give and take of this world. This world has a law called gravity, and it has the law of sin and death. Its cause and effect. But we as women of God are set free of the laws of sin and death. Nehemiah had a vision to build the walls back up for his fellow Jews. Oh, the world scoffed and laughed their heads off at him and his poor and miserable relatives. But he kept his mind upon building his house. He believed in the impossible. God had built a stronghold of faith in him and he followed the Lord. Nehemiah was a man of vision and purpose. He heard a bell ring that no one else heard. He saw something no one else saw. He felt a faith that no one else understood. And this made him a leader for God. He was a trailblazer, a dreamer, a seer, a visionary. And so were the others written in the Word of God. David wouldn’t bow to an idol as he was not living in this present world. He was set apart unto God. He had never followed the world. He was a man after God’s heart.

Ring Victory Bells

Do you want to be something for God and a headache for Satan? Then take your rotten circumstances and throw them in the garbage and walk out your faith. Call yourself a visionary, a dreamer that can dream her way out of the hell and into the land of Promise. Inventors who established our country were like this. They invented things like the light bulb and the telephone. Electricity was always here from the beginning of time. But it took Thomas Edison who had a dream to learn how to harness it.

Your miracle, like the electricity, is in the earth now. Our prayers are answered now. But we have to bring them to us. We bring them by a power called faith. We walk out the miracle as we plan for it to come. We clean out our cupboards to receive the food we need. We make a feast to feed a husband who has promised to never come home. We wear a maternity dress when we are called barren. We speak our miracle and plan our life around our miracle. We don’t plan our life around the world and its ideas. We hear a distant voice of Victory calling us. We hear the chariots of fire in the heavenlies. We see warring angels fighting our battles for us. We dream dreams and we walk out visions. The world calls us crazy and we please the Lord as only He calls us to do. To walk by faith, as only faith pleases God.

Live out your visions and ring victory bells until Satan screeeeeeams, “Stop! I give up!” Don’t listen to this world. Don’t listen to the voice of the unbelievers. Anything we ask in Jesus’ name we can receive. Loose heaven with your prayers and bind the satanic things of earth. Nothing is impossible to us as we walk in Him. Covenant keepers are precious to God and He wants to bless them. It’s the time, too, for Covenant Keepers to be blessed. That is a word of prophesy.

I am very interrupted this morning. But one other thing I want to say is this. Edison was partly deaf and he said he was glad as he could stay focused better on his work. And we need to come away from the world and be deaf to it. Walk out your faith. Call things that are not as if they were. (Mark 11:23-24)

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

Through prayer last night, the Lord gave me such a teaching. I was too tired to write it down last night. And now Baby will be here in about an hour. I hate to start on this but will anyway. I just don’t have enough time.

But the Lord was speaking to me about the folks in the Bible who wouldn’t do what others wanted them to do concerning prayer. How some with leprosy would hear that Jesus was passing by, and would run out of the leper colony to see Jesus. It was against the law for a leper to be out in the marketplace. And the woman with the issue of blood pressed into the crowd to touch the hem of Christ’s garment. She, too, was going against the law as she wasn’t supposed to be out in the marketplace, either. And I think of the woman who asked if she could just eat the crumbs under Christ’s table. So many had to press in and beg for help. They pressed out of this world and into heaven to reach Jesus. Then the Mothers brought their children to have Jesus bless them. And the disciples said “Don’t bother the Master.” But the Mothers pressed in and waited for Jesus to bless them. And Jesus saw them and told His men to let the children come to Him. And in the pressing in comes the answer to our prayers. Folks about us tell us, in a way, “Don’t bother us with your problems. Give your problems to the Lord.” But some of us won’t stop — can’t stop — as we have a passion that will take us to Jesus. We are the wheels that squeak the loudest in the kingdom of God.

We live in a world with a boundary line around it. The rules are under the prince of the power of the air, “Satan.” The laws of sin and death are the laws of the land. The laws of cause and effect are here. Gravity is a law of this physical world. And yet we must pray and loose these laws over us. Whatever we loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. We pray and loose our prayers from Satan and a lever is pushed and heaven opens up to us and gives us our answer. We fight the devil all the time. Binding and loosing on earth and setting our prayers free to touch the heart of God.

Passion and strong love fires us and we press into heaven and grab whatever we can. We use up the earth and we go to the edge of the earth. We are always pressing on the boundaries of the earth, pressing on the boundaries of heaven. Because ya see, the law of the earth is this. “If your husband is an adulterer, he will stay that way” or “If a man is a criminal he will stay that way.” These are the laws of the earth. So unless we press out of this world with our prayers, we will keep getting more of the same. If we live our lives the way most Christians do? We will not see His glory. As we flounder around upon this earth and do what we did the day before and the day before that? We will not see His glory. We will keep seeing what we saw the day before as we live by the rules of this earth. But if we don’t care what folks think and we are willing to kick out the walls of the boundary line, we will see His glory. But we must run the race and know how to deceive the devil. And we had better know how to run a lot faster then the Christians around us. Because many of them ain’t winnin’? And as we run the race with passion and fire, we find in the end that we are winning the race for heaven. That it is all a project set before us.

Jesus uses the trials of this world to cause us to come into the place He has for us. We work out our own salvation. And as we suffer, we are made pure from sin. The flesh is burned and the spirit comes forth glistening with anointing and power. As we fight our battles, we cannot win. Only He is supernatural. And unless we fight our way out of this earth and into His world, we will not see His glory. And we begin to see that for us as believers, indeed all things do work together for good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.

His Anointing

And ya know, lately I have been helping my elderly aunt. She had bought blue shower curtains and didn’t like them. So she had me to take them down and put up pink curtains. After she looked at them, she said she didn’t like ‘em. So she bought some white ones and brought them home and she told me she didn’t like them, either. And now she is in a tither over it all and don’t know what on earth to do. You can imagine me standing there. My wheels turnin’ in my mind thinking, “Does this woman know there is a war goin’ on? And that abortion is killing over a million babies a year?” She don’t know any of this and she looks at me and my hillbilly ways and she says in disgust. “I am particular.” And I am thinkin’ “About what?” I don’t say nothin’ as the poor dear ain’t got a clue.

But ya know some folks don’t have any problems living on this earth? And some of us who have problems that only Jesus can solve wonder why we have it so hard. Well Good-night, Darlin’! We are the chosen ones! We have to touch the hem of his garment. Either that or flat out drop dead. Hell, I can’t afford to die — that’s why I have to keep on livin’. And I ain’t worried about bein’ particular about my shower curtains. I am just flat glad I can take a shower and have hot water, right? But somehow my whole life is on the edge and I am always screaming in the street for Jesus. I am long past worryin’ what people think of me and my rowdy kids.

Solomon got his wisdom because he wasn’t worried about his reputation or the life of his enemies or this world’s wealth. He was chasin’ God. He wanted the wisdom of God above anything this world has to offer. And when you are chasing a supernatural God in a natural world, folks try to shut you up. But as we cry out to Him, we call miracles out of heaven. We cry out for the anointing, but the world don’t understand that. And the more the world tells us to not bother the Master, the closer we come to His anointing.

Let us reach past the world and loose in heaven the things of God. Gotta go. Duty calls.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

It is such a cold windy day here today. I have Baby Olivia Rose, 3 months old. I just rocked her to sleep. She is peaceful in her little bed. I think I will make Potato Soup this morning after I write. It’s a good day to write and to make soup. Later on I want to tell you how to make your own chicken broth to use for different recipes. But this morning as I was rockin’ Baby, I was thinkin’ about the Lord. And I thought of how He loves our faith and how it touches His heart.

Last night as Aunt Toot and I visited on the phone, Toot says, “Connie, just keep prayin’ for Betsy (Mary) — she will come through.” And this is true ya know. We can’t give up until we see His glory.

Ya know every time the kids are home, and it’s after dinner and we are visiting in the living room, they want to get out all the Family notebooks of pictures. Some of the pictures Papa has in those albums, I keep thinkin’ “Man, I need to throw that picture away — I look like death warmed over.” One picture in particular that I wanted to throw away, John took out of the plastic to show me. “Mom, I love this picture of you with us kids.” I said, “Oh, Johnny, why do you like that?” He said, “Oh, I just do. Next time I come back home when I have more time, I want to take that picture and have it enlarged.”

Oh, that picture told a million stories as I looked at it. I was standing in front of the sweet magnolia tree. It was in full bloom. I was holding John as a baby and Joy was hanging onto my leg. Jimmy stood beside me. The spring winds were blowing our hair. We stood beside the house I had bought for 150 bucks down and 135 a month. Man, what a story. It was the worst time in my life and yet I had decided to not give up. My blouse was white with red roses and my slacks didn’t match. But the Lord had someone take my picture. I thought it was my worst day and yet the Lord saw my faith. And the things of this world are not like the things of heaven. He chooses the foolish things of this earth to confound the wise. And in our weakness, He is made strong. What the world calls great the Lord says is filthy rags. But the Lord celebrates faith and is drawn to it. The angels are drawn to the fragrance of faith. The Mother of Prayer and intercession entertains heavenly messengers. They love her and rest in her presence. Her tears are caught and put in golden vials. His Word is written on her heart and her words and prayers are engraved in His heart. The world doesn’t call her a trophy but the Lord calls her a champion of faith. She draws the comfort out of the Holy Spirit and His presence is in her midst. And as I was drawing each breath from Jesus those many years ago, someone took my picture.

What will Johnny do with that enlarged picture? Someday he may put it on the wall of his house. And in 30 years, maybe he will say to his children and grandchildren, “This is Grandma Hultquist. What a life she had!” But the most important question they will ask is “How did she come out?” As older Christian moms and dads, they will say, in other words, “Did she stay the course? Daddy, did Gramma Hultquist endure to the end?” And I can hear John say, “Yes, she endured to the end and she didn’t give up on God.” I can hear him laugh as I see John telling his grandchildren about Aunt Mary who drove Gram crazy. But Gram wouldn’t have Mary acting that way and she called down heaven on Mary. And Aunt Mary will be there to say, “Had it not been for Mama’s prayers, I wouldn’t be who I am today. Mama didn’t give up on me; she stayed the course. She ran the race and didn’t look back.” And it all depends on what I do today and every day by faith so that I can hear this conversation as I look down out of heaven. And if I give up now, I could see a much different picture. John would have to say, “Mama was so sweet but when Mary turned on her, she died of a broken heart. The life went out of her.”

Strongholds of Faith

And ya know each time God gets ready to move on our situations, the devil attacks us to try our faith. Our faith stirs up the heavenlies and seems to alert the demons to attack us. But the attack is nothing. It’s only smoke and mirrors. The devil deceives us and tells us to give up … that God isn’t working … but in truth He is. We take a big stick and smack Satan’s beehive. We wake him up with our faith. Anytime you go to attack the fort of evil, it is gonna start to fight back. But it is nothing — just deceptions and lies.

Satan fights with lies and condemnation. He tries to weaken us soldiers of the cross, telling us, “Your battle will be never ending.” Also “Your battles haven’t been won yet and therefore never will be.” And yet the Lord calls us to wait upon Him. To wait it out and to not become discouraged.

Waiting on faith means to wait upon God as a waitress waits upon tables. Faith is an action word, not a hunk of magic stone that sits there and doesn’t move. Waiting upon God in faith is like this. Say you are believing the Lord for a husband to come home. You surround your day with faith moves. You start the day out with the thought, “Today my husband will be home. What nice meal can I plan on fixing for supper?” Waiting on God means in this situation that you give the burden to the Lord. You are resting yet moving in faith. You are making a place in the closet for him to put his clothes when your marriage is restored. Because if you aren’t moving in faith, you will move in bitterness and fear. You will sit and imagine evil, still thinking you are just waiting on God. But in reality what you are doing is building a stronghold of wickedness.

Baby is crying.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers of Faith,

Ya know we can pray and pray and we get the victory? I have had so much victory lately. But ya know our Joy can get so full. I am like a balloon so full of JOY, I haven’t known what to do with it all. The Bible speaks of a JOY you cant contain. I am there. But the Lord tells me that when you capture or take over spiritual land, then you have to learn to abide on this land. To set up housekeeping upon this Promised Land. It’s hard as it is a new land acquired by faith. And it takes faith to live on it. You sorta plateau off.

In order to keep the victory you have won, you have to learn how to live on it. If you don’t learn to live on it, you will lose it. Like when I got the miracle of a healed marriage. It was hard to kinda go into that land of Deliverance. It was a miracle that I kept that land and inhabited it. Little demons were behind every rock, it seemed, trying to scare me out of the land. Jim was healed and working every day. And every morning after Jim went to work, the devil would say, “He ran out with the checkbook” or “You better check your purse; he has taken all of your grocery money.” And on and on went the accusing spirits. But one day I got up in the morning and before Jim went to work, I gave him all my money and the checkbook in case he wanted to run out. I had to call the devil on it. Of course, Jim was healed and for the next 26 years did nothing but bless me and make sure I had money in my purse and that all the bills were paid. My miracle had come, but could I live in the Promised Land? On the Land of “Healed Marriage” and a “Saved Husband.”

See, like the old pioneers of the middle 1800s who were seeking freedom in a new land. They had to get the land and inhabit it. And the first pioneers settled the land for many others to come to a safe new land. But Mercy! The first families who came had to endure Indian massacres and many hardships. They who got there first had to build not only their own homes but schools and churches and stores and roads. They had to find a way to long term live on this land. And to make a place where their children could grow up and have a safe place to raise their children. Many of you who are first generation Christians face this. And some of your parents and grandparents had the faith to take the land but didn’t have the faith to maintain it and bear fruits of righteousness on it. Some of your mothers got saved but never built a home for you to bounce off from. Their faith wavered and they limped along. This is where we as mothers now need to learn our lessons well. We need to make sure that we take the spiritual land from Satan and abide on it. But not only to abide but to build a testimony that will strengthen our own children when they fall and want to give up their Promised Land.

Often as John and Christine faced hard times, they would say, “Well, if Dad and Mom made it with practically nothing and they had six kids, I guess we can make it with one kid.” And boy, it’s hard goin’ when you are a first generation believer that set up housekeeping in a wilderness. And ya know the aunt that mocked me as a young mom now mocks my own children and grandchildren. We will always have the unbelievers about us chiding us. “You can’t make it. That’s impossible. You are sure to fail.”

When I bought this house seven months pregnant with two little kids already for 12,000 bucks? Mercy! My aunt walked in here and said horrid things. Jim was here long enough to get us moved in and he left us for his life of crime. Man, I could have given up. I went by myself to the hospital to have my baby and brought her home alone and took care of her alone. It was the coldest day of the year and the furnace went out. And the folks helpin’ me kept cursing me and tellin’ me they would never help me again. They had told me to give up on Jim and I wouldn’t so they were tryin’ to make me sorry. I wasn’t!

So you acquire the Promised Land by faith. And by faith you live on the Promised Land.

Many times as we pray, we will feel the spark or the anointing fall. But sometimes we don’t catch it. Or if we do catch it, we can’t hold it or maintain it. And the anointing drops come like rain and can come again and again and fall like mercy drops on our heads. But we aren’t good catchers ,,. or we aren’t good land for good seeds. Our hearts are hard with unforgiveness and the drops of God’s mercy can’t touch us or seep deep on our souls. But we must have a vision of our Promised Land.

When God tells us that we are being blessed, we must enlarge our tents. We must begin to walk by faith and make spiritual roads and schools. We can’t just take over the land and inhabit it but we must begin to build upon it and set down boundaries to keep the enemies out. We must become bulwarks and stalwarts to protect, like walls, our Promised Land. We have to stay focused upon our purpose and each day add another brick to the foundation of our dreams of our new land.

And we as Mothers must keep our focus first upon our own husbands and our own children. And as we stay focused, we will become a home built upon a hill for the world to see. We become examples and our children and our husbands are strong. And we build testimonies for the weaker family members to fall back on. And we build line upon line of God’s Word into our families. And we teach how to teach our children in Home School. And we start a new land and a new revolution one family at a time. One day at a time. One slap in Satan’s face at a time. And what stops us from entering the Promised Land and from maintaining it? Fear — only fear. Only the lies of Satan. Only the deception. Only the unbelievers who say it can’t be done. But we must build homes made of “All things are possible with God.” As we focus upon home and family, we walk out what is going on in the heavenlies. Jesus the church is under God and God the Father is the Lord of all. We fall into place as we keep our eyes upon the blood covenant of Marriage. We are stabilized as we keep our eyes upon the work God has set before us as Keepers at Home.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I am so Joyful, I feel like there should be a law against it? Mercy! I don’t really have much to write except to Praise the Lord. I slept last night. And when I woke up this morning, I thought, “I didn’t have to take Ibuprofen to sleep. And I didn’t take anything to sleep. I just had a good sleep.” Slept about 7 hours. I did wake up early but I prayed for my neighbors. Usually I have awakened in the night so fearful about Mary. Then I have to get up and get myself put back together again, as I would get anxiety attacks in the night. But God is setting Mary free and I know it in my spirit. I am happy again. I told the Lord this morning, “Lord, I want to just die happy now. Don’t allow me to have any more of these attacks. Just let Mary and Brandon do well … and let me have peace.” Well, I got the silent treatment from the Lord. I have a really sneeeaky suspicion that Mary and Brandon will be such testimonies that their story will have to be told. I haven’t talked to Mary again but I don’t feel a need to, either. I know she is doing fine and has the spirit of truth upon her. And I know she will be making some sound decisions from here.

Strongholds is what I want to write about. I have learned a lot from this past trial. Strongholds are the mindset of the person you are praying for. Evil mindsets come in our loved ones. And we pray to cast them down. As they have an evil stronghold, they are the mouth of the devil. And the biggest thing they do is condemn the one prayin’ for them. This is the biggest trick Satan uses is deception. He deceives our children and they begin to think that their thoughts of Satan are their own thoughts. So Satan comes in and builds a temple in them and teaches them the ways of death. And the Word tells us to cast down strongholds and all that comes against the Word of God in our loved ones.

Our loved ones get this teaching of Satan in them and it causes us mothers or wives to be afraid. We become amazed with fear as we look at the bad shape of the ones we love. Satan holds our prayers back and tells us we have no reason to believe God. That the situation is toooo bad, and not even God can change things. Well, by that time, Satan has built a stronghold of fear in the wife and mother. The stronghold of fear plus the stronghold of deception in your child or husband creates a paradise for Satan. You become as two in agreement with Satan. Fear and deception is what Satan loves and lives on. He can’t live in an atmosphere of faith. It kills him. Love kills him, too. And love suffers long and is kind. Love is never ending … it abides forever.

Ya know the devil would just torment me almost to death about Mary. But I couldn’t give up because I love her so much. I love her more than I can say. And even if she had chosen Laine, I would have loved her, anyway, and put up with this guy. But God is causing Mary to love Brandon and I know he loves her. Mary has the spirit of truth upon her now. Thank the Lord. And Brandon, I know, loves Mary and she told me how much she missed him. Thank the Lord! I am just a human being and my love for my girl is deep and everlasting. I can love her in a place of adultery and even the Lord has to look away. But I am her flesh and blood and God is pure and can’t look on sin unless He looks through Jesus within us. I forgive her! I am a sinner, too.

I say all of this as I know that many of you are on the same journey here. And I am not a teacher at all or worth anything if I can’t equip the saints for every good work. Hard times are upon us. We must know how to fight the good fight of faith. Our country is at war and things look dangerous. But we as believers are not of this world. We can’t live as though we are unbelievers. We must be able to call down fire out of heaven and know how to work righteousness in this world. Signs and wonders must follow us.

Praise the Lord

Ya know the Bible says that the Lord looks about the earth for those who will believe Him so that He can show Himself Mighty through them. Alaine, do you know where that scripture is? God is looking for women who won’t go for the money but will go for the real things of God. He is looking for wives who will stand on his covenant.

I told Mary a few days ago, “Mary, there is a miracle in the Marriage Covenant.” The Lord is lookin’ for women that won’t give up until she sees the glory of God. He looks for the woman who will stand alone when all the world is tellin’ ya, “Well, you are crazy. Your family will never be anything for God.” Or like my aunt used to tell me when Jim and I were separated, “Your husband probably has another family someplace.” And the prison guards told me, “Well, why do ya want him? He will never amount to anything.” And he wouldn’t have amounted to anything, either, except Jesus Christ had an angel come into Jim’s cell and talk to him. Rehabilitation wasn’t the answer as those prisons don’t teach anyone anything except how not to get caught next time. Duh! But Jesus Christ knows His stuff.

I mean I didn’t enjoy goin’ through 4 prison terms with Jim. And when he wasn’t in prison, he was in jail getting ready to go to prison. HELLLOOOO? It wasn’t easy lookin’ at him on the chain gang and think, “Oh, yeah, this looks good and I know he will be a Christian and come home and be a good family man.” And no one believed he would amount to a hill of beans. And I never worked a day after he was healed, saved and delivered of demons. And the Lord gave me 26 years of JOY with Jim. I finished my course when Jim died. The Lord gave me double for all I suffered. And the Lord wouldn’t have let Jim die until He did give me the double blessing. I wouldn’t let Jim die up to then. And he could have died many times, but God kept him. Even as he has died now, I never sense he is gone but always with me.

But in this physical world, I have finished my course of marriage. It is now carved in store, in a sense, that Jim never left Connie again and her prayers were indeed answered. I finished that course and came out with a face aglow with the power of Christ. And right afterward, another onslaught of Satan came against Mary. And now God has given me the victory there, too. And I will see many miracles come through Mary in Jesus name.

But I am tellin’ ya, Satan ain’t gonna just give up easily on your loved ones. We must not walk by sight in this world. We have dear friends who agree in faith, too. And we appreciate that. But when it gets down to it? It has to be you and God. And you are there to see the Victory and you almost experience it alone, too.

The twelve spies who went out but only two came back to say “We can take the Land.” Yes, there are giants in the land. But the woman of God is not afraid as her trust and confidence is not in what she can do but in her God who can do all things. Nothing is impossible with God! Blow the trumpet in Zion for the Victory is here! Mary Lehman at 76 (or 77, I forget) — she blows this huge Shofar and I can sense she is blowing it today as her stepson was healed of cancer. Praise the Lord.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I walk out here to write sorta gun shy. Our reponse group has been in a bit of a stir lately concerning my writing. But I must throw caution to the wind and just write what the Lord is giving me. Forgive me if I get out there. But ya know, dear Wives and Mothers, we are in a spiritual war whether you believe in it or not. Or if you beleive in the devil or not. Our country is in a major physical war. We cannot look at our circumstances to judge what we will do. Well, none of the people in the Bible who amounted to anything followed the laws of sin and death. Jesus Christ died upon Calvary to set us free from the laws of sin and death.

We must live our lives as believers free from this world’s ways. The world will tell you that once your husband is a dope user he will always be one. Or a drunk or womanizer or whatever. But God’s word says that he will be a new creature in Christ once he comes to the Lord. We can’t judge ourselves by how much money we have or what kind of house we have. The Word says “Let the poor say I am rich and the weak say I am strong.” And the sick are healed in Jesus name. But we don’t live by this world’s standards.

We are from a heavenly kingdom and are just passin’ through this earth. We are here a short time to be a light in the darkness and to be salt and light. And we can’t do anything for God if we are just living by this world’s standards. We are not from the HELL kingdom of Satan. But we act like it as we walk in the atmosphere of fear and doubt. Satan doesn’t own us and fear is not our leading. If you are led by fear, then you are quenching the Spirit of Peace. You are killing the answers in your life.

If you are not in the Faith Kingdom and walking on the highways of Peace and Rest, then you are out of the will of God. Been there and done that. And I judge myself as a sinner. I pray I will stay out of the kingdom of fear and intimidation and walk with Jesus and His Spirit of faith and Happiness. We give Satan strength for his strongholds as we agree in unbelief. We help him build his kingdom and we shoot with fire from hell the angels that are tryin’ to come to us with a message of hope and faith. We must cast down vain imaginations and all that exalts itself above the knowledge of God. May God forgive me for my unbelief as I have seen His miracles and I am responsible to believe Him and not give up. He has trusted me with a hard trial but I have not passed the test lately. May God forgive me for my unbelief.

See, the walk of homemaking is the walk of faith. But sometimes if we are struck in the gut by the devil, we don’t feel like doing our homemaking. But, of course, we have to as the family needs to eat and have clean clothes to wear. But the JOY of Homemaking isn’t there if we haven’t yet prayed through. The load of suffering is so heavy that our creativity cannot flow. So it takes a while often for me to labor in prayer in order to come into the rest. The rest is when we have prayed through for our family and we know that we know that all is well. Because most of us are not going to be creative with mental confusion and a double mind.

Those who love much and are full of compassion find it hard to pray through. We are passionate for a cause and we won’t give up until we see the loved one set free. It doesn’t matter how long it takes — this mother is gonna suffer until she sees the glory. And it takes a woman like this to pray through. Because love will jump in the middle of the deepest ocean to rescue their baby. They will run into heavy traffic to save their child. No matter what they do, they are gonna grieve until they see their loved one on top. As Mother cries and grieves, the Lord hears her and this is her prayer. But she will have times of rest in this as she sees the vision set before her as God sees it. She sees the answer. She sees through a window of the future days. Not with eyes of this world but with the eyes of her spirit. A part of her lives in the heavenly kingdom and somehow she sees with the eyes that she will use in heaven. And she somehow hears with her spiritual ears. She can’t explain it to the world but she has seen a spiritual vision and she has heard His voice.

I mean at times our young children will have a knowledge that we wonder how they could have so much wisdom at such a young age. Well, it’s as though they are popping into a place in the future. And we, as born again believers, will live a lot longer in heaven than these few years on earth. And wouldn’t eternity, which is forever into millions and billions of years, at times speak to us on earth? We will fly in heaven longer then we have ever walked on the earth. Makes me want to fly now. And, no, Annie I ain’t on drugs … as you can tell, I don’t need ‘em? But on earth we have to use our physical eyes and ears and other senses. But in heaven we will have eyes that are spiritual that can see what we can’t see here on earth. Elijah prayed that the soldiers in God’s army would have spiritual eyes to see all the angels that were there to protect them. And, oh yes, we, too — who have labored in prayer for the past few months — have warring angels about us to protect us and guard us with their spiritual swords. We are not forsaken but cannot see God’s provisions. This is why we must walk by faith. We must know that His Word is true and He is answering our prayers.

A, I am so sorry for what you have been going through. But you have to know that God is on your side. And this battle is not too big for Him. This physical world is a small reality for a small amount of time. Actually it isn’t a reality at all … it is subject to change. But the things of God are yes and amen. God is the same yesterday today and forever. He was here before the world was made and He is the same now as He was then. But the world is here with the laws of death and sin. Satan is the prince of the power of the air in this world we live in. But we are from another kingdom. We are from the Kingdom of heaven. And we don’t play by Satan’s rules. Our rules are God’s rules which makes us look nuts in this world. But we pray and loose heaven upon our loved ones and they are loosed on earth.

Everyone in the Bible that did miracles heard from a supernatural God. They didn’t do great things for God because they went to Bible college. No, they heard a heavenly voice. They heard from an angel or the voice of God.

Love,
Connie

Dear Homemakers,

Well, here I go again, writing in the midst of children. But I love it. I love all of it. But, boy, my writing just drops off any place. Sorry about that. I do have some quiet time now as Baby is asleep. I just feel such an urgency to write on faith.

So many women around me are going through so much nervousness and fear. I guess I am especially burdened for one friend in particular. A dear friend, I will call her May. I have known May for many years . She called me from her bed last week. “I am so full of fear that I can’t get out of bed.” Now May has all this world could give her and a very wonderful, faithful husband. Not to mention godly, grown children who love God. But the fear about her is too much. Later she had to go to the hospital because of anxiety attacks. These are fear attacks. The only remedy is faith.

See, some of you can’t do your housework or live a godly life because fear is binding you. Spiritual housewifery comes out of a heart that has a dream. If your husband is wayward, how can you clean his house or care for his children unless you are assured by God that your husband is about to be saved — maybe today. Hope is in the future and faith is in the NOW. Each day, get up in the morning and say, “Lord, I plan on a miracle TODAY.” See, if you aren’t doing that, you are planning on not having a miracle and it will be business as usual. Every morning, get up and start a family meal for supper or whenever the family will eat the big meal of the day. Prepare for happy family times. And if they don’t happen that day, then plan the next day for a miracle and each day plan on a miracle. If you aren’t planning on a miracle then you are planning on defeat. Don’t plan a failure by not planning for a miracle.

In my faith, I was good at getting miracles. But I couldn’t hang onto them? But, hey, you are talking to a woman who has had a lot of miracles. As I have gotten older, I have learned how to maintain the miracles and keep them protected. But in the beginning, I couldn’t keep them but could sure get one. By my faith, I would call Jim from all parts of the nation. But I didn’t have the faith to keep my husband. I didn’t give up, though, on my sorry self and kept on goin’ and saw the glory of God.

But see, when you have a husband bound by Satan, he can’t hear God. God depends on the intercessor to get the weaker spouse healed. In the Bible, God used many people who were strong to bring the sick and demon possessed to Jesus. We as Christian wives and mothers labor to bring our loved ones bound by Satan to the feet of the cross. Many are bound by Satan. Dear Mothers and Wives, have mercy on those who are unsaved. Be glad you are the victim and not the one causing all the hell in your family.

I have never committed adultery. “Oh, Lord God, I am so glad to say that.” And I finished the course with Jim and my marriage was saved. I am so glad that I lived for the Lord. I am at peace with my life. Adultery is not fun! Early on in my married life, the Lord had me counsel a harlot who had been married to a Christian man. The tears that woman cried — the hell she went through was unbearable. It is not fun to be an adulteress. Every man she became one with, she received into her spirit.

It’s a looong time before you get your peace back after sex with someone outside your marriage. As a Christian woman who does this stuff, it isn’t like you have sex and then get peace back until the next time? No, God’s peace is a long time coming. This is where many of you women need to see the truth. If a husband is committing adultery, then he is bound in this sin. He is either possessed of the devil or at least oppressed. No man or woman who is practicing adultery is free and having it easy. It is a snare of the devil. See, they become one with a harlot. The Bible says adultery is like idolatry … it is becoming one with a false god.

See, we must walk by faith in every situation of home. We must see our husbands as godly priests of our homes. And you have to get on your husband’s side. He knows if he is bound in sin and he thinks you know that? And he hopes to God you are working on getting him out of it if you are a Christian wife. But Satan lies to you and says your husband is happy in his sin. I mean, I am writing about a man who is practicing adultery or some other sin. But love the sinner and hate the sin and see the sin as God sees it. A man bound in drugs or alcohol ain’t havin’ fun. It may be fun at first until that serpent turns around and bites back. You can play with a snake for a while but, trust me, he will bite you if you hang around long enough. Don’t be deceived — God is not mocked whatsoever you sow you will reap. And if you keep playing with sin, it will own you in the end. At all costs, wives and mothers, make strong homes. In this age, you ain’t gonna live very long if you have a family and you are walking in fear. Learn to walk by faith. The Word says “Let the weak say I am strong. Let the poor say I am rich.” We must learn to call things that are not as though they were.

The load I have carried lately would pound me to the ground if I didn’t walk by faith. But I ain’t goin’ under as I know how to stay on top. Hopefully?

Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. You can’t make it alone, dear housewife. Forget it that you think you can make it with just positive confessions. I mean don’t speak negative words. But just because you confess positive thoughts, that won’t take you over. I mean it may for a while? But when you get into some real problems, then nothing will work. I mean when ya can’t get that dog to hunt no matter what ya do? Then you had better have something else goin’ on besides positive words. You gotta start diggin’ for gold and I mean NOW! You have to have a special word from the Lord.

I am famous for running out of road on a daily basis. I just can’t make it without a Word from the Lord. I don’t get up in the morning and start cleaning the house. I am better now. But even last week, I would wake up shaking in my boots. I try to take some of my friends’ nerve pills and they ain’t strong enough to get me to settle down. If I didn’t have Jesus, then nothing would put me out but a sledge hammer. I wish I was a Martha but I am a Mary who MUST sit as His feet, no matter what. If I don’t get a Word from the Lord each day, then you can all kiss my sweet cheeks “Good-Bye.” I have to have a fresh word from Him daily. My mentor Mary L lays prostate before the Lord in her living room and prays on her face for hours. If you want the power of God in your home, you have to pay a price. Oh, I got up this morning and top cleaned and did some laundry before Baby came. But mainly, I pray and watch before the Lord for hours before I come to this e-machine.

And I am tellin’ ya, Dear Heart, we are living in hard times. The earth seems to shake with fear right now. But the wise woman has built her house upon the rock. And the winds come and the rains fall but her house will not fall as she has built her house upon the rock. She is wise. She doesn’t fear this world. She fears God, and the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. She walks by faith and not by sight. God is first place in her heart. And she has a Word from the Lord that says “All is well — all is well. No weapon formed against you will prosper. Your enemies may attack one way but they will flee seven ways. Greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world.” The word says that He will contend with those who contend with us and our families. (Isaiah 49:25)

My 2 Cents

Ya know last week or whenever it was, I was watching Fox News. And they said the stock market went up higher then ever in history. They said this meant the economy was good. For who I don’t know. But anyway, ya know what? Just before the Depression era of October of 1929, the stock market hit some all time highs. In the 1890s and on, our country was flyin’ high. But our country began making more produce than what folks could buy and this caused the Stock Market to crash. But that’s not our only problem as we have a war goin’ on. I wonder if it will go into a World War.

I believe God has been merciful to me to let me go through such horrid trials as lately. He is sharpening my faith and warning me to stay with Him. He wants for me to be crisp and clear and on the move when the really hard times come. He wants my children to be warriors and leaders in these days ahead. I am being tested and tried and He wants my visions in Him to be crisp and cutting edge. For these trials, I thank Him. “All things work together for Good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.”

For some of you who are seemingly suffering unbelievably, “Look up for your redemption draweth nigh.” God is getting ready to judge the unbelievers. But for those who are ready in Him, He will show them miracles, grace and sufficiency in Him. Plead for those in your families who don’t know the Lord. Have mercy on them. Walk with them through their darkness. Because a day will come when the way is closed and no man will enter heaven after this day. But don’t mistake the happenings on the earth as judgment to you if you are Gods daughters and He is your Husband. Yes, judgment is coming but it is for those who are rebellious in God. The Lord God is a just God and no one will get away with sin. But see, we as wives and mothers are sinners, too. And we can pick up our loved ones in prayer. God can’t touch sin but He can touch us, as we are born again, and yet still sinners. We are the intercessors — we are the go between heaven and earth. And we must go between God and our prodigals and plead with the Lord in prayer for their lives. If they are in sin and bound, they can’t find their own way. They need an intercessor. A prayer warrior that talks to God on their behalf.

And Mothers of prayer, once we get up off our knees we must talk to the king in our husbands and our sons. We must talk to the queen in our daughters. We raised them for such a time as this. Our handmaidens were raised at our knee. And even though they may act like they were raised by a mother who was an adulteress, they still have a memory of the true Mother who touched her daughter’s heart with the power of God.

With tears and weeping and wailing to the Lord, many of us mothers have paid the price and will win the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ. We as housewives will someday hear, “Well done thou good and faithful servant.” If you don’t give up, dear wife and Mother, you will see His glory. Run the race and be swift and anointed of God. Stand before your enemies and laugh with your hair and face anointed with the oil of gladness. “Oh well of Joy, come up in the heart of your anointed daughters and let them hear your voice like thunder speaking. Touch not mine anointed and do her no harm.”

Many of us daughters of Zion must live from one anointing to the next. Like riding on the night skies on flashes of lightening. We crave the next anointing — after the last one is barely cooled off. But we live from the pure and living Word spoken fresh from His mouth. We see not or hear not. We are blind to the world around us. We live out of the anointing, the Word spoken in the night as Jesus woke us. Our heart and spiritual eyes are riveted to His eyes and we watch Him and the world to us becomes strangely dim. We are filled with the Holy Spirit.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I have had a teaching on faith in my heart all day but haven’t been able to write as I have been too busy. Oh, wow, what a day! Anyway, I will just jot down some thoughts.

Ya know I was thinking of the scripture that says that faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. I guess for some reason, I thought that if I read my Bible a lot then I will get more faith. And yet the scholars of our day read the Word all the time and many have no faith. So what does this scripture mean? I think it is spiritual. That we get faith as we hear a Word in our hearts from the Holy Spirit. The Bible is a spiritual book. Yes, the Lord could speak a word as we read the Bible or we hear a message on faith. But for us to have the true faith that brings miracles, we have to have a Rhema word from God. Or an alive word spoken to us that says that we know that we know that we know that our miracle is going to happen. And it is this Word made alive in us that is the live seed that will grow and produce a miracle.

Also the Word says that without faith we can’t please God. Ya know on a regular day? You don’t need mountain moving faith to clean the house or homeschool the children. But when we run outta road to walk on and yet we have to keep walking? We have to have faith. The God kind that moves mountains and pleases God. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. OK, we have eyes to see … we can hear and feel and taste and smell. But faith doesn’t have anything to do with our senses. The Bible says faith comes when there is no evidence of a physical answer to the problems. God kind of Faith can’t be experienced if there is a physical way for something to happen, anyway. So a totally hopeless situation is what is needed for the true faith to be played out.

The things we see in the physical realm are subject to change but the eternal is forever. On this earth, we can loose things that will be loosed in heaven. And we can also loose things on earth that loose hell and its demons. All through our imaginations. In the area of our imaginations is where our faith is to be played out. Our visions are our power and they move heaven and earth and hell. If we are born again and we abide in the vine of Christ, then anything we ask in Jesus name we receive. But if we get into unbelief, we cause all kinds of hell on earth. We are powerful beings. We are made like that. The same power that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us.

In the Spirit realm, we do not use our eyes or our senses. Our physical senses are to be used for this earth and for our business here on the earth. But the spirit realm, in our spirits, we don’t use the physical senses. Just like we don’t smell with our eyes. Or we don’t taste with our ears. With faith, we don’t use our physical eyes or ears. I mean we know the wind moves the branches on the trees with an invisible power, the wind. And our faith is like the wind — it moves things mysteriously. Faith moves mountains, as it is more powerful then the wind.

How do we see with spiritual eyes and hear with spiritual ears? We see with our imaginations. God speaks to us about our imaginations. We are to cast down vain imaginations and all that exalts itself above the knowledge of God. The Word says that if we delight ourselves in Him, He will give us the desires of our heart. OK, the desires of your heart are your map inside your spirit to guide you. Of course, if the desire of your heart is evil, then I would question if you really loved Jesus. But if you have a wayward husband, then, of course, as a Christian wife, the deepest desire of your heart would be that your husband be saved. But then the devil comes along and says, “It ain’t gonna happen.” He speaks to you through your eyes and your ears and then he gets you to imagine evil and this is his stepping stones to get his work done.

FEAR

FEAR is faith in reverse. It is like faith but it produces evil instead of good. It is powerful and moves the flesh. It moves our flesh into perversions of all kinds. And it produces diseases and accidents and all the sins of the flesh.

Fear has to be present for Satan to work. He lives and breathes and has his being in an atmosphere of fear. Fear in a home, day after day after day, will produce wickedness. Satan will stay until he gets something done and then he will leave. At all costs, get the fear out of the house. Don’t live with it and hope things will work out. Satan ain’t gonna leave your house just because he feels sorry for ya. He breathes disease and fear and it is his workshop. Fear is a feast to him and deceit and lies are what he is powerful in. But see, God is greater. He is greater in us then he (Satan) in the world. So we can get rid of the fear in our homes by getting a word from God.

Satan won’t mind you — he just minds Jesus. So you have to pray and get a word from the Lord. You have to put Jesus first. Maybe you can just sit in a chair with the baby and pray. Pray until you can SEE the answer to your prayers. Pray until you know that flesh and blood has not told you the answer but only the heavenly Jesus has told you the answer.

See, the Lord is heavenly, daily manna. You have to ask Him everything all day long. Don’t move out on your own. Hear His voice through your spirit and through making sure your mind is clean and on the Word of God. If you are thinking negative thoughts about your family, then these are thoughts from Satan. No one knows the future. We have to stand on the word that says we will be saved and our household. Also the Word says that it isn’t His will that any perish. So if we think someone is hopeless, then our mind is being controlled by Satan and not the Holy Word of God.

Often the devil will tell us that our kids are doing wrong and we don’t know that they are, but we have a feeling, a fear that says they are doing wrong. This feeling didn’t come because someone told us that but it came out of our imaginations. And sometimes our kids do things that help our imagination to live in full bloom. But it is not usually the truth. Sometimes it is the truth? You can’t tell, as Satan is a deceiver and will play cat and mouse games with ya until you turn blue. But God’s word is true. It always is true! And it is eternal.

Ya know years ago, as I was believing for Jim to come home — man, it was hard. I would just get in bed and cover up my head and give up. I had no hope for sure. But God would speak to me of the God kind of faith. The kind that moves mountains. And I can say truthfully that when I would pray the prayer of faith, I would begin to see a miracle … and these were true miracles. I didn’t know where Jim was and no one else did, either. So it wasn’t like someone told me he was coming home. But when I would begin to renew my mind with the Word of God and give my imaginations to God, I would see a miracle. Jim would come home and God would give us some happy days. But then the fear would come and Jim would leave again. Jim said he felt like a yo-yo. But my faith brought him home and my fear would cause him to leave. Jim was a sinner — he was bound by Satan. But see, I was the intercessor and I held in my hands the answer for both of us. Eventually, I learned how to walk by faith and not by sight. Now I live like this all the time.

Reality isn’t this physical world or what we see with our eyes. We shouldn’t go around making all of our decisions by the rules of this world. Because this world is a passing thing. But true reality is Christ and His Word. He is eternal and we will live forever in heaven and that will be forever. Reality is the eternal life after this life. Don’t give yourself to a world that you won’t live in for more then an earthly lifetime. We who know Him were created for heaven.

Equip the Saints

Ya know the world is so full of terror lately and fear. The earth seems to be so unstable because of the sin in it. It seems our foundations are so shaken. And yet we should rejoice as He has overcome the world. Our faith overcomes the world and the laws of sin and death.

Some of us women are very sensitive to the spirits out there. Both holy and unholy spirits. Wow, some of us walk about as accidents going someplace. I know I do. We yield our faith to this and that and then to the fear and, boy, do we get smacked in the head. I don’t feel our diet has near as much to do with our nervous worry as our level of faith going up and down. The Word says to keep your heart for out of it is the issues of life. Yes, we should eat healthy if we can. But during the Depression era, folks didn’t hardly have any food but they lived on faith.

Well, I am interrupted so best stop.

Love,
Connie

This afternoon, I was praying and doing battle in the Spirit. And I saw a vision in my mind. I saw a demon come into the room. I said, “I am not afraid of you, Satan. What do you want?” And this demon was big and it was in layers of gray and black platelets of armor. And the armor was heavy and he drug it along as he could barley walk. His black wings were hovering down over him. And he says to me, “You keep sticking me with your sword — the Word of God — and you keep holding up the shield of Faith. I am tired and can barely go on.” This demon also said that he couldn’t get to me or close up to me because I kept my sword up and my shield. Later on, I saw a warring angel of God come and throw this demon out the door. The Lord showed me what a battle I have been in and how, as long as we keep the Word up and the Faith shield up, Satan can’t get to us. I could also hear a conversation among the demons saying, “I am not messing with her. I am tired and she will get the victory like she did with Jim. You can mess with her if you want to but I am leaving.”

I wanted to tell you all this, as many of you are in spiritual battles. But if you don’t give up you will see His glory. Satan is afraid of the Word of God and has to let go of whoever you are praying for in the name of Jesus. Satan hates to be reminded of the blood of Jesus and He hates to hear the scriptures being preached. And he hates it when you won’t give up and forget your faith. Believe God and don’t give up. Satan can’t win.

In my battle, as I prayed, I thought I had lost the battle. I was ready to give up. And I got a phone call that showed me that God was still working. Even though I almost gave up, I could see the devil still so worn and tired and fearful. I thought, “Lord, why is he worried? He is winning.” But God was working. God had it all in His hands and I didn’t know it. But Satan knew it and he knew he had lost, even if I didn’t know it. Someone talked to me on the phone and told me the truth. Satan is a liar and deceiver and wants to paint a picture that God is not working. But God is — as long as we keep our arms raised as Moses did, we are winning the battle. We can’t see all of circumstances.

I know this may scare some of you. I hope not. But, ya know, this is reality in the Spirit realm.

I am thinking of the scripture as I write. No soldier when he (she) warreth concerns herself with the affairs of this world.

When we mothers try to fight spiritual battles, we think we have to argue with our husbands or children. Or figure out how to get them to Christ or figure out who needs to talk to them or what we as Mothers need to do. But the Bible says that our fight is not with the flesh but with spiritual powers and wickedness in high places.

As long as Satan can get us to worry and to have fits all day over our families, he is resting on a bed of ease. He just sits there, half asleep, as he knows mother ain’t gettin’ any place with her prayin’. But when Mother sees that she is helpless to change the circumstance and she asks the Lord to do the battle for her, then God is able to shoot Satan off his snoring couch. He is a spirit and can whip us any day of the week. But he can’t whip God. This is why we always need to rebuke him in the name of Jesus. He is afraid of Jesus and His authority.

In the old days, I would get supper ready in the evening and I would tell David to go out and tell the kids to come in and get ready for supper. David was about 8 years old and he would go out the door look at he kids and say, “Come in the house.” I would wonder why, after a while, they weren’t coming in for supper. So, knowing David was a boy of few words, I would say, “Did you say Mom said, ‘Come in for supper’?” Well, come to find out, he would just yell out the door, “Come in the house.” Well, no one paid any attention to David, as he was just a kid and one of the younger kids, too. But when I would send him back out, I told him to say, “Mom said come in for supper.” Well, he used my authority and then the kids all came in for supper. But this is true, too, dealing with the devil. You can’t just tell him in your authority to get out of the house. Tell him, “Jesus said for you to leave and you have to leave in Jesus’ name.”

Jesus is the only one who can fight a spiritual battle for us. Our job is to not give up and to use the Word of God. We, like Moses, have to stand holding up the Word of God until we see the Lord’s glory. Our fight is to fight for our own faith — it is to fight to stay in faith and not to give up. Satan wants us to give up and quit fighting. This is the whole thing in a nut shell. Satan wants to show us mothers the worst things in our kids or husbands. Why? So we will give up and die of broken heartedness.

See, some mothers allow Satan to take years off their lives. They struggle with a child who they trained for the Lord who didn’t do what Mother thought they should do? And Mother is permanently maimed for life. She loses her spark and thrust for life. She may have other little ones in the home and they never see her happy. She is broken down and always at the verge of tears. But this Mother must see that that battle is the Lord’s.

In the Bible, God fought the battles for the believers. The believers never fought their battles. God fought the battles. We can’t see Satan unless it’s once in a while in the spirit. But mostly, we can’t see him. We can’t fight something we can’t see. But God can fight him. Just like David in the Bible was no match for the giant. But God gave David power to kill the giant. Even if David was a good shot, if he was too afraid to shoot the rock, he was gonna be crushed by Goliath. David had guts and he knew the Lord was telling him how to shoot, when to shoot, and how hard. David’s timing was perfect as God was in control. And we as Mothers must get out of the way and quit being fearful and let God fight our battles.

The Word calls us to fight the good fight. But this fight is not against flesh and blood or against people, in other words. This fight is in our own souls for ourselves to be weapons of warfare.

We Are Weapons of Warfare

See, we are the weapons of warfare. It is not our power but God’s power within us. We are loaded guns waiting to go off. We are cannons of fire and power. It is not our power but Christ within us. I am crucified with Christ nevertheless I live yet not I but Christ lives in me. And the life I live now I live by the faith of the Son of God who loved me and gave His life for me.

We are the weapons of warfare. We are the whole armor of God. This is why Satan comes against us to fight us. How does he fight us? He says we are bad mothers. We didn’t train our children right. We are not good wives and we don’t know how to keep house. He tries to wear us out and tell us God has lied to us. Satan knows how important we are as weapons of warfare. And as we listen to him, we don’t have the power to blow a cannon ball out of our spirits. He attacks our spirits. He tells us we can’t make it. The odds are stacked against ya. Things are too bad. No one else has gone through this before. That and “you are too old to fight” are the worst lies he tells. Well, that and “It’s been too LONG and if God was going to work, He would have worked by now.” So our fight of faith isn’t fighting our kids and our husbands. It is the fight to keep our spirits full of faith.

We are huge cannons but if we don’t have God’s power in us, we can’t blow the weapons out. We will sit all day grunting and try to grunt the fireball out. And all it will do is fall off the end of the barrel. Kerplunk! And if there isn’t a hill at the end, it won’t even roll an inch. But the power of God can blow that thing out and it will hit the target and SMACK Satan back to the pit of hell. Mothers, the devil ain’t afraid of you but he is afraid of God. So we must keep our cannons, or our spirits, full of God’s Word and His power.

We must not let Satan discourage us. It is life and death to not let Satan talk you into giving up. If you stand on the covenant of marriage and the word concerning your kids, and if you won’t let down your shield of faith and your sword, ain’t no demon in hell that can have your family.

The battle is the Lord’s and we are only the weapons. We are the stones that will hit our spiritual giants in the head. Yes, Mothers, there are giants in the land. And they are mighty and we are small. But God is able to do exceeding and abundantly MORE than we can think or ask. We don’t need to fear, as He is able to fight our battles and win our children and husbands to Christ.

We are weapons and we must polish our barrels and make sure we are full of faith and instant in season to shoot out spiritual fire when we are called upon to do so in Jesus’ name. The Word must be in our hearts. And not a bunch of condemning words about ourselves. We must not allow the enemy of our souls to take our faith. Our faith is our power that will shoot the giants in our life.

We are fighting in a war for the life of our families. The Titus 2 mothers have been sleeping and worrying over how much money she has to retire on while the young Christian Mothers are crying out for help. We Mothers now days are reaping the harvest of many lazy older Christian mothers. We have been left with a load of crap. The grandmothers had the teaching of Keeper At Home but they never passed it on. Pride has held them captive. And now we have the lady preachers who don’t preach it at all but preach against it. But ya know what? God is bigger than that. He is the same yesterday today and forever. He will fight our battles for us and we will be VICTORIOUS IN CHRIST!

Faith Blazers

And some of us get so discouraged at times we can’t take another step. We are in a forest of brush and obstacles. We have to burn a path with our faith just to take another step. But burn it if ya gotta.

If Satan is on your hide, then take some time out to encourage yourself in the Lord. Build yourself up in the most Holy Faith. Proclaim the Word of God over your situation. Let God be the Truth and every man a liar. Don’t let your feeling of sorrow and condemnation dictate to your faith. Let your faith have anything she needs to be vibrant and full of power. Feed your faith before you do anything else.

Proclaim out loud in the house for your marriage, “What God has joined together let no man separate.” Say it loud so you can hear it in your soul. For the wayward children, declare, “All of my children are taught of the Lord and great is their peace.” Envision your children around your table, full of joy and rest and peace.

Cast down vain imaginings and anything that exalts itself above the knowledge of God. Keep your hearts for out of it is the issues of life.

Folks say, “Read the back of the book (Bible) — we win.” Well, heck, we win all through the Bible. God never left Daniel in the lions’ den. Sarah got her promised son. Noah was saved with his household and there are so many stories of victory in the Bible. And the Word says that we cannot please God without faith. We must believe God! The Word says Ask and you shall receive that your JOY will be full. Anything we ask in Jesus name we will receive. All things are possible to those who believe. With God all things are possible. Faith is the victory that overcomes the world. We can overcome the world as we believe God.

I used to get on my knees before God and tell Him, “I ain’t much, Lord. But You say You reward those who diligently seek You. And if I have done nothing else, I have diligently sought You.” I knew I had that covered.

Love,
Connie