Gee i wonder why i cant sleep ? Well i did sleep for a lil while..i was prayin for Mary and i felt the lords presence,,i felt in my heart that He said something like this,, “i am not lettin you go,,You are my kid,,and my banquet table is set for you as well as anyone else..yur my kid,,if you think i am gonna let satan get away with this ,,then you are mistaken ..if you think Chrissys life has been unbelieveable. .you aint seen nothin yet..Mary is like you Connie..Look at what i did with Jim,,Who wud have ever believed he wud be healed,,i said to the Lord ,,”Lord i have decided not to get old,,i just wont do it,,i cant handle that,,Gettin old and slow and absent minded,,i just wont have it”,,I know the Lord wud think it wud be too much fun to have me around during the Crash,,My kids say i will live til i am 140 yrs old,,i believe it,,MaryL s husband made that decision when he was the age i am now to not get old,,And now he is 81 and still goes to work every day..And he has a herd of cattle to take care of after work,,He said you just have to make that decision,,i think there is alot to that..MaryL died at 78 yrs old,,But it was only the past few yrs that she started to wear down,,At times she looked like she was in her 40s when she was about 75..She had beautiful skin and such a love for life,,Russ was her boyfriend forever,,She loved the book Facinateing Womanhood,,She wud hide it when Russ came in the door from work,,She called it her F.W, book..She didnt want Russ to know she was trying things out on him that she had read in her book,,But anyway as i prayed last nite for our Mary the Lord told me in my heart,,”Connie ,,Mary will be fine”,,He said that i had no reason to worry,,He said that He was taking care of her,,And i believe that,,i mean good grief who cud have a daughter like her and live from one day to the next and be sane if they didnt have the Lord,,i have a friend whose son was on drugs real bad,,But oh did God deliver him,,Wow..what a deliverence, ,He has been a Bible teacher now for about 3 yrs,,And is soon to take some courses from Dallas Seminary,,Well he is such a miracle,,no one can hardly believe him..He married and now has a beautiful family,,He is almost too good to be true,,His parents are both wonderful Christians,, i have known them for about 40 yrs now,,But i knew the grandmother the best,,Clara ..Her husband was an unbeliever,, but she hung in there with him,,And he finally got saved,,And she prayed for her daughter to be saved,,And then her grandson ,,the one who was on drugs,,i knew he wud be set free with Clara prayin for him…And when i was a young mom ..Mrs Clara wud tell me,,”Connie ,,Jim will come home to stay one day soon,,He will see he has a good woman at home and he will settle down,,Mark my words Connie,,Jim will be ok”..And of course she was right,,She was so right,,She was in her 50s i think at the time and i was about Marys age,,And now the Lord is telling me “Mary will be ok ,,Mark my words Mary will come thru”…i know that is true,,Mary will be ok,,love connieh