Chrissy had sent me Rubys dress that she made for the Art museum in NYC,,i have it hanging up in my livingroom,, Well last nite in an email she said that an Art Museum in illonoise wanted to have a show of her costumes..So Sis said she may need the Ruby dress back for a while,,What a riot,,!!!!.. Where will Ruby end up next,?i mean i wud have to be deaf dumb and blind not to see that there is an anointing on Ruby,,i shud be writing Ruby Stories but that wud mean i was calm enuf to do it,,?This is why Aunt Toot wants me to watch Little House on the Praire Shows and get calm and write Ruby stories,,Well the Waltons too,,i dunno what it will take for me to get calm enuf to write abour Ruby again ,,Annie is often on my heart ..so pregnant and so much work to do,,And she needs writing that will knock satans socks off,,Phillipa is like that too,,Needing whiskey that leaves their throats on fire,,Angie with her brood of children loves the homemaking spirit,,You remind me of “Dixie” Angie,,i want to write things that hits the one who needs it the most..And yet i have to listen to the Holy Spirit first..Ya know it really doesnt matter what we think..It has to be His presence that is exalted,,i have prayed so much lately for His presence to be felt by those of us who need Him so much,,And the bottom line is that only faith pleases God..This earth and its physical presence is not the truth..What carnal man has to say is not the Truth unless he is guided by the Lord,,It seems i have too much on my mind lately,,i need to hide away unto God..love connieh

Ya know the Faith Walk is a very strange thing,,What plan worked maybe in the past you can bet wont work the next time you need to have faith,,Now i can say honestly with believeing God for jim that it was pretty clear as what i was to do to stir up the waters in the
Spirt realm..i had a certain hold on things,,i knew when Jim wud leave and i knew about when he wud be back,,i knew that when my fear escalated to a certain high point then he wud leave,,And once i got back on my feet and got back up on my faith,,i knew Jim wud be home..i wud let my house fall apart to some degree when he wud leave as i wud be so discouraged, ,And i knew God wudnt let him come home until i got it straightened out again,,And we went thru this over 30 times,,It wasnt so much Jims fear and faith that moved things around..it was mine,,Jim said he felt like a yo-yo,.Well then Dixie came along with a strong faith and stopped the process,,And Jim came home and was healed and set free..But it seemed between us we neither one had the faith to get the whole thing stopped..And i mean obviously there was more to it then what i wrote,,but basically this was part of it ,,Now with Mary the plan has been “BIte a bullet until you bleed to death”..This has been the most grueling trial i can imagine,,God gives me the worst things to prove HIm in,,Yes greater is He in us then he who is in the world,Dont i know it,,i see the light at the end of the tunnel with Mary,,i see things coming into place,,But i wonder if we dont get mixed up in our faith at times by trying to do what we did before when we needed faith,,Each trial needs the prayer warrior to seek Gods face for the answer and plan ..And to keep seeking Gods face and His presence,,Satan aint stupid,,he knows you have a behavior pattern and will do one thing over and over again,,he counts on us not being original..But the Lord speaks to us in His Word about the Secret Place of the Most high God,,The world doesnt want any of we believers to hide away unto God until we hear His voice,,Satan wants to flush us out into the world,,but God has a secret place where we can go and hear his voice,,We cant just dream up a faith walk,,We have to seek Him in the Secret place and get His plan to walk out..And at times God will send us helpers but not every time,,He has an answer for us to get our prayers answered,,He wants for us to have Victory ,,He has a plan and a way out,,But the key to faith is to get an alive Word from Him and walk it out,,love conniej

Right now we live in the best of times and the worst of times in our country,,i mean i try to give our president the benifit of the doubt,,But good night Lucille ..what the heck is he thinkin,? The Word says when people are in sin that God will use their enemys to over take them,,Well we wud all have to be deaf,,dumb and blinde not to notice our presidents shananigans, ,Last nite on the News they were talkin about him wanting our soldiers to have their own medical ins incase they got shot up in the war,,Thats out of this world..!!!! It is such a sorrowful time in our country,,But it is a good time to see the salvation of the Lord,,Its a time to witness of His Truth and what He did to save us on the old rugged cross..i mean the TRUTh will come out of the grass roots folks who are free thinkers..Religion? ..oh God ..help us?..And i know some churches are full of free thinkers,,But religion without Christ is just not hittin it where it will count..Jesus Christ was a Revolutionalist. .a radical..a fanatic for the cause of the Fathers will,,We some how have the idea that knowing the Lord is a quiet walk in the park,,not hardly..love connieh

We dont have to leave the house to win souls,,i mean unless we are called and we have our husbands coverings,,But it is our life that we live that will win souls..Our country is fed up with organised religion,To see a person who walks with God in holiness is a true and rare thing.But folks like drug addicts will notice a person like that and want to hear what they have to say,,Mary is on my side now thank God,But she still has trouble with drugs..But her roots speak out in everything she does,,And the TRUTH of God is what will bring her thru..Not by might or our strength but the power of His TRuth,,But as you Mothers care for your children in a peaceful home under your husbands covering you are witnessing to the world the wisdom of God..oh dont i know it,,When i used to pray to God holding baby in my arms in my rockin chair,,i wud say to Jesus..”Lord i am sorry i sm not out winning souls,,”..And God spoke to my heart,,”Connie one day your testimony will go out ” I thot He meant all over my town..i didnt know He meant all over the world ..But what did i do to get my testimony out??,,i was faithful to rock the baby and stay in a marriage that was said by most folks in town to be a hopeless case..i was faithful in a little,,very little,,We had nothing ..After Jim was healed we lived on minimum wage jobs,,Jim was expected at the time to work over time for half the pay an hour,,And the boss told him it was better then nothing,,Jim swallowed alot of crap in order to walk the walk as a new believer,,And when all else failed he wud take a job as a dishwasher,, And now that is one thankless job i am tellin you what,,Jim wud do whatever it took to put the food on the table,,But i stayed quiet when Jim wud lose a job and i tried to be faithful with what money i had for groceries,,And this is all God asks out of we keepers at home,,To just be faithful in the little stuff,,The day to day careing for the children and the submitting to our husbands,,It is God who promotes ..if we exalt Wisdom then she will promote us..If He wants to publish us then we will be published,,Mary ,,Jesus mother was published in the Bible..And many women were,,but always as keepers at home,,Except for a very few anyway,,But as we take care of our babies and as we cook and make do ,,we are building temples of Godliness,,Cities set on a hill..Our testimonies and our faithfulness will win souls just as any preacher wud,,As we walk in TRUTH the captive is set free,,It is our life that wins folks to Christ and then our wordslove connieh,,

When my children were home i made alot of bread,,And i wud save the bread that wasnt eaten and i used it for many meals..i made alot of Bread Pudding,,Just take a buttered casserole bowl and fill it half way with torn up bread,,Then put like about 2 cups of milk in a lil mixing bowl and put in 3 or so eggs and a cup of brown sugar or white,,Stir this up and put in some vanilla and pour this over the bread in the casserole bowl..on the top i put cinamon ,,You cud add raisens,,Anyway if the bread isnt under the milk when you stir it up then add a bit more milk on the top,,Bake this in the oven for about 45 min or until a knife comes out clean,,oh for cryin out loud i dont know how to write a recipe,,Ally do you have one for bread pudding,,? Thanks ..So anyway another thing i did with bread is i added it to scrambled eggs,,If you are low on eggs to scramble just add about 3 slices of bread to about 6 eggs,,You cant even tell they are in there,,To make a fried egg go further make eggs in a frame,,just cut a whole in a slice of bread and put this in a buttered skillet,,In the hole add one egg..And then fry this all on one side and flip over and get the other side done,,Put salt and pepper on it,,Well anyway ,,i made alot of croutons too,,Just butter your bread and cut the bread up in squares and bake it all with salt and pepper on them ,,i used garlic salt too,,But these croutons ,,hot from the oven are good in soup or salads,,The kids wud eat them cold too for a snack..yOu can use left over dry bread to make french toast and alot of stuff,,if you have homemade bread in the house you have alot,,,Fresh bread with a salad or soup makes a meal,,i wud grind up bread crumbs too in my blender and save them to put on the top of casseroles.. You cud freeze the bread crumbs too if you wanted to,,Use them for meat loaf or for breading fried chicken,,Well alot of stuff really,,love connieh

We have to walk by faith and not by sight,,Nothing is more important then our path of faith,,We have to cast down vain imaginations and strongholds and all the lies that exalt themselves above the knowlege of God..Vain imaginations are imaginings that say that we are right and God is wrong,,So we see things going wrong in our lives even tho God has promised to provide for us and to take us thru We have control over our imaginations just as we have control of any of our body,,Our imaginations were given to us to see things in the Spirit and to produce Gods will by our prayers .Also by yielding our flesh to the godly imaginations, ,Satan puts thots in our minds and we begin to give up our dreams and hopes,Satan is the prince of the power of the air,But God is more powerful and the earth is the Lords and the power there of,,Depression is only satans lies of hopelessness, ,And then he gets you to see the lies in your mind,,And that is vain imaginations, ,That is pride and it says “God wont answer your prayers this time” or “Satan is stronger then God”..But greater is He in us then he that is in the world,,{satan} ,,But our prideful minds tell us that WE KNOW God isnt listening to us and our lives are hopeless..Well who are we to set ourselves up above God?..When we think we know more then God then this is rebellion and that is witch craft,,So as we curse God by our imaginations we are creating an atmosphere for satan to walk in,Satan loves the air of sickness and fear ..doubt and condemnation, ,We are masters of our own ships,,If we are in muddy waters of depression.. we can turn our ships around and sail into the sunshine and joy,,We need to take the time in meditation and prayer and seek peace and ensue it,,We need to pick up our Bibles of Truth and read it and study it until victory shines again,,Jen i have noticed such a big difference in your writings..i think you are really being healed,,i think your miracles are right around the corner,,And Kelly and Kim yours too,,dont give up midstream for you will see His glory,,Ladies God is answering our prayers..Dont ruin His plans with your unbelief,,stay [possitive and full of faith,,Your prayers are like sticks banging against satans bee hive,,You are whoppin the devil good and he is tryin to sting ya,,but dont pay no attention to him,,love connieh

Dear Mothers i am late gettin goin here this morning,,i didnt know what i was to write about,,but i know now,,i was kinda sick last nite..And i got up this morning complainin to the Lord about it,,i wud like to believe that i have nothing left to write,,But no such luck..If i can get up and breath then i am to write,,Why am i so chained up to the Lord and why do i have to obey Him? Welll He leads me in the path of righteousness for His own namesake,,We want to pray and ask God for things,,but then we dont want to walk it out,,We get tired of the hardness of our lives,,Some of us have been ship wrecked and we are sick of treading water out in a seemingly empty ocean,,Of course we are tired ..But God is trying to save our lives,,and keep us going until someone sees us and rescues us,,If we keep treading water we stand a chance of making it,,Jesus wants us to see that our obediance to Him is the key to miracles,,Kim and Kelly i think this is for you too,,Its hard ,,life is sometimes hu?..But we cant make things happen only God can,,And He asks us to continue on,,Doing what He told us to do ..obeying the last thing He told us until He tells us something new,,Dont give up and you will see His glory..The oldest lie in the book that satan tells a believer is this,,”its taken so long ,,so your miracle will NEVER come,,”Yes it will come in due season,,The times and seasons are in Gods hands,,but in the meantime we are to continue to plant seeds of faith,,To keep our visions crisp and clear,,To walk out of the map within us,,and to rebuke satans lies,,No weapon formed against us will prosper,,Our miracles are safe with God,,He knows our address and phone number,,All is well..all is good things are moving as they shud,,We must seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all other things will be added unto us,.This walk of faith is what separates the woman from the girls,,Even Jesus learned obediance thru the things He suffered,,The school of faith is the school of Hard Knocks,,And i dont think that we cant take the hard knocks,,the blows of life aint so hard,,Whats hard is satans lies ..He tells us there is no God and we are stupid for leaning on a spirit that aint even there,,Satan tells us that all is lost and hopeless,,But we are to lean heavy upon Jesus,,And He has promised to never leave or forsake us,,Satans lies are what tear us down not the hard blows of life,,it is the deceptions,, ,the condemnation, ,The strongholds of demons that weigh us down,,love connieh

Trisha when you were talkin about doing your baked potatoes to have ready in 4 hrs when you got home,,,i kept thinking of my oven meal i used to make when the kids were home,,i have told this before but i dont think you were on the email then..i wud take a big roaster i had and put a meal in it,,The roaster wud hold a 25 pound turkey,,So at one end i wud cut up a whole cabbage in chunks or wedges,,Then i wud have a pile of potatoes and a pile of carrots and onions,,Anyway i wud heap vegetables in the pan,,Then i wud fry up a pound of hamburgar and put in a can or 2 of tomatoe soup in the meat and pour this over the vegetables,, Then i wud bake this all nite on about 200 degrees,,But like you needed it all done in 4 hrs so this meal wud work for what you needed it for,,Then just before we wud eat this meal i wud take it out of the oven and put it on the stove top,,And i made baking powder biscuits ..i cud make them real fast as i was used to making them without a recipe,,The quicker you can make biscuits the better they turn out,,And a hot oven is the key to a nice riseing,,Do you make bread pudding Tricia,? from leftover bread? i made some last nite to take to the neighbors for supper,,love connieh

i mean just off the cuff “What am i looking for in a husband?” i cant hack girly men,,i havent seen a single available man lately that i even think i cud stomach,,A religious man without Christ..? oh mercy dont get me near him,,I dunno after bein married to Jim for nearly 40 yrs ..i dont see the world as most people do,,And i cudnt take a man who thinks that because he is in his 60s that all he has to do is read the newspaper ,,drink coffee and watch the News,,Jim always worked,,i had my things to do as his wife and keeper at home,,Our duties didnt cross over onto each others territory usually,,My sanity always depended on my time with the Lord,,And Jim knew that and protected me so that i had plenty of time to pray,,Jim knew that my prayers kept him going and the kids,,Jim had his own prayer life ,,He had to have alot of quiet time too,,He thot alot of things over even as he watched tv..But he had to be quiet and not interupted,, Jims and my past always shadowed us and gave us a different perspective, ,Even Jims hands were so rugged,,Jim was tough..and i had to learn as his wife to keep up with him,,That took a long time to learn,,When Jim was dyin in the hospital he wanted to go home,,Jim whispered to me,,”Now ya know i wont be goin back to work for a few weeks yet”..One of the kids Jim worked with who Jim had tried to help said “That ol boy is gonna die hard”..Jim didnt even take pain meds after he had by pass surgery,,He said it didnt hurt a bit,,Later he was drugged to keep him still,,But Jim always said he didnt have any pain,,Even the nurses said he said he didnt have any pain..Jim was kind of unreal i know,,When i was in labor with Mary i was going thru alot of pain..But my nurse told another nurse that i had a high tolerance for pain.So things cud be really bad for Jim or i and we never went to a Dr,,i cudnt hack any man who wud cry over a headach or be a big baby over pain ,,i dunno ..i know God has someone for me,But i just cudnt fall in love with some man that thinks he can retire from life and just sit and do nothin,,i mean as a woman i wudnt retire,,Everyone has something to do for God until they die,,Well anyway thats my 2 cents on finding a husband,,love connieh