This morning, John’s wife Christine and David’s Tiffany are coming over with Baby Rose and Romeo to visit a while. Tiff is to have her baby in September. Christine has some baby things here that she wants to give to Tiff. So we will eat lunch and go through baby clothes. I think I will have goulash as I think the grandchildren will eat it, too.

But, boy, last night and this morning, I was watchin’ TV and, wow, the women that are taking over the preachin’ is so sad. They are out to get us women who are trying to be be submissive wives. And it is such a blasphemy! And, ya know, when my dear friends hail Joyce Myers as the conquering hero, I just smile. And then one of my friends said lately, “Connie, Joyce learned to preach by listening to other men’s sermons and then she re-preached them.” One of my friends thinks I am destined to be a lady preacher and she thinks this is why I fight lady preachers with a vengeance. You know, that foul stuff comes at me like flying toilet paper and makes as much as no indentation on my spirit. Good night, Girdy! The lady preacher is always at the mercy of the virtuous woman.

The Bible speaks of the strange woman in Proverbs. It says she is loud and her feet abide not in her own home. I listened to a lady on TV last night and she was just like a foghorn blowing like a maimed rooster. And a maimed rooster is what she is. She is a woman trying to be a man. A hen trying to crow like a rooster.

Why do I watch these nuts on TV? Because I am desperate to hear something from the Lord. I am desperate to partake of a drop of spiritual water. And in some of these women, I do hear a measure of truth that they have gotten from a man’s preaching.

The men of God have been kicked out of the pulpit. And the main foot that kicked them out was their own. That is so sad. My Gosh! Those dopey preachers are so lazy, they make the women preach. And, of course, those women are full of pride and arrogant – - – - – - -. And they want attention because they were abused and all of that. Well, lady, get over it! But the men who were called have lost the pulpit. It’s sad, very sad, and one of these days, when these women preachers see the light, they will be the first to complain that no man would do it. Also these women are full of witchcraft. And it’s gonna get worse and worse before it gets better.

But now these women are just out and out writing books against traditional housewifery. But they are at our mercy and have nothing on us. They are trying to get the housewife to be set free. Oh my gosh, they can’t hurt steel. I laugh at ‘em when they try to change me. They are so lame in their attempts that it’s funny.

Now what wise woman in submission to her husband and a covenant woman is gonna be dumb enough to succumb to a Christian feminist? We aren’t called the virtuous woman for nothing. Virtue means power. The wounded roosters may squawk but, once their feathers light, that’s all they got. I call them wounded roosters, as they preach as wounded men and not like women. I stand in silence before them when they get on their high horse and just wait for them to stop. I don’t jump into that meat grinder. I just let ‘em go. Why wear myself out?

But Joyce M. is at my mercy. She needs to get ahold of one of us women who know about the wisdom of God and sit at our feet. We need to tie her to a tree and preach to her all night long. Of course, we would have to gag her mouth. And, ya know, the great so called prophetess of the world, Juanita B., was right. She called an all out war against the woman at home. She prayed for all of us to stop our submission to our husbands and quit being stay at home mothers. To be set free of our bondage. And now look at the witches flyin’ and writing books. Joyce has a new one out now against the Keepers At Home. And then Mrs. Fog Horn, last night on TV, was pushin’ her book, too.

And all of this is straight up evil. And our men will get sick of it and will be making slaves of women even more. These men may smile when lady preacher walks by but they seethe with hatred for her. I mean, if a man is a true man, he will seethe. If he is an overgrown baby who is too lazy to even feed himself spiritually, he will welcome lady preacher. But no true man of God wants a woman to take care of him, either spiritually or physically. But especially spirtually. A real man of God wants to be king of his home and, especially, king of his own spirit.

But I am tellin’ ya the truth. These witches are the forerunners of a huge stronghold of evil. They are building it now but will cry and wail with regret, once they get it built. The older men will become less and less strong spiritually. But our young bucks will get sick of it and be out raping women and treating them like dogs. Once the virtuous woman is out of the picture, the women of God will be pressed into slavery. Most of these women who are out preaching have been abused. And they are leading the way for more women to be abused and made slaves of. Oh, sure, it looks good now and you may love these women but hell is coming. And hell is never satisfied and never full. Jezebel will drink the blood of the saints. She is right now drinking the blood of the Keepers At Home.

And some women are so dull of hearing the word of God. And they are so stupid, they would do anything any man told them to do. And they give the true virtuous woman a bad reputation. Jesus didn’t stay on the cross because He didn’t know how to get down. No one made Him stay at the cross. He GAVE His life. And we who are true virtuous women don’t obey our husbands because we are stupid and can’t figure anything out. We submit in order to be like Jesus and to obey the Word of God. And even in all of this, we have a choice to marry or not. But I mean, some women that the witches use as an example are women who stand there and let their husbands hammer a nail into their heads as if they don’t know what day it is. No virtuous woman has to do that. Protect yourself with your prayers.

When I first got saved, Jim and I used to beat each other up every week. We loved it. We had to finally admit we loved it. And once we admitted it, we started to quit it. Duh! One thing about it — when ya quit hittin’ yourself over the head with a hammer, it feels so much better. Talk about bein’ dumb as a bag of hammers.

But the virtuous woman don’t get beat in the physical or the spiritual. Nothin’ will beat down the virtuous woman. She is far stronger than the woman who is out to protect herself. Husband abuse doesn’t stop when you give the man an untimatum. It stops when you come into godly Holy Bible believing submission. Well, that’s what the Bible says, Girlfriend. Read 1 Peter 2 and then read chapter 3 — it’s clear enough.

We women of God have a choice always and no man, saved or not, is to run your mind. Your mind is your temple in God and that temple is precious to Jesus. We are always His daughter first and then our husband’s wife. If Hannah had been submissive to her husband, Samuel would never have been born. Just because you are a godly woman it doesn’t mean that you have no personal relationship to Christ, as lady preacher would have you believe.

You are to learn in silence and submission to your husband, and to reverence and praise your husband as priest of the home. He is to be as Jesus in the home. When you don’t agree with your husband, you should go to the Lord and pray about it. The Bible says that the king’s heart is in the hand of God. God can move a husband who isn’t doing right as to fit into God’s will. But often, it takes the virtuous woman’s prayers first. As a woman trusts in her husband, she learns to trust in Jesus Christ. These women preachers are causing you women to look away from your husbands and unto strange gods.

Dear Mothers,

I just want to continue to write on prayer.

There seems to be so much confusion concerning prayer. Like when Mary and Brandon started having problems, I got advice from believers that said, “Well, Connie, you can’t worry about this — you have to lay it down. You have to give it all to Jesus and go on about your life.” And, ya know, in a way, this is right. But Like Aunt Toot and I were talking about it one evening. How Jesus went after the lost sheep. He didn’t just say, “Well, ya know, I gotta just forget the lamb in the darkness and go on about my business. After all, I have 99 sheep to take care of.” Well, I know you Moms are like me. You may want to forget about the lost sheep but it ain’t gonna happen. Your kid is your kid, right? You don’t forget them, not for a moment, if they are in trouble.

Now, if you could see my living room right now, you would see piles of Bible study books everywhere. When you go to fight the good fight of faith, it is going to take a lot of meditation in the Word of God. I kinda resented that for a while. I didn’t want to spend hours out of my day studying. I wanted to be well right away. I didn’t want to spend hours and hours writing my prayers on paper. I wanted to be well and stable.

But I am here to tell you, it took a lot of hangin’ out with Jesus to be set free. Now, yes, nerve pills help for a short time. But if you are really nervous and unstable, nothing will help but Jesus. Once you get set free with Him, then a natural herb will help the most. I think. Well, do what works for you. But after losing Jim and then I had a worse mess with Mary and Brandon, the whole mess was killing me. I would wake up in the morning with anxiety attacks comin’ at me like hammering bullets. And now to tell me that I should just lay my burdens down and forget it was like telling a woman who has just been dropped off a building that she shouldn’t worry so much. That really hurts when a Christian tells you that. They should know better. They should come to you and be understanding with you. Of course, your heart is broken — your child is suffering and you can’t make it stop.

But I am telling you something. We are in a spiritual warfare right now. Things that used to work for us don’t work now — the rules changed. The short cut through the Dungeon of Suffering is to go to the King’s Palace in a hurry. Throw yourself NOW upon the old rugged Cross and hang on for dear life. This is what I did. I wasn’t calling friends and doing this and that — I just clung to Jesus with all of my heart. Friends ask me, “Do you like to spend so much time alone?” Well, when you are hurting like I was and you knew there was no help any place but in Jesus, then, yes, you want to be alone. Aunt Toot helped me a lot and Jill, of course, too. But the major help has to come from Jesus. It just comes from the Lord. See, we live in a society where we have a lot of answers and most don’t include holding onto Jesus until the answer comes.

So the plan goes like this. Say you wake up on Monday and you are shot emotionally. You must run for your Bible and a comfortable chair to sit in and you meditate on the Word of God. You may want to watch a good Bible based show on TV or the radio. I have to admit I have found some I liked. And if you have little ones, you just grab the baby and take care of her and get her settled, or the older children. But you have to get things settled so you can just sit and pray. I did all of this with little ones, too. Mostly, I got up earlier then they did to have time to pray. And I learned, too, how to pray and sleep at night and wake up and pray and go back to sleep. Don’t feel bad if you fall asleep in your prayers. Pray without ceasing. Fall asleep in prayer and wake up to pray until you fall asleep. But your anchor has to be the Lord and His Word. If that means going to church for some of you, then, by all means, go.

Spiritual Battles

So, anyway, you prayed on Monday and got set free and you feel confident that God has heard your prayers. You wake up on Tuesday and you have a dark cloud over you and your nerves are shot. And you cry out to God, “Lord, why haven’t you changed this situation with my family?” Well, who says He didn’t on Monday? Nothing has changed since the day before. But Satan is there to wake you up to tell you that your prayers weren’t answered on Monday. So you wail at God that He doesn’t do anything to help you. So part of the battle isn’t all with the family — it is you that gets so out of focus with your praying that you cause the confusion yourself.

So I was doing this, too. So the Lord had me write the prayers down and journal on paper each day. And when I got up to pray each morning, the Lord had me read the spiritual journey of the day before and the days before that. So this way, I wasn’t back and forth in confusion. Because if you let the devil have your mind like that each morning, all you will do is keep starting over each day. But if you write it all down, then you can connect each prayer. You can build faith block on faith block. You can layer faith to faith and grow spiritually.

See, as prayer warriors, we don’t at first, as we pray, know the mind of Christ in a situation. And this takes time in prayer daily to understand His will. So, in other words, part of moving the mountain has to do with getting the prayer warrior praying in the right direction. You can’t make God do what you want if it isn’t His will. And learning His will isn’t always easy. And following Him isn’t, either. But as a seasoned believer who has been a Christian for almost 40 years, I am here to tell you. You have no place else to go. He is the way the truth and the life. If you are a serious Christian and really mean business with God, then make Him your anchor. If he is not Lord and King of your life, then He can’t move on your family.

I mean, you have to know how to cry out to God. Quit trying to change your family — work on changing yourself with God’s leading. And I have become so frustrated that I have closed the doors and windows in my house and screamed and cried to God. He was the only one who, I thought, could know me. I have screamed and cried for hours until I was screamed and cried out. And a silence would come and a stillness. And then I would open the doors again and be ready to receive company or write on the email. But our souls sometimes are so gutted with torment. Satan lies to us and sends his demons to torment us. And sometimes all you can do is scream it out to the Lord. You just have to cast yourself upon Him. The self pity isn’t there when you are with the Lord like that. You are only crying out your soul to Him. You aren’t putting on a show for anyone. It’s just a prayer to Him.

And He is the fresh manna. I mean, if you turn to friends or a book, this is often old manna. Jesus is alive and a real person. Just as you want to have fellowship with your husband every day, you should have fellowship with Jesus every day. I mean, the children of Israel had to eat fresh bread from heaven each day. If it wasn’t fresh, it would mold. And this is how it is with Jesus — it has to be a fresh Word daily to walk with Him out of the darkness.

So, first of all, to fight the good fight of faith, you have to know the mind of Christ in your situation. And also you have to be focused daily on what the Lord is doing daily. You can’t skip a day and forget the Lord. So each day you read the notes from the day before and build faith upon faith.

But, see, the confusion comes in when Christians tell you to do this and that and quit worryin’ over your problems. Well, see, this is why the children of Israel were in the desert for 40 years when it would have only taken then a few weeks to get to the Promised Land. They couldn’t hold onto their faith. It takes concentration.

Prayin’ Through

I will say that, through my prayers, Mary seems to be coming back to herself. I feel Brandon is, too. So, ya know, ya keep praying.

And then you think you have come to the Place in your spiritual journey where you can rest and wait for God to work. You feel you are home free. But then here comes the devil to lie to ya. Your first thought is, “Now, I am not taking that thing back up. I am laying it at the feet of Christ.” Well, Girlfriend, welcome to reality — that little demon hangin’ on your leg with his sharp teeth ain’t gonna let go until you use the sword of the Spirit on him and remind him of the blood. He is a lyin’ demon, trying to get you off your faith. Don’t let him torment the livin’ daylights out of ya. Rebuke him in the mighty name of Jesus. Pray until he lets go and you are back up and runnin’ again. What he is tryin’ to do is condemn you and tell you that you ain’t Christian enough to know how to lay your burdens down.

Well, ya know, I could stand here with the house on fire and say, “Well, I think I will just go to the store and let the Lord have my burdens.” Or maybe you are like a woman with her hand caught in a meat grinder and a Christian comes along and tells you, “Just trust in the Lord. His mercy endureth forever.” Well, that is not reality. The place of rest comes daily as we intercede in prayer for ourselves to have the faith we need to face the day and to pray for our loved ones. Then ultimately, in the end, when we pray through and our loved ones come back to Christ, of course, then the real rest comes.

I have nothing but JOY concerning Johnny who I prayed for until I saw His glory. And, of course, even in Jim’s death, I have peace with Jim. Once Wild Man was free, he gave me peace. And it will be a peace I will take to heaven.

I always said about Jim that it would take an eternity to have enough time to praise God for Jim’s deliverance. Jim was so demon possessed. He took pictures of Jesus and tore them up. He tried to kill me one day when I was praying. He escaped prison and I watched it on TV. He was always wanted by the police. And I used to have to take care of the children and make bread while cop cars circled the block. I had no peace for 12 years. Every year, I was left like two or three times. It was a nightmare. Of course, I didn’t know what I know now by faith.

But, ya know, a mother is not going to rest spiritually if their child is in trouble. The true and lasting rest won’t come until the child is safe and walking with the Lord. Oh, yeah, we can get all religious and say, “Well, I just gave my evil child to the Lord and all is well.” The Father with the prodigal son didn’t rest until the son came home. Yes, we have a daily rest as we pray for the family and go on. We are as Elijah whom the Lord fed with flesh from a raven and streams in the desert. We get a rest daily after prayer. But the real rest comes only as our child comes to Christ and we see His glory.

And we have to hear the Lord’s voice. And when Satan attacks us with doubt, this is the Lord calling us to His side. He calls us to come apart to pray and eat of His body and drink of His blood. He is our bread of life. And we have to apply Christ to our aching hearts.

See, Satan bites at our hearts but God is the covering for it. And the more we pray where he bites, the closer we come to the victory. The Lord allows the bites to show us where and how to pray. But to ignore your broken heart with words that say, “Well, I am giving it all to Jesus” is just a cop out and is not fighting the good fight of faith. We must stand up to fight and to take the whole armor of God. And having done all to stand we stand. We stand with swords of the Spirit drawn, which is the Word of God. Satan must bow to the Word of God spoken. Faith is a shield and won’t allow doubt to enter our hearts. We believe that we have what we ask for. We have on the breastplate of righteousness. (Ephesians 6)

Pray without Ceasing

Ya know, Jill was sayin’ the last time we got together to pray, “Connie, I pray more in tongues and you pray more with words.” And this is true. And I got to thinkin’ of that this morning. I pray more in words because I am a writer and have to be able to explain things. And Jill is more in the Spirit? I know she prays in the Spirit, for our group, in a way I could never pray. She is really more spiritual than I am. And I think it is because I have to reach the people I minister to with words. Jill seems to rearrange heaven when she prays. But the Bible in Ephesians 6 says to pray with all kinds of prayer. Dixie prayed in tongues, too. I do, too.

I have to know the truth and the truth sets me free. Some of you ladies get set free as you listen to praise and worship music. Aunt Toot says she gets set free by going to church. Aunt Toot thinks if I don’t go to church, eventually, that lightening is gonna come out of heaven and kill me. I mean she is serious! But it takes all of us to make up the body of Christ.

But, dear hearts, continue to pray and seek the Lord and bring your families to Christ. Fight the good fight of faith. Pray without ceasing. Pray until the raven brings you flesh to eat. And until you drink of the streams in the desert. And soon God will show you a storm cloud as he did Elijah. And it won’t be long until the cloud will burst with rain. Oh, the mercy drops will start and then you will pray for the showers of rain. The blessings will come, dear Mothers who are prayer warriors. The rains will come upon your dry and thirsty hearts and homes. God is going to restore us and give us double blessings. I prayed for Jim for 12 years and God gave me 26 years of blessings with Jim before he passed. God is faithful and won’t forget us. And the rains will come and they will be plenty to bless us and to bless our friends and neighbors.

The Lord will raise up a standard for us as Satan has come in like a flood upon us. But our God will rescue us from the den of lions and from the furnace. And we will come up and out of the furnace without even the smell of smoke upon us. Psalms says I had fainted had I not believed to see the goodness of God here in the land of the living. We are His daughters of light and we will see His glory. No weapon formed against us will prosper. And the Lord will contend with those who contend with us and our children.

Satan will not have our children. Our children can deny a lot of things but they can’t deny that they were born of strong Godly Mothers who are called as prayer warriors for His kingdom. Jesus calls us to pray for His Kingdom on earth to be like His kingdom of heaven. We must call down His glory into our homes and make heavenly homes on earth.

Anything we ask in Jesus’ name we will receive. Nothing is impossible with God. We need not fear what people can do to us. We must just look upon His face and find His glory. We must walk out our faith as Phillipa has vowed to do in her marriage. No weapon formed against us will prosper. Fear not, little flock, for don’t you know it is the Father’s good pleasure to give you His kingdom.

Love,
Connie

Well, I have been prayin’ and studying my Bible. I read about the transfiguration of Christ in front of His desciples. Wouldn’t that be a riot? To look up and see Moses and Elias or Elijah casually talking to each other after they had been dead for many years? Don’t tell me that the saints can’t come down out of heaven and talk to others. If ya go to hell, that is a prison you can’t come out of … ya gotta stay there and burn forever. But the believers never die.

Well, anyway, I was reading about Elijah and Elisha. Now some of you all get ticked if I step on the toes of the false prophets. But Elijah murdered ‘em. Baal had 450 false prophets and Jezabel fed at her table another 400 and Elisha killed all of ‘em, down by the brook. (II Kings: 39) Seems the false prophets were keeping the land in a drought. But after the false prophets died, the Lord let it rain. Jezabel had, before this, killed many of the prophets of the true God. And when she found out that Elijah had killed her huntin’ dogs, the false prophets, then she vowed to kill Elijah. Elijah at least got the clouds to bring down the rain through his prayers before he took off runnin’. Not bad, huh? Go Elijah! And the Lord says to me, “Connie, you are afraid to even reveal a false prophet in your writings.” I looked at the Lord and said, “Very funny. Don’t I look like I am in enough trouble already?” Well, anyway, Elijah fought the false prophets and Jezabel to get them out of Israel so that God could bless the land.

Then in Luke, the Bible speaks of John the Baptist that he had the spirit of Elijah. His ministry was to bring the Fathers’ hearts back to the children and the disobedient to the wisdom of the just. He had a heart of reconciliation. John was raised in the wilderness and came out of the wilderness with the spirit of Elijah. And John the Baptist was just the one to speak to King Herod, and he (John) lost his head. But the spirit of Jezabel is in the land through feminism and brings a curse to our country.

Many are out there exposing the false prophets in the churches. And ya know, my dear Jim, by his life, exposed so many false teachings. He would have been so proud of our Jimmy, as he is such a good father to his little baby girl, and a good husband. But ya know, when all Jimmy had was a Masters degree and later the equivalent of a PhD in light design, Jim asked me, “When is Jimmy gonna quit going to school and get a job and grow up?” What a mouthful! Jim came out of the wilderness to say that. Not a popular opinion of the day. The sons that live closer around here understood Jim. Jim was proud of Jimmy and his education. But a real man, to Jim, was a man who worked and had children and made a home. Paid his way and put his money where his mouth was. He had a low opinion of any guy who wouldn’t work or made their wife work if she didn’t have to. And how could I have prayed that into Jim, had he not left me over 30 times? This is how ya bring a priest of God to the throne of God.

Wendy and some of you mothers who mourn? Don’t despise small beginnings. Pray for your husbands and children. Some men must go through the wilderness to come out shouting “Repent for the Kingdom of heaven is at hand.” But these gods of education and money power? These powers ain’t nothing compared to the power of wisdom.

Ya know, I can’t say much about the false prophets anymore. It seems the Jezabels are takin’ over the preaching these days. That’s the way Satan’s kingdom is … it divides against itself … and it will not stand. But I asked the Lord what this is all to say to me. And He is saying to just keep writing about Jim and what he would say to this world today. He certainly came from the wilderness.

A lot of folks would love to shut me up.

Dear Mothers,

I have been around the most insane women lately. Jim always kept me under his wing. But I have gotten out lately and “Whoa Nellie.” Let me tell ya, the feminists are alive and well. They are like demon possessed rats that panic after food they are forbidden to have. I quietly come along and get in their way and they run over me like I am a blade of grass. My spirit is an open book and they mow me down like a riding lawn mower. In God’s defense, I give them my testimony. Each word I say is like trying to fit DEAD dry bones together and to make them walk. Like trying to make a rock rise like a happy loaf of bread. As I talked to this wild eyed woman, I felt like, “Mercy, what is wrong with this bat out of hell?”

Some of these women who are in the church are crazier then I thought. I mean, they talk all about worship and they sing and worship the Lord? When they get back up off the floor from praying, the first thing out of their mouth is, “My daughter has no identity because of her husband.” Where is these women’s foundation? What is it built on? Not on the family.

The skeleton of a married woman’s faith has to be her connection to her husband. The older married woman is to be the example to her married daughters and sons. She isn’t supposed to be trying to get her daughters to be out of submission to their husbands. Man, if your own mother is trying to get you to stay out of submission to your husband, then you don’t need the feminist rats in the world to do it.

See, as married women, we must come to Christ and give him our life. But we need a guard and covering in this life. And our husbands are the Lord’s helpers to guide us and protect us. Jim is gone now. For those who just came on, my husband died April 1st. But I still stay under his memory of what I know he would want. But our husbands are who the Lord has given us to direct us on this earth. Some men are not good priests of the home but they are still who God gave you to answer to. God told the children of Israel to follow Moses. Well, Moses was never perfect but he was who God chose. If the people went against Moses, then it was as though they went against God.

Women are not to take authority in the body of Christ over men. No woman has the right to come in your home and take over. Any friend who comes to your house should recognize right away that your husband is the head if the house. When Jim and I were separated many years ago, I didn’t allow anyone in my house who didn’t recognize Jim as head of my home. I taught my children to honor Jim, even though he wasn’t there. This was before Jim was saved. I had decided to walk by faith and I didn’t let up.

But, see, God leads us in righteousness for His sake and for our sake. A married woman cannot just be uncovered. She is not independent like a man is. She is the weaker vessel. She is to be covered and to blend with her nest. Wild Man gave me this house and it is such a comfort to me. I am so glad I don’t have to go out and work, as the Lord is taking care of me. Jim became a good man and so many folks have honored him by caring for me. Jim’s children have honored him and me. Our children are here for us.

Emily stopped yesterday and gave me enough chicken to last me the rest of my life. I am fixing some today, as I think Dan and Mary will come sometime today. Our kids’ friends have been so precious and if I ever needed anything, I know they would get it for me.

This young man next door has insisted on mowing my lawn and he does an excellent job. He mows twice a week. He is amazing. But, yes, I must report that I am well cared for. As soon as it warms up, we will be out planting the gardens that my boys plowed up. It was almost down to freezing last night.

The last words Jim said to his boys was, “Take care of your mother.” Somehow, Mama won Wild Man’s heart in the end.

The Foolish Women

Some of you women are so foolish. Life don’t have to be as hard as you make it.

Some men are rascals! Jim was the worst rascal. Oh, mercy. Just read my testimony. But, oh, that Wild Man of mine. What can I say? But, ya know, some men have had mothers they couldn’t trust any further than they could throw them over their shoulder. And when they marry, the wife seems to get the punishment. See, the wife cares and the mother never did. So the husband wants to hurt the wife. No, it isn’t right! But we have a society now days that is mentally sick. But where sin abounds grace much more abounds.

Darlin’, just dig your heels in and decide that you will have a home for Jesus Christ and don’t let up, no matter who tries to throw you off. Yeah, I know it’s hard –. hard for us, anyway, huh? God knows it’s hard. But just make a decision that you are going to go God’s way. That you are going to believe God for your husband and family.

God’s word says that it is not God’s will that any should perish but that all should come to knowledge of Christ. So you know it is God’s will that your husband know the Lord. And God tells you how to win an unsaved husband. Read 1 Peter 2 and 3. Likewise ye wives submit to your husbands. The word “likewise” is referring to Jesus Christ on the cross. When He was reviled, He reviled not again. Christ’s obedience to the cross saved us from sin. Can you lay down your own life for your family? If you will lay down your life in obedience to God, then you, too, will share in Christ’s glory.

See, there is so much talk in the religious world about His Glory. Women with hard hearts and unclean hands lift up their hands to Jesus and call for His glory? It ain’t gonna happen. You have to submit to the cross to see His glory. God is not stupid and He is not going to pour down His glory upon hearts who are proud and arrogant. His glory will come as you stay upon the cross. Pride and a love for success and money will not bring His glory. We don’t deserve His glory, anyway. If we get mercy from Him, we should be happy. We were miserable sinners on our way to hell. And Jesus came and walked willingly to the cross and died for us. Had He not died for us, we would go to Hell. But He willingly died a horrid death at Calvary’s cross to wipe away our sins. He died in our place. And this is preached in the church. But what isn’t preached is that Christ is our example.

We ain’t here to get 10 steps to success. Our success as believers is to be His servants. Our success is to die daily and to take up our own cross for Christ. As we give up our desires and we lay down our lives, then He can give us the desires of our hearts. If we seek Him first, then we will see His glory. But it ain’t gonna come out of the air and onto your head just because you came to church and prayed for it. It comes on the servants of God who act like Him. The ones who are willing to suffer for the truth.

He shares His glory with no man. Even our desire to serve Him is God given. No man comes to the Father except the Spirit draw Him. So we, as servants of Christ, can’t take any credit. But, no, you won’t share in His glory until you have shared in His sufferings. Until you have laid down your life as He did. Then you won’t have to cry out for His glory as it will come, anyway.

And, also, the silly things I see, too, is that these Christians think they all have to get together and call Christ back. If you can find one skinny preacher with the truth, that is enough to call the Lord back. Jesus Christ ain’t gonna do nothing outside of His word. And Jesus responds to the truth. One man of God with the truth can move mountains.

It’s not how loud these church people can yell or supposedly praise God. If my kids are livin’ like Hell and praising me at the same time, then I would call that blasphemy.

Love Connie

Good Morning. I am up makin’ coffee and straightening up the house. It is so cold in this house, and my e machine gets cold. So the keys stick and have to be warmed up. So I do some replies to get the keys warmed up and then I do the regular writing. We put our heat down to just over 60 degrees at night. So when I come out here, it is COLD. I have to get warm and my e machine, too.

Sunday I needed to rest so watched this telethon for this Christian channel. Funny? Oh, my mercy! Well, this one Fat Cat was kinda interesting at first. Not scriptural, by any means, but he was good for entertainment. I just wanted to be distracted for a while. So he tells everyone how he gave his money away until he became rich. Well, you know he is tryin’ to hoodwink the sheep into giving him their money. The funny part is, he acts like his audience is money starved monkeys. And if it does, indeed, work to give money and you get all this money back, then why don’t he give more money so he can get more back? And why is he buggin’ the sheep for money? If it’s that easy, what’s he doin’ on TV beggin’?

And ya know, money is not what most people need to make it. When I get down and out, you could throw twenty dollar bills at me all day long and it wouldn’t help me. If I don’t hear from God and if He don’t help me, then no amount of money will help. I mean, some of us do need money but we need a word from the Lord first. If we can get a word from the Lord, then the money will come. But to run out and chase money is the wrong way to go. And, sure, we need an open hand to give and to receive. But this plan of give your money away to the hungry wolf and expect it to return so you can pay the rent. No! And this was a message that started in the 70’s and if it had worked, all of us Christians would be millionaires by now. But all it did in reality was to make the Fat Cats Fatter? So now they are doing good and the believers are gettin’ poorer.

See, the wolves try to get you to think that the more money you have, the more blessed you are. But the word says that some among us suppose that gain is godliness and from such we need to turn away. Jesus was poor and lowly of heart and He is our example. Often when I hear the Cats cry out for their money, I think of Mother Theresa in India. Oh, what an example she has been to me. She was a true servant of God. Who but a true servant like her would drag dying unbelievers out of the sewer to wash them of maggots and tell them of the love of God. Those Cats on TV wouldn’t dirty their hands to do that. They want your money and that is all they want.

Christine, John’s wife, was reading some of my writings and howled with laughter over Jim in the 70’s asking Jim Baker for some money. The last time they were over, we got to laughin’ over that and almost fell off our chairs. Leave it to Jim to beg money from Jim Baker.

See, this teaching starts out with telling the Christians they should have the best house and the best car and the nicest clothes and on and on. So the Cats tell the wife this, too, as often she is there at church without her husband. So the little woman thinks she needs a better job so she can be blessed by God better and be able to give Hungry Fat Cat more money $$. So the preacher has Mother out workin’ her buns off at an outside job so that she can be blessed. It’s a teaching that makes women slaves and they can never relax and be a mother and keeper at home.

Sure, Fat Cat gets more money all the time and he is indeed rich. Ya know why? Because you are driven by the sins of your own lusts and pride and you keep giving him money. And he keeps goin’ with his message because he makes a lot of money at it. But it ain’t all about money. And why not work for your money the old fashioned way? It’s a lot easier and more honest. See, folks are payin’ for a lifestyle and not a life. Many are so in debt and will die that way.

See, it’s not a sin to be poor. Jesus made no reputation for Himself and we shouldn’t, either. He was man enough to be poor and honorable and we should be, too.

All of this debt that some folks live under, just so they can look good, is ridiculous. I barely spend any money because there is little I want. I am happy that I hung onto our home through many trials and now it is paid off. I have something to leave my children so each of our six children will have some money to put down on a house. We want to leave something behind for our kids. And how many times before we remodeled did friends tell me I should move and get a fancy apartment. Well, I could squander my children’s inheritance but I think that would be an ungodly thing to do. And to be poor with dignity and purpose is a rare life these days. But who has enough guts to do that. It takes some strength of character.

Who are you if you have nothing but yourself to offer. I mean without the expensive car? I came from a background of upper middle class. As a child, I had everything. The best of clothes, etc. Dad had a good factory job and always a nice car, boat, and we went on nice summer vacations, etc. But my life was empty and void to me. I needed Jesus and, when I met Him, I got rich.

I call Jim my Million Dollar Baby. I mean, when he was down and out, no amount of money could set him free. But Jesus, my Daddy, heard my cry and He gave Jim deliverance. My rich Daddy Jesus loved me so much and heard my cries for a husband to love me and gently care for me as a Good Shepard here on earth. Jesus knew that I wanted to have children for His glory. Jesus heard my cries and gave me a husband to love me and care and to shelter me. I had no money when Jim got healed. I gave Jesus my life, not my money.

Jesus can’t be paid off like a Mafia gangster, so that you can get your needs met? To pay Fat Cat for protection? I mean, we are children of the Most High God. He is spiritual and we must worship Him in Spirit and in Truth. He asks His followers for no more than He, Himself, gave — His life! He wants our life, rich or poor. And Fat Cat says he wants the money for the Gospel’s sake. And I have never heard some of them preach the gospel. All they preach on is how to give them your money. And they ain’t gonna preach anything else, no matter how much money you throw at them.

Same way with Public Education. Folks think we need to throw out more money for better teachers. And then our kids will be able to read. No, what we need is the truth and this sets the captive free.

One man with the truth will go anywhere in the world without money. I can give my message out for free to anyone. And if I get so full of truth that I out grow my e machine? Then God could take me anywhere He wanted me to go. Sarah never had any money or Mary, Jesus’ Mother. Their lives were so faithful that God Himself published them. God shares His glory with no man. And certainly the gospel won’t be preached according to the money we give away. And the best preachers are the ones who will preach to ya and worry if you have enough money for your own family.

Remember Reverend Aldman in Little House on the Prairie? He cared for his sheep and was poor for their sakes. And this is how all the old time preachers were. And they were always like that in our country, up until about he 70’s and they got ahold of this idea of seed money, etc. But before that, the Christian families gave what they could and preacher was expected to live on that. He and his family were often poor but that made him a good preacher. He suffered with the struggling families in his congregation.

I will never forget Pastor Hawkins. He was Jim’s and my first Shepherd. He was just out of Dallas Seminary and, boy, did God use Jim and me to break this young preacher in. But he went for the ride and hung on for dear life. God Bless him.

He Loves Us

See, your money is not your seed? Money is what the unbeliever lives on in this world. Our seeds are spiritual FAITH prayers. Faith pleases God, not money. God needs our hearts in order to do His work. God’s Word is a system of trade like money. We are to be rich or poor according to our calling in life. It’s not a sin to be rich if God has called you to this place. But if you are poor, then be grateful to be there, too.

Jesus wants our heart. He wants for you to come to Him when you are in need of something. He wants to hear from you. To just throw money at preacher, thinking that God will give you money, is an insult to God. He wants us. He wants our hands and arms and minds and our spirits. He has a plan for us to walk out of the snares and into His light and victory. He wants to give us miracles so that He can be glorified. In our lives, we are to show the world a loving Father God. We are to walk out this love of God to show folks that God loves them.

As women, we won’t be preaching the Gospel. But as we walk in obedience, we move spiritual things around like the wind moves the branches on the trees. We gently care for the baby and we return good for evil to our older children. As we do, we move the hand of God. We move God’s heart and mind. We change His mind by our kindness when we return blessings for evil. But we refuse to walk out Satan’s plan for our life. And in so doing, we move huge rocks in the spirit realm. We break down strongholds and we refuse to believe the lies of the enemy. We choose rather to believe God in the face of injustice toward us. We don’t cry out for our way but His way. We refuse to be taken up with the cares of this world and the deceitfulness of riches. As we grow as believers, we understand that He is all we need. He satisfies our soul.

I write this out of a spirit of truth and having lived it. Jesus is my heart and soul. I feel as though I have died many times in my soul, and all I am now is Him in me. For I am crucified with Christ nevertheless I live. Yet not I but Christ in me. And the life I now live I live by the faith of the Son of God who loved me and gave His life for me. For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.

As I was writing this first part, I could feel the Lord’s warm presence upon my back. He said, “Connie, you are my girl. I have never let you down and never will. You love me and me alone and I won’t forsake you. You are my own daughter. I have cared for you all of your life. You haven’t exhausted my resources. You haven’t come to a bend in the road that I don’t know about or have run out of answers for. I am with you even until the ends of the earth.” Oh, His precious presence is so sweet to me this morning. I can feel His Love.

Weeping lasts for the night but JOY comes in the morning. It is a lovely sunny day as I write. Oh, His love always comes to our forsaken souls. We cry out, “Lord, why have you forsaken me?” We forget all of His many miracles as we sit in a darkness surrounded by demons. But He comes quickly to deliver us and gives us His love.

When Jim got up this morning, I was sitting in the chair crying. “What’s wrong?” Jim asked me. I said, “God is giving me such a sweet prophesy. He says I am His girl and that He loves me. And He says that you are my gentle shepherd of love.”

Dear Keepers at Home,

Wow, it’s pretty bad weather outside this morning. We are supposed to get a lot of snow. Right now it is sleeting. I meant to get up a lot earlier to write and start housework. Its just 6:45. Jim will go to work this afternoon. But I needed to make sure my wash was caught up and things done in case any power lines would go down. Want to get a meal going, too.

Yesterday I had my little ray of sunshine come for the day. Little Baby Rose. What a darling! I got her kitchen sink set off the porch and had it set up in the living room by the time Grandpa brought her here. Oh, she was so happy. She said, “Gramma, I love my kitchen.” She talks very plain.

Romeo is the orneriest boy! Oh mercy. But I love him just as much as I love Rose. I just pray for him. He tells me, at 3, that he doesn’t like me cus I am old. And Rose says, “Gramma isn’t old — she is my grandma.” It’s all a riot!

My first son Jimmy was very outspoken like that so I am used to it. I had Jimmy at 19 years old. When he was about 3, he began to talk a lot. And if someone came into the room who was fat, he let them know it. Embarrassed me to pieces. I used to cry all night in my bed over it. He later went to Christian school and was so ornery. If he was bad here at home, I would make him go upstairs and lay on my bed. Well, he found some Family Circle magazines in my room that my Mom had given to me. Well, he cut the pics out in the back. You know, where the ads are? Well, all of those ads about bust cream and nighties and all? That stinker cut those pics out and gave them to the kids at Christian school. The other mothers were always cursing me and gossiping about me because Jim and I were separated. So they started rumors that I was into sex magazines and all. They thought I had a sex disease and all. Funny stuff, let me tell ya.

Jimmy did turn out alright and now will be 40 this year and his wife Aleks will have their first baby. Jimmy has lived a good life. But, oh mercy! He was one to say what was on his mind. So I am mete for the match with Romeo. He don’t know his gramma very well, does he?

I have seen it all and been there and done that. So Romeo won’t surprise me. But I have a few surprises for him! So I know Romeo will be giving me a lot to write about as my life with him goes along. I asked him the last time he stayed overnight with us, “Romeo, didn’t you have the least bit of fun here at Gram’s?” and he says “NO.” He had screamed at night wanting to go home. Finally, he went to sleep. Then when he woke up, he says, “Good Morning. I had such a good sleep.” Jim and I just look at each other like, “What will he come up with next?”

Well, he is just a little kid and with love and prayers he will be ok. But had I not raised our Jimmy, I think Romeo would be a hard case for me to figure out. Romeo seems very intelligent and Jimmy is, too.

Jimmy still has a way with words. He had dinner with Christian Joy’s new boyfriend. Chrissy told her boyfriend that we Hultquists throw Jimmy in first and, if ya like him, you will love the rest of us. None of us have met Chrissy’s boyfriend yet. Well, Jimmy knows good and well that this guy is 5 years older than Chrissy. But he told my mom that Chrissy is quite a bit older than her boyfriend. Like she robbed the cradle or something. He said that to be ornery! Of course we will get him back.

I am tellin’ ya, you have to be runnin’ pretty fast to keep up with my kids! They keep me praying, let me tell ya. And now that they are older I can’t send them to their room. Believe me, I would if I could. And yet heaven won’t be heaven without all of my kids there and all of my grandkids and great grandkids. I put my heart into them, even though they are older now. Brandon is doing better and is working.

I just keep praying and believing the Lord. We have to trust in God, ya know? It is only Him that can take us over, by faith in Him only, as we trust.

Trusting in Jesus

I will have to tell you that, lately, it’s been a rough ride for me with family. But, ya know, you don’t want a family that is always perfect and you know all of the outcome. Because if you do have it all mapped out, then the supernatural can never happen. It’s when we suffer and are out of the comfort zone, where God has to rescue us? That’s where the miracles come in.

We can’t plan the supernatural — we just have to get on the rocket and close our eyes and hope we can make it. And if you are on a rocket to the moon, and you don’t think you even have the power to get there, then you had better be trustin’ in more than your flesh. Because you are strapped in and everyone is tellin’ ya that you will be sure to get lost in space. Then you better be trusting in God. And many of us are there. It’s either trust in God or give up and die.

The fear alone will kill ya. And if you are full of fear, you will fail. God is not the spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind. If the spirit of fear is around you, then go to the Word and cover this spirit with truth and holiness. Don’t let fear make you move for Satan. Walk in faith and power and love.

See, Satan prowls about as a hungry lion. He runs at us and tries to intimidate us. But the Word says that he is like a lion but he is not the Lion of Judah. Daniel was not overtaken in the lions’ den and you won’t be, either. Daniel fell asleep in the presence of his enemies, the hungry lions.

Oh, yes, we go through what the world does but we are not defeated as the world is. We prove our God in the hard places. He is the Lord of all . He is Jesus and above Him there is no other. He is our Lord and king and we prove it in the hard places. We will not lay down and die as the women about us but we will live and not die. We will show the world how to make it in the hard times. But not because we have a set of rules to go by. Or because we read the right book. Or because we have enough money as we followed Creflo $$. No, our testimony is forever that “Jesus alone helped me through.”

Like I told Johnny the other day, “I don’t believe in God because someone told me it was a good idea. I believe that Jesus is Lord because I have used His name many times and He has answered many prayers. I know Him and I know that no other religion is like the reality of Christ.” My kids have seen miracles here at home and they know who Jesus is. The power of God has hit them through my prayers. They can’t ever doubt that. They may try to run from Jesus or try to deny Him so that they can be happy in their sin. But they can’t very well deny Him.

I always laugh when the Jehovah Witnesses come to the door. I don’t talk to ‘em as Jim won’t allow it. But I want to say, “Why would I give up my Jesus who is the miracle man to go to Kingdom Hall to learn a bunch of rules? I am not lookin’ for another God. None of them measure up to my Jesus. He stands alone. He is my Rock and my Healer.”

It’s not because someone prayed for me once and I was healed or Jim was healed. NO. I have learned to walk in His healing power every day. I don’t have to run off to church to get healed — Jesus is here now with me.

But we hit a darkness in our walks with Him and it looks unfamiliar and we cry out, “Lord, why did You forsake me?” Well, he didn’t forsake you but you are in a different place. A harder place, way out of the comfort zone. But wait upon Him. He sees ya. Many are the afflictions of the righteous but He delivers us out of them all.

Our lives as Spiritual Mothers are marked by sorrow and many victories. That’s just how it works.

Sound Doctrine

And it’s always easier in life’s afflictions if you know the spiritual rules of the Bible to live by. Many Christian women don’t even have the game plan figured out. Deception rules the church world.

I can say without backin’ up I am rarely confused about the Bible. I get in HOT WATER? I have many afflictions but the Lord delivers me. But I understand my place in the heavenlies. So I don’t have to wonder around the block 40 times before I can fight the battle. Not knowing where you are supposed to go spiritually is a burden in and of itself.

The book of Titus is only like 3 short chapters and only 3 pages long. And in that short part, the word “doctrine” is used 4 times. The Bible tells the older woman what to teach the younger. Verse 4 That they may teach the young women to be SOBER to LOVE “THEIR” (own) husbands, to love their children. Verse 5 To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the Word of God be not Blasphemed. Again it is talking about not going by sound doctrine.

If the older woman is not teaching this to the younger women, then she is blaspheming the word. She isn’t following sound doctrine.

You won’t win the battles for your families by running out of the home or not playing the game by the rules. God won’t switch the rules for you. He has been the same since the beginning of time and He will be the same forever. His Word is true. This is why the Lord says in the Titus 1:6 that a man must have his family in order to be called of God in the church. The teachings on family are the milk of the Word. After a family is in order, then they can go on to ministry.

My family ain’t all in order, and I have wanted to bail out plenty of times. But the Lord tells me that if I will obey Him and keep on goin’ that He will make an honest woman outta me. He will put my family in order as I walk by faith and do what is right. Sort of like a blessing in backwards? Nothin’ new — it’s how I live. I am always a tape in backwards. But as a mule, I follow the corn on the fishin’ pole set before me. As I go, He pulls the rest of the unruly kids into place.

We Hultquists are a long ways from perfect. My kids are artists and inventors. Musicians and writers. Not a sin but interesting? But I ain’t given up on any of them. It’s a hell of a ride but I am goin’ on for the long haul.

We can’t follow the word of God in the flesh. We have to follow the word of God by faith and that pushes us out of the familiar. But do we want His miracles or the world?

But please read Titus — it is full of writings on Sound Doctrine. We live in a world that is so foggy on the rules of life. Titus 1:13 tells us to rebuke the Christians sharply that they may be sound in faith. Verse 16 says They profess that they know God, but in works they deny Him. These chapters again and again rebuke the Christians who do not walk in family order. They are out of the move of God and are into false doctrines. Verse 12 of chapter 2 says this. Teaching us that denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously and godly in this present world. And Titus says, Chapter 3:10, that a heretic or someone who doesn’t go by the rules of family, after the first or second admonition we should reject them.

But, no, we Christians are so confused and deceived. We think we can’t judge another Christian. But the Bible does and tells us to. If we don’t have the courage to judge what is going on in front of us, then how will we judge the angels in heaven? We are to judge and to discern the spirits about us.

Motherless Child

And some women like me are always tap dancin’ and tryin’ to do the spiritual work of a much older woman.

The midwives around here were never the older Granny women. They were the young women. Lisa, who lived around here, was delivering like at least 20 or 30 babies a month. And yet she had 6 children at home and was very busy. She finally burned out as she had so little help. She moved to another state.

But, see, I am like her. I had no one to help me when I raised 6 children. The older women about me sneered at me and gossiped and told tales on me. Some, like MaryL, played the part of the older Titus Mother. But most of the time, I was on my own. And I live now in this place, a Titus 2 mother without examples before me.

I am still fightin’ and pushin’ and tap dancin’ and B.S.-ing and bull doggin’ my way through. God knows I don’t know what I am doing. Sorry! I guess I just have a vision. And if ya think I have a choice to follow it or not? Hmmm. No, God has my number and it’s do it or die.

I have a fire behind me that chases me like a band of wild Indians. I have a calling, I guess. And it ain’t easy when ya got a calling? You are a walking target. Or like me, a running target? Hello? You stay in trouble and hot water? And nothing around you ever happens in a normal way? I am saying all of this in case some of you have a calling from the Lord. Don’t ever ask for one. I never did but I got one, anyway.

I can’t wait to go to heaven to get some peace and quiet. It is quiet there, isn’t it?

Thank the Lord for Jim who continually gives me peace and rest and protection. God knows what He is doing, and He never gives you more than you can bear. At the end of the day, Papa is here with me and gives me rest. I know I have to fix supper in the evening and this gives me peace in the midst of my storm. Jim sits quietly in the mornings and makes out the bills. I haven’t seen a bill in years. Jim is my pillar of strength. He is my foundation to stand on to write to you all.

I prayed for him when all he did was tear my temple down. I worked in prayer to build a platform to teach the younger mother to be a keeper at home. My temple is handmade, all of it. All from scratch. All built on the Bible, the Word of God. I had nothing as I prayed for Jim, nothing but the word of God. I didn’t have the older Titus Mother. Yes, I had Dixie and Jill to help me as my sisters. But I didn’t have the ministry of the older Titus woman. I built my spiritual house only upon the word of God, the spiritual truths I got from the nights of weeping in intercession and only my Bible to guide me.

I have often felt like a child whose mother died and she is only 7 years old and she is left in charge of the cabin and the other children younger than her. She is a pioneer child left in charge. NO help is on the way. This is the early pioneer years and she has no phone to call 911. She only lives and does what is before her to keep the family alive. Day to day, as she gets older, she get stronger and wiser. But yet she knows so little. But she survives and she someday wears the shoes she saved of her mother’s. But she has to live and grow until she can wear her Mother’s shoes.

I feel like this motherless child. Most of the time praying, “Lord, keep me as the apple of thine eye.” And “Don’t let me go, Lord, lead me into righteousness. I don’t know how to do this Lord. Show me.”

Jim is like an angel over me who watches over me as Jesus would. I am not alone. Jim is the priest of my home. My spiritual protector.

Good Morning! Aunty Toot called me last night and she made me laugh. God knows, I needed to laugh. Anyway, she also told me to leave Joyce M alone. Toot is on the letters group. Toot always tells me how much trouble I am goin’ to get in for judging Joyce M.

Well, it ain’t just Joyce I am judging. It’s the whole lot of feminazis in the church I am judging. The Bible says that we are not to judge the unbelievers as they are already judged. But as Christians we are to judge the believers.

Why does God give us the gifts of discerning of spirits if we ain’t supposed to use it? Why does God tell us to judge if He doesn’t want us to? 1 Corinthians 6:1 tells us to judge. As it goes on in the chapter, it says in verse 3 “Know ye not that we shall judge the angels? how much more things that pertain to this life.”

I mean, if we as believers are putting down a true believer, then, yes, we will get in trouble. But if the true Titus Mother don’t have enough guts to blow the horn on someone like Joyce and the other women like her, then they ain’t worth much. We as women are called of God and can have the discerning of spirits. We don’t have to stand there and nod yes to everything.

See, many women are passive in the wrong direction. This is why God tells us specifically to submit to our own husbands. And women don’t want to do that, so they submit to anyone who comes down the pike. Not that Toot does that –no, absolutely not. But her and me go round and round. But I love Toot and I know she loves me.

Toot tells me that Joyce is with her husband all the time and is in submission to him. Aw, yes, “Smiley George.” He just smiles and quotes scripture like “All things work together for good.” Well, he is either smart and doesn’t want to lose all the treasures Joyce got for him. Or he is as deceived as she is. I dunno.

But, yes, as believers, we are to judge, and the reason I blow the horn on Joyce is because she is handy. She represents so many women out there that have left the home and taken to the streets to preach. It’s sick and it’s out there. And these women are taking over the church. And we as believers had better judge this stuff.

Verse 9 says “Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? BE NOT DECEIVED: neither fornicators nor idolaters, nor adulterers nor effeminate” etc. Ah, yes, the effeminate men who act like girls. They won’t go to heaven. And I don’t say all of this to bad mouth, for the sake of bad mouthing. I say all of this because we are in a war?

HELLOOOOO LADIES? Toot and I do agree that a spiritual war is goin’ on that is much worse than it ever has been in our area. I had heard preachers say years ago that in the coming years, the spiritual wars would be much worse then any physical wars. Like in some other countries, Christians are being killed for their faith. But in our country, the devil himself is trying to pluck the word of God right out from under us.

The unholy smoke of feminism is blowing right into our homes to take us captive. And we worry over cigarette smoke. Cigarette smoke ain’t anything, but the unholy smoke of feminism is surely the smoldering gun that you should worry a lot about. Don’t be fearful of what will kill the body over what will kill the soul. NO, I don’t smoke — only when I am on fire. But, ya know, quit straining at a gnat and swallowing a camel. We are in a spiritual war and the devil is after our minds.

1 Corinthians 6:2 “Do you not know the saints will judge the world? and if the world shall be judged by you are ye unworthy to judge the smallest matters?” We must be bold in this hour to stand in confidence in God and judge the matters set before us. If our conscience is weak, then we become afraid to judge what goes on around us. But we should ask the Lord to forgive us for our sins so that our own conscience is clear so that we can discern the spirits around us by the word of God.

Our Men Need To Rule

And all of my friends, for the most part, are church goin’ ladies. But they still love me and I love them. I am like Roger Williams who never got along with the Pilgrims because of their communal living and he never got along with the church of England, either. England wanted to send him to the Pilgrims and the Pilgrims wanted to chase him back on a ship to England. When the Pilgrims were chasin’ him, he ran into the woods to live with the Indians that let him believe as he wanted to.

Actually, I am getting too old for this stuff and running to the woods to live with the Indians is getting harder and harder. But Roger Williams was a friend to the Pilgrims, even though they hated him because he would never go along with the rules. But because he lived with the Indians, he knew when they were about to attack. So he would warn the Pilgrims so they could arm themselves to fight. So, in the end, the Pilgrims loved him but wouldn’t allow him back in the settlement, as he caused too much trouble.

Someone on the group told me that if I start a Revolution and get thrown in jail, she wouldn’t bail me out. You can only imagine who told me that. Well, seriously, I would never break the law of the land. But I do plan on breakin’ some of Satan’s laws that he is tryin’ to pass off as the truth. Laws like “Women make better preachers than men.”

Well, ya know, if ya listen to women preachers, they do seem to have some pizazz that the men don’t have. But that doesn’t mean we should be led by these women. Satan can anoint a woman to preach. Satan, many years ago, tried to anoint me to preach the gospel. I was out in my garden and I was so full of preachin’. I was ready to tell the trees how to get saved. But, see, I knew it wasn’t God talkin’ to me. And right out there in my garden, I rebuked the devil and told him I would never be a lady preacher. I have spoken before audiences before and it doesn’t scare me a bit. But I will never stand up and take spiritual authority over a man.

One time at a Full Gospel Business Men’s dinner, I was asked to speak after Jim gave his testimony. I said right away that I was not going to take any authority concerning the men there. Oh, the Christian men there just loved it when I said that and they laughed and enjoyed what I said. The man who was the head of it said, “Well, Connie, I can see you will never be a woman preacher.” There were a few women preachers in the crowd — it was quite the evening, let me tell ya. But just as I won’t take spiritual authority in my home over Jim, I won’t take it in the Christian world, either.

I could go on the road and make $$ as a lady preacher but I won’t. And sometimes men will try to come to me to counsel them but I won’t.

We women need to get outta the way and let our men be men and to guide the home and the Christian spiritual realm. Each wife needs to submit to her own husband as unto the Lord. This doesn’t mean that you don’t have your own thoughts before God. But, in general, you should esteem others higher than yourself.

For the most part, we need to honor those around us and be kind and loving. We need to bow to the feelings of others. But inside our hearts, we had better have our ideas right with God. We are daughters of God and we need to have the truth in our hearts. We need to pray and have a sharpness of discernment. Keep your heart, for out of it is the issues of life. Who you are inside will be what you teach by your actions.

Don’t just submit to anyone — submit to YOUR own husband. Jesus Christ didn’t agree with the soldiers who hung Him on the cross. But He stayed there and died for our sins. Submitting doesn’t mean always that you agree. But the way you express your opinion is through your good works as a keeper at home.

We need for the most part to be silent and dutiful in our places as wives and mothers. We need to quiet our hearts and minds and hide away to do our works of righteousness.

Good Morning. I have many things on my heart to write this morning. I have been praying so much lately. I tell ya, every time I turn the TV on, there is Joyce M and she stirs me up. Every time she opens her mouth, she gives me another chapter in a book to write. I don’t get TBN anymore as we just get a few channels. But Gram Barbie Doll on there with the pink cotton candy hair is almost beyond me.

I was praying last night and taking on the whole armor of God, as written in Eph. 5:13. This scripture talks in Eph. 5:14 about having your loins girt with truth. Our loins are to be covered with a spiritual covering called TRUTH. Our loins are our reproductive organs, our wombs. The thighs and groins are to be covered with truth.

That’s very interesting and this is where Joyce and many of the other women preachers are entering your armors of God. They can penetrate your armor as it isn’t covered with truth on your wombs. Lady preacher takes a hot sword like a branding iron and slices into your armor with lies and deceit. Then, as your wombs are spiritually slashed with deception, then the ungodly priest called a Medical Doctor is able to come in and cut your womb. But it has been maimed first of all by deception.

I kept wondering why I would see good Christian men who have good reputations have Joyce on their shows. But I can see it all now as I have prayed. The church has been ripe for Joyce as birth control has become popular in the church. And I hear so many women say, “Oh, I just love my church but they don’t believe in trusting God for the size of the family.” Well, for a woman, this is not a small issue. Well, not for a man, either. But I take no authority to teach a man. I am not called to do that. But a woman will live her spiritual life out of her womb one way or the other. And if the devil has taken your womb, just pray for a new one.

The scripture in the Bible that says “For with God nothing shall be impossible” is concerning supernatural births. Luke 1:37 the angel of God is speaking to Mary. She has asked how she would have a child being a virgin. And the angel refers to her cousin Elisabeth who is also pregnant and has been barren all of her life and now she is old. So God can give us mothers babies, no matter how old we are or even without the seed of our husbands. With God nothing shall be impossible. The chosen women of God in the word almost always started out barren. There was Sarah, Hannah and about three more in the Old Testament. Then in the New Testament, of course, Mary and Elizabeth.

Our wombs are precious to God. The meek and quiet spirit is a guide for the womb or the voice of the womb. Hysteria will cause a hysterectomy. A wife can’t get pregnant with a lot of nervous problems. I couldn’t nurse, as I was so nervous having my children. I regret that.

The womb is the inner court of a woman’s temple. A wife and mother must be hidden. The Mother is the womb of the body of Christ. As we hide our wombs with our clothes, we as wives and mothers must stay hidden. We are not to be exposed and thrown out into the world. We are not to expose our breasts as it is so popular to do today. I mean, just to our husbands, as we are to satisfy our own husbands and comfort them with our breasts. But we as true Christian mothers are daughters of our King Jesus. We are saved in childbearing. Childbearing has to do with making homes and being domesticated. We are keepers of the home.

The Bible NEVER has called a woman to stand up in the temple of God and take spiritual authority over godly men. Prov 31:3 is where the King’s godly mother spoke to him about what kind of a wife to marry. She starts out by telling him, “Give not your strength to women or your ways to which destroy kings.” Joyce is taking down our Kings in the body of Christ. All because of the loose armor of we women who are covering our wombs with pride instead of TRUTH.

Prov 31:17 also speaks of the woman girting the loins or her womb with STRENGTH. If her womb is strong spiritually, then she will be strong spiritually. Again, if your womb is severed and scarred, then just pray for it to come back and be active again.

Supernatural births are common and every day in the word of God. But the uncovering of the womb by the deception of religious cult teachings is what has exposed the godly womb and given her fear and hysteria and hysterectomies. Deut. 28 speaks that if you obey God, your wombs will be blessed and fruitful and, evidently, at any age. That’s Bible teaching! The cult message Joyce preaches is why we have 1.5 million abortions a year. And, yes, many of these women are in the church. When will we quit listening to witches that are killing our baby John the Baptists and other prophets of God … and handmaidens of God?

I pray the Lord will reactivate my womb and cause me to be pregnant. The Bible says that the widows are to be taken in by the church who are over 60. But the widows under 60 are to marry again and go home and bear more children and guide the house. That leads me to believe that a woman under 60 could easily have more children.

After 60 you get into the supernatural births. And, ya know, Sarah in her 90’s wasn’t just called outta nowhere to have a baby. This woman was a real bell ringer if ya ask me. I mean she wanted a baby in her 90’s. Like me, she laughed about it but she wanted to be pregnant. She was a woman of strength. She had been barren all of her life. For what reason we don’t know and God doesn’t tell us why. That was not important, evidently. And Luke being a doctor gives us a story in Luke about supernatural births. You can tell he was so amazed at these births.

These are women of strength who gave birth under much opposition. They were strong women because they knew how to cover their wombs with STRENGTH and with TRUTH. They knew how to take on the whole armor of God in Eph. 6.

A woman is only as strong as her place as keeper at home. If she bails out there, she will bail out in her other callings from God. A woman’s strength in the Bible always refers to her strength as a wife and mother. Never as lady preacher in the church. Prov. 31 shows a woman of strength and truth in the home doing her works of righteousness.

Proverbs 31:25 – Strength and honor are her clothing, and she shall rejoice in the time to come.

Our lady of Proverbs is not full of fear. She opens her mouth with wisdom. She teaches other women to be keepers at home. Every wise woman builds her home and the foolish tear it down with their own hands. Our Lady looks well to the ways of her household.

Verse 29 – Many of her friends have done well but she excels them all.

She excels in virtue. Her power is in her virtue. The woman who was healed of a bleeding womb called out of Christ virtue and she was healed. Virtue is moral courage. Our Lady of Proverbs doesn’t fall under the battles with Satan, as she is a woman who has virtue and she is strong and full of courage. Her power comes as she is protected spiritually by her husband and she is not deceived and has covered herself with the full armor of God.

Verse 28 says Her children arise and call her blessed. Her husband also and he praises her.

This woman is a woman who can stay steady and on course. She has obeyed God and she knows His reward is sure to come and it is yes and amen. Mother remains at home and she remains in the Word of God. She doesn’t look to the world for her answers — she looks to her God Jesus Christ.

Joyce can stand all day and tell you how to give a portion of your money so you can get even more money but what has this to do with the word of God? We are women of God bought by the blood of Jesus. We are not of this world. Our system of trade is not only money. We deal in the Spirit and with things $$ cant buy.

$$ Won’t Make Jesus Come Back

And Joyce says that we don’t want the unbelievers to think the Christians are poor as no one would want to be a Christian.

Ya know, when I got saved in the 60’s, we never thought about if a Christian was rich or poor. We wanted to be right with God. We wanted the peace that passeth understanding. When a person got saved, we got so happy that another soul had come into God’s kingdom. We would say to each other, “Did ya see the glow on Mary’s face after she prayed and ask Jesus into her heart?” And many of us would cry at night in our beds, worrying if we had really asked the Lord into our hearts, and what if we hadn’t, we were so afraid of going to hell. And many of us worried about if we were once saved always saved, or could we lose our salvation. So about every day I asked the Lord into my heart to make sure I wasn’t goin’ to hell. And I prayed all the time for money as I needed it to keep on going. And God cared for me and my children when Jim and I were separated. And $$ at times seemed to fly outta heaven to meet our needs of food and clothes for my children and me. But my heart burned and was aflame for Christ. And I won many to Jesus in the worst of times.

Jesus Christ is not coming back to the earth as soon as the body of Christ gives enough money to Joyce or to whoever. The TRUTH of God does not need money to fly to the ends of the earth. It doesn’t take $$$ to bring Jesus back for the Bride or the body of Christ, the church. IT TAKES TRUTH and TRUTH alone.

Truth stands alone and can go wherever on the earth, as Jesus can go anywhere on the earth. God published the saints of truth in the Bible and He has put the Word in many places. Mary never published herself or went out with a message like, “Well, if you don’t give me $$$ then no one will know that Jesus Christ was a supernatural birth.” Thats nonsense! We need just one man with the truth to stand up in the pulpit and teach it. If he would, the Lord would send him all over the world for free. Jesus didn’t stand there with his hand open for coins as He preached about God. We need $$ — it’s important if you don’t have anything in the house to feed the children. Or if ya need heat to warm the house. But to all get together to pay Joyce or whoever so that Jesus can come back is silly and when will this stuff be exposed?

Joyce is havin’ a ball! And ya know, if all of this was just stupid, it would be half way ok. But when the believers give their strength, their money, to Joyce, they are giving her their spirits, too. It’s sad! But the Christians who are not really sold out to Jesus and still want the world are the only ones really being hoodwinked. Their pride is leading them along a path to hell. And ya know the true sheep hear His voice.

So many women say, “Well, ya know, I like some of what Joyce has to say. But some of it don’t sound right.” Well, yes, you are discerning the spirits. It sounds a little like the voice of God but there is something strange about it. See, if you really know the Lord, you know His voice. Half of the voice won’t sound like Christ and the other half like Santa Claus or whoever. The voice of God has to line up with the word of God. And Joyce rarely lines up with the word of God.

One problem is that no one brings their Bibles to church anymore. And much of the time, Christians don’t read the word to get direction for their lives. The absence of the Bible in the life of the believer and in the organized church has opened the door for deception. The path has been being built for years to welcome Joyce and women like her to preach a bunch of wives tales and superstitions. See, back in my day, when I got saved in the 60’s, Joyce wouldn’t have been given the time of day except for folks who didn’t read the word of God. And back then, there were some good and godly family men out there.

I feel sorry for the sissy men who bow to Joyce. I feel ashamed of them.

Good Morning. Mary didn’t get Brandon to the hospital until late yesterday, as he was asleep for the day after being so sick all night. So I don’t have any news yet.

Just wanted to write a bit about church. I know what ya all mean when you say you are happy in your church. And I am glad — this is good. But the ones who have left the churches, it isn’t because they have had bad experience there. No, I love church people and they love me. Well, I suppose some folks leave as they have upsets, etc. But that is not my reason. I just left as I felt led to.

The local churches are good for certain families. Like if your problems aren’t all that bad, then the church is a good place to go. But, ya know, ya get into some real problems and the church is not really the place to go. I mean, look at the other Christian Ladies groups you have been with on the internet. They don’t even allow women to talk about their problems with husbands who commit adultery. They want to keep these groups light and happy for the ladies on the group. They want groups that flow smoothly. And ya cant blame ‘em. That’s how the group is set up and everyone has a right to run a group as they want to. But with this group, ya got cowgirls runnin’ through with cordial in their hip pockets and rollin’ their own cigs. I dunno how well some of these ladies would do in church.

I mean, ya look at the regular church out there. How many alcoholics who haven’t been saved yet are there sitting in the pews? How many church groups do they have during the week to help the woman who has an adulterous husband? I mean, the local church lets down their nets into the water and they drag up most of the fish. But there is fish down there that don’t get caught in the net. And often the church doesn’t welcome the folks who are chronic problems. They don’t fit into the happy club that is the mainstay. And, ya know, that’s ok. The church plays a part.

When Jim and I used to go to church when we were young, we loved it. But, ya know, it wasn’t too long before we began to wear out the folks there. Our problems were WAY too big. They were patient with us for about three years. Then, bless my little heart, I got the gift of speaking in tongues while going to the Southern Baptist church. And I got up in the Sunday night service one evening and announced it? Well, I didn’t know any better. I had gotten this gift while I was alone praying in my bedroom. I wasn’t at a Pentecostal church. Oh, I was always testifyin’ about what God had done for me. The folks would sorta pat me on the head and hope I would shut up. I mean, I was in my 20’s. Jim and I had separated again and again. I was pregnant with my second child. Man, I had demons chasin’ me from pillar to post.

No, I didn’t fit into a Baptist church. That church was nice to me and Jim but we just wore those poor souls out. So we did ‘em a favor and left that church. And we went on to a Pentecostal church. Jim kept leaving me when we were there, too. And they finally took up a collection in the offering plate for my divorce. I told ‘em I hadn’t planned on a divorce. Jim came back and repented and wanted to join their church and they wouldn’t let him. Well, we understood. Wild Man was way too wild for them.

We then just went to church here and there. One church I went to called me a whore from the pulpit because I didn’t go to their church all the time, every Sunday? They said that if you church hopped, it was like you were becoming one with this body and that body of believers. Well, the Lord didn’t take too kindly to that. God knows I was as pure as the driven snow. The preacher later had a nervous breakdown. And, ya know, he was a good preacher — I liked the poor snook. I don’t have any hard feelings. But I am wise enough to know that I just didn’t fit into that body of believers. I fit in with the believers who don’t fit into the church.

One time, I went to this little church. It was Baptist, I guess. Or I think they called themselves a Bible Church. Well, they were so innocent. A rumor started in their church that someone was coming to their church who was known to speak in tongues. One of the folks came and told me the rumor, too. At the Sunday morning service, these folks sat in their folding chairs like they were on hot-seats. They were lookin’ all around to find the one who spoke in tongues. Like the tongue talker was gonna jump out of no where and begin speaking in Chinese. Then a devil would jump out and pinch em? They later found out it was me and they loved me, anyway, and, oh, I loved them.

They had home Bible studies through the week. I had some of them here and they were a fun group of folks. Anyway, I quit going to that church but still opened our home for their Bible studies. They were studying some book of the Bible at church but, like I said, I had left by then. And one evening I went to the Bible study and they had it at a church member’s home that night instead of my home. Well, I always studied my Bible, even the concordance. So they have this contest to see who could get the most answers right after taking this one course at church. Well, they politely let me in their group and into their contest. I mean, just to be polite, as they KNEW I wouldn’t get any of the answers right because I didn’t have their study book. Well, I got all the answers right and won the prize. They couldn’t figure out how I did this without goin’ to their church.

At another church contest I won the prize, too. The Bible teacher got kinda mad at me and asked me if I spent a lot of time just reading my concordance and dictionary at the back of my Bible. Well, ya know, when you are under the gun like I lived for so many years, then, yes, you study the Bible and the concordance and the Bible dictionary. I used to go to sleep in my bed with my big family Bible. I mean, it was a big one that ya get when ya get married? They weigh about 10 pounds and look like a small drawer. Plus I had many study books and I read the Bible ALLLL the time.

See, most of the first 12 years of my marriage, I was alone. You go to a church and they ask you about yourself and you tell them my story? “Hello, I am Connie I have been deserted 30 times by my husband. In fact, I don’t know where he is now. Probably out committing another crime? I got married in prison when I was 19.” Then I stand there, usually pregnant, with a row of children with me. Children, by the way, who were as distressed as I was. I had the Word of God to keep me going but they had only jokes and teasing, usually, to hang onto.

The Sunday school teacher would just croak every time Jimmy came into her class. I just couldn’t make the boy behave himself and, oh, the things he did to torment the other children. But, ya know, I prayed for him as a young mother. And he grew up an to be an honorable man. But as a young mom, who had him at 19 years old, I spent many nights in prayer all night for him. I sent him to a Christian school. I babysat to get the money. I paid for it all myself. But he was so ornery, he upset the whole school. As a 25 year old mom, I cried myself to sleep many nights in prayer over this child.

At 18, he joined the Navy and was a spy, and he was a part of an air crew — he took care of the computer part of the airplane. The planes went high above the clouds and checked for bombs. Jimmy was never in any trouble and had to have a squeaky clean record to be chosen to do the job he had in the Navy. He would call us on the phone from all over the world. Collect? Later, just as the phone was about to be shut off, he would send us the money to pay for it. (This was after Jim got saved.) We had phone bills for 500 or 600 dollars a month. What a riot! The phone company had fits.

But, no, we didn’t fit into the local church. Not hardly.

And, oh, Wild Man was such a kill at church. He kept tryin’ to get saved so he would be good and not have to go back to the joint. But that guy couldn’t be good if his life depended on it. But we went to church and tried to make him be good.

There was always some well wisher that was gonna figure Jim out, by golly. So some elder or whatever was gonna counsel Wild Man. Jim would go to the guy’s house every week. And this guy would think, “Wow, Jim is doin’ good. I have healed him.”

Well, Jim was playing that guy like a fiddle. He would sit there and say, “Yeah, I did it and I am sorry and I won’t do it again. I am a no good SOB.” And you name it. Something had to cut through Jim’s soul. It had to reach him down in his gut. Nothing was reaching Jim. Nothing was penetrating his spirit. I felt so adamant later on about getting us out of church. Jim had to make a decision and quit playin’ games with the elders. Imagine this elder’s surprise when, one day, Jim didn’t show up for the counseling session, and he was gone and no one knew where he was. Not for months on end.

Once for 7 months, no one knew where Jim was. I lived in the eye of my storm. No one could ever figure out how I lived on, but I knew it was Jesus that kept me. And He will keep you, P., like He did me. And you A., and H., and all of you.

But Jim had to get out of the church and see that it was all up to him. Was he going to make a decision for Christ? Jim alone? With or without the church? He had to quit the church game, the religious parties. That man had to make a decision. Jim said he finally got sick of being sick and tired. He suffered like a dog before he really gave it all to Jesus.

See, this is where the home is so important. I lived, as 1 Peter 2 and 3 describes, as the wife being the example of Christ at the cross. When I was reviled, I reviled not again. I didn’t return evil for evil. Jim would come home after being gone for months. I would see him at the back door. He would look so rugged, as he would hitchhike out on the open highway for hundreds of miles, as my prayers would draw him home.

One time, he was so hungry when he reached the house that he stopped at the garden to eat before he came to the door. Oh, what a character! There he stood with nothing but the clothes on his back. I wouldn’t say to him, “Where have you been for 3 months?” or “Where have you been all of my life?” I would say, “Hi, Honey, are ya hungry? Come in — I will fix you some dinner.” I would help him off with his clothes and help him into a tub of warm water to take a bath. I would get some of his clothes from his closet to put out for him so he could put on fresh clothes. And then I would feed him some dinner. I ministered to him as I knew this would touch his heart.

The next day, he wouldn’t talk much. But would say, “I will go out and get work.” So he would go out and get a job. We wouldn’t discuss where he was. But then we would be driving along in our 100 buck car, a few weeks later. And the tears would begin to roll down his cheeks. Wild Man would stop the car at the side of the road and would weep until he could weep no more. Having been cool toward me and the kids, now he broke and begged me and the children to forgive him. He would cry out, “What is the matter with me that I would do these things to my family? Connie, I love you and the kids with all of my heart. When will I be a good man like my dad was?”

I would weep and say, “I don’t know, Jim. God will help us.” All I did was hang onto 1 Peter 2 and 3. I didn’t know what else to do. I just kept doing what I knew to do. I hung onto Jesus.

Oh, we fought so hard to hang on. And when I could hang on no more, Jim got another sentence in prison. The longest one he had of 3 and a half years. I thought God absolutely hated us. For 12 years, I had nothing but grief. Just before this sentence, I had waited through 3 other sentences and many jail terms. I had nothing but faith to live on.

And, ya know, Thank God for the local church. It’s a fun place to go and bring the children. But I think some of us are just too ornery to fit in. Now A., you wouldn’t want her in your church. She would tell everyone off. You wouldn’t want me on the internet as I would erase all my writings. But there is no condemnation.

I will say that some wayward men play church and the best thing in the world for them is to get out of the church. They need to go home and show themselves a Christian. If you are only good at church, then you are foolin’ yourself. If you can’t be good at home, then you don’t have anything to bring to the body of believers.

We as believers need to learn to get down to the brass tacks with Jesus. We older believers should be chewing the meat of the word. Often only the milk is preached. And it’s like going to first grade over and over again. We do need to grow up and take some authority in the body of Christ.

And it’s not preacher that is to save your husband, anyway. A man’s heart will be broken for Jesus through the behavior of a godly wife. It’s hard to win a man to the Lord through your behavior. It’s a lot easier to nag at him to go to church. And often a man will go to church and walk the aisle and confess Christ so his wife will quit naggin’ him. You don’t want a man like that. He ain’t a man who will make it for the long haul. He needs to come to Christ on his own and in his time.

You cant make the grass grow or a man to come to Christ before he is ready. He has to grow in Jesus’ time.

Some of your men who are confessing Christ but are committing adultery are only playin’ games. The worst thing you can do is believe him that he means business with God. No, you don’t need to tell him off. But don’t fall for the lies that a man who commits adultery is a Christian. They ain’t and they are on their way to hell if they don’t change. Satan tells you he is saved and committing adultery so that you won’t pray for him. You have to have the discerning of spirits so that you can pray for your husband. You have to get it right yourself so that you can pray in spirit and in truth.

And, last of all, I want to say, ya know, when I went through my times of great testing, I clung to His word. My neighbor, whose husband had left her, used to get so mad at me. “All ya do is sit in this house and pray and read your Bible. Get out and do something with your life.” Oh, yeah! The Lord was preparing me to speak to the world about how great the Lord is and how He saved my life and marriage.

We may think we aren’t doin’ anything as we read the Bible and pray and fight like hell for our marriages and homes. But in the shadows, even though we think we are alone and forsaken, God is there watching us. As we stand on nothing BUT Faith, as this is all we have, we please the Lord. And, oh yes, the victories come. Yes, they surely come and in the time the Lord had figured out a long time ago.

We are not alone as we fight. Yes it’s a fight — we fight the good fight of faith. Our minds try to deceive us. It’s a fight in the inner sanctuary. We fight as we stand before our king as Esther did. If we live, we live, and if we die, we die. But we have purposed in our hearts to not sin against our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He is first in our lives and His word has to take first place. And as we put His word and Him first, we seek first His kingdom and everything else is added unto us. He gives us new husbands and new lives and He gives us peace. The works of righteousness brings peace.

Dear Christmas Mothers,

Well, my book is out and it rides high against feminism. Talk about David with his little sling against the giant. I don’t stand here writing in my own strength but in the strength of the Lord. In my wildest dream, I wouldn’t think of standing up to the world and feminism. But “Hello.” See, I told you the Lord throws me out of airplanes and somehow He plans on me landing on my feet. Or is this a test to see if I will land on my feet? I will tell ya one thing — if God doesn’t stand on the ground to catch me I won’t land at all. I will end up going straight to glory.

And, ya know, the feminists weren’t too worried about me before. But now that I have written a book, they are a bit more worried. And don’t think feminism isn’t a religion. It is witchcraft. It’s rebellion against God. And it will nail you to a wall and kill you with fear if you let it. It hits a mother’s heart with violence and you have to hit feminism with a war like violence. You must take on the whole armor of God and swing the sword of the spirit at Satan and show him the shield of faith. The sword is the word of God. And His word calls us mothers to be keepers at home. Christian feminism is the worst of all demonic spirits in the world today. We as wives and Mothers need to arm ourselves as strong soldiers of the cross.

Satan knows the times and seasons. He knows the Lord will be raising up children to fight in these last days. Satan is trying to kill all the babies he can, like when Jesus was to be born. Satan senses that many children will grow up to be strong for Jesus because of all the home schoolers. Because of the mothers who act like Mary did. He hated Mary and her ministry in the home. She was hunted and accused of being immoral, and still is to this day. This world hates Christ and His anointing. The truth sets us free. You Mothers who are raising your children for Christ won’t be popular in this world. But the Lord will show you the true silver and gold of wisdom.

Cast down the voice of the strange woman in Proverbs and exalt the voice of wisdom. The wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her hands. We must cast down vain imaginations and the Christian feminism in the world.

Most of the time, we mothers will stay hidden in order to be free to raise our children. But then, once in a while, the Lord will call us out for a moment. But we must not be afraid, as He will give us the words to speak. He will put words in our mouths when we are brought before the world. We must obey Him as we stand before the unholy winds of feminism. And our light affliction will be but for a moment but will yield the fruits of an eternal righteousness. And, as Mary was chased at Christmas, many of us will be chased, too.

So many of you will be getting together with relatives that don’t know the Lord. And they will come against your families. But stand for Christ. I mean, as women, we won’t be saying much, but in our spirits, we must stand for Christ. We must pray and trust in Him. We must arm ourselves with the word of God that calls us as keepers at home.

The feminists hate the word submission. They hate stay at home mothers. And they won’t like my book and I would hate it if they did? I mean, God forbid that the Christian feminists would like it? And don’t kid yourself that these feminists just don’t know any better. They have a satanic agenda. And when they do their witchcraft, then the devil takes over and does a few tricks that even the feminist didn’t know about. They unleash the devils because of their own rebellion against God. They go against the Word of God and they set Satan free to work. And this is why we must only obey God and let Him fight our battles for us.

We are no match for a world full of feminism. But greater is He who is in us then he who is in the world. Satan cannot win in the fight with God.

Feminism

And, ya know, the straight up feminist — heck, they ain’t nothin’ to worry over. You can smell one of them a mile away. They have been suckered good and they have Sucker written across their heads. You know who they are — no big deal. But the Christian feminist is the one to run from. They are spiritual and know the move of the spirit because they have learned it at church. Those tongue talkin’ Christian feminists? Hell is all about them. They know just enough of the move of the spirit to get it going and then bring it around to a satanic rebellion.

Some of these women started out in God and then divorced their husbands? Look out for them — they are lethal. If they sense you don’t know what you are doing or you are wishy washy? Girl, they will have your hide? See, the woman who is called of God and is spiritual, and then turns to rebellion or against her husband — wow, they are the ones to run from. Because when they were with God, they learned of spiritual things. They can bend that sword either way.

Before I knew the Lord, I knew the devil. I talked with him and followed him. So when I came to Jesus, it was easy for me to understand God and His miracles. I understood spiritual things. Well, you get some of these women who are Christian feminists. They are powerful old birds, let me tell ya. If one of ‘em starts prayin’ in tongues, run like hell. No tellin’ what they are praying. It could be curses or whatever.

I speak in tongues myself. The Lord gave me this gift in my bedroom when I was praying about 35 years ago. I speak in tongues in prayer every day. But these gifts of the Holy Spirit are powerful and must come out of a woman who follows the truth.

The gift is subject to the person. We as women must gird our loins with truth. Truth must guard our wombs. As it does, we learn the truth as keepers at home in submission to our husbands.

The word doesn’t teach feminism. As women we must wait upon Jesus and grab the hem of His garment. We must draw virtue out of Him. It is our strength our place as women called as Marys for Him. Don’t try to fight the devil on your own. Wait upon the anointing and power of God. When you get it, then shoot the rock at the giant devil. But don’t shoot the devil without the full armor of God in Ephesians 6.

Go out in the mighty power of Christ and never in your own strength. With God, all things are possible. An angel told Mary that. And I am telling you Marys that, too.