Wow, I don’t know what will come out of me this morning as I feel so full of the Holy Spirit. This oughta be good! I guess I will just jump in and hang on.

I wanted to write some about Christian TV. You know I like some of it. But you have to have discernment! One thing the Lord really showed me lately is about this giving to these ministries? These prophets of God can get way off on that. They could preach the gospel right on the internet for almost free. But they beg for money like hound dogs. And they tell the poor schnooks that watch their stuff that if they will give to their ministries that their prayers will be answered. And ya know that rigmarole is all the law. It’s Old Testament law. But the truth of the New Testament is that we give our LIFE to Christ. He doesn’t need our money — He wants our heart and soul. If my husband Jim had just given me just money and never love, I wouldn’t have the testimony that I have. I always wanted Jim’s love and devotion.

And ya know I don’t ask anyone for money and God does take care of me. I wanted a ministry of caring for the children. I could take in more children but that would be too much and I wouldn’t be able to have a homelike atmosphere here. So I wait upon the Lord. And He gives me money. And sometimes I give money away if I see a poor person in front of me that obviously needs something. But I don’t give to a TV ministry. I give my time and my energy to children and to upholding my husband’s honor.

If anyone should be asking for money on TV, it should be to sponsor children in our country. I think it is in France that the government pays women to stay home and have babies. They pay Mothers to have babies. Because after years of abortions, the country doesn’t have enough young men to build an army. I imagine it is like this in most parts of Europe. China won’t hardly allow girls to be born. Our country is young and it takes awhile for us to catch up on sin. But we as a Free Country should take a look see and see what is happening to countries that have been using birth control for many years.

Christian Joy has gone to Ireland many times. And she told me that it’s against the law to get a divorce because they don’t have a welfare program. The parents are ordered always to care for their own. Once you are married, you can’t get a divorce and remarry because that gets the records mixed up and by law there are no stepparents.

Well, anyway! But with these TV preachers! Man, they brag about their new cars and how many they have and new homes. They say God gave it to them? Well, they are heaping guilt and condemnation on all these poor folks. That they don’t have their prayers answered because they didn’t give to their TV ministry. The older Christians see through that mess. But the young new believers don’t. So TV preachers manage to keep his audience poor and needy and controlled by fear of sin and condemnation. And God don’t need your money so that you can hear the gospel. The gospel is free? I mean with the internet, you can preach it for FREE. And Preacher Buster Brown don’t need all of that money. I mean Jesus Christ didn’t have to have a new airplane to preach the gospel and, heck, He barely left town. But God either publishes us as teachers or He don’t. He knows how to broadcast us.

Jesus wants your life which costs you a lot more then your earning power. We don’t have to pay the King so he can pray for us so that we can have blessings from God. Sure, tithe if ya wanna. But not so that you will be blessed. Because you will be more blessed by giving your life to Christ and doing His work out of your love for Him. As stay at home mothers, we can truly give. But TV preachers will make you think you can do more for God by getting a job and giving $$$. This lie is how we now have birth control in the church — and Christian feminism. It’s business as usual $$.

Prophets of God

The Bible sure shows us that prophets in the Bible were not sinless by any means. An anointed person is a sideshow, I think. They have to be sorta interesting or no one would watch ‘em. I mean they have gifts and they are sometimes all over the place with them. The gift is subject to the prophet. They can get way off the mark and yet when they are on the mark, look out!

See, we each can have the Holy Spirit. The Bible says that we need no man to teach us as we have an unction from the Holy Ghost, and we know all things. But this is the deal. We are responsible to know the Lord apart from the church. And when a prophet of God tells us something we should be saying, “Wow, this is what God has been telling me for a long time.” Or if it is strange to you, then don’t listen. A person who is whimsical and creative will create from what is going on in them at the time. This is how a prophet is. If you don’t have some idea of a truth to start with in your own heart, then you won’t be able to discern a true prophet from a false one. Oh yeah, the Word is a guide. But you need the “Alive Word” that you have prayed over in your heart. So that as the days ahead get darker and more error is taught, you will know the truth and who to follow. No, I know we need to be taught. But the true teacher is Jesus Christ. And any prophet you encounter should be adding to the truth you have been taught in your prayer chamber by the true teacher Jesus Christ.

A woman who judges her husband and tries to take spiritual authority over him is just looking for an attack from Satan. The bottom line to all of our understanding as Christian wives and Mothers is wisdom. Wisdom is the foundation and everything else is to bounce off of this. Proverbs 14:1 says EVERY wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her hands.

Having said all of this — I have really been taught lately by TV preachers. Not that I listen to all the snake oil ads and superstitions they come up with. I know they are trying to get a new car. But mercy! I have to say they are striking a chord in my heart. It’s like those ol’ boys are getting into some real firewater and leavin’ the soda pop for the kids. God told me a lot of things after Jim died and how heaven was right in the midst of me. And this is what a lot of these prophets are saying now. I wouldn’t have believed all of this from these prophets had God not told me before they preached it. My friend Jill is a prophetess and so was Dixie. They ain’t perfect but touched by the Holy Spirit. And when I talked about Jim being with me always, Jill said, “Flesh and blood didn’t tell you that but the Spirit of God.” I know our son John told me, as I told him that I had never grieved for Jim as I knew he had never left me. Johnny said, “Mom, it’s a gift that God has given you.” I knew Jim would never leave me and he never has. His body wore out but his spirit never will. But the preachers aren’t saying talk to the dead. But they are saying that heaven is not up in the sky someplace but is about us.

The Bible says there is no marriage in heaven but we become like the angels. The angels go back and forth easily. The parable of the rich man and Lazarus explains that, once you are in hell, it is a prison that you can’t come out of. But heaven is a place of freedom where you can come and go. Not that all the spirits in heaven come and go. Some would and some would choose not to.

Baby Maya Grace is here — have to go.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

After a night in prayer, this morning the Lord reminded me of when I was pregnant with Jimmy. I had to go to the Free Clinic for my check-ups. The doctors there would tell me I was very small and wondered if Jimmy would be premature. But in about my eighth month, a more experienced doctor checked me and said I was fine. He sat back in his chair and said, “You aren’t too small — you just carry your baby like a lady!” The Lord reminded me of this as I prayed this morning. And the Lord spoke to me about long suffering being a fruit of the Spirit. I mean we can pray day and night when we are pregnant but we won’t have our baby until the Lord says it’s time. It takes about 9 months and if he comes any sooner than that, the baby isn’t full term or ready.

In the beginning, folks who really know the Lord told me, “This may take a while with Mary.” Jill and MaryL, who are mature Christians, said that, too. But I thought, “Man, I can’t take this for 5 minutes, let alone a year or more.” I mean I hear so much teaching on Now faith. But that means you get the faith in your heart but the timing is God’s. And the Lord speaks to me, “Connie, don’t let the devil see ya sweat. Carry this burden like a lady.” Well I am tryin’, Lord!

Ya know we plant the Word in the ground. But we don’t want to leave it alone and let it grow. We run out and dig it up to see if it is growing, huh? But along with long suffering and patience, we need self control. I mean wouldn’t you hate to see a criminal comin’ at ya with confidence and a willingness to never give up? Well, as we become this way to Satan, we scare him to DEATH. He knows we are confident and orderly in our attacks on him. We are calculating and full of wit in battle. Smart, cutting edge, not skittish but “head strong.” Full of the Word in season and out of season. We carry a heavy burden but we carry it like a lady. We refuse to bow to the devil or give him a place in our hearts. We don’t have to bow and won’t. We come at our foe silently and slowly. Confident and full of self control. Our Sword is gleaming in the noonday Son. Our shield is our covering. We are not guilt ridden as the blood is our Salvation. We are covenant women. We are headstrong with a helmet of salvation. We are visionaries and our mind is full of His presence and our hair is wet with anointing. On our loins (our wombs) we are girt with truth. This concerns the teachings on Keepers at Home. Babies and submission to husband. Our feet are shod with the preparation of Gospel of peace. Now if you were the devil, wouldn’t you be afraid of a woman comin’ at you who looked like that? Well, we ain’t supposed to be afraid of the devil — he is supposed to be afraid of us. And as we fight the fear, we fight Satan’s control over us. And when we refuse to fear, we are home free.

As Mothers of faith, we must carry our burdens with grace from Jesus. I know so many will say, “Give your burdens to the Lord.” But as the scriptures say, when all the babies were killed under 2 years old when Jesus was born, the Mothers could not be comforted. Any Mother with a child who is being held captive by sin can’t just give her burdens to the Lord. All she can do is carry her burden like a lady. As a queen fighting for her people. She cannot be comforted until she sees His glory. Any Mother who is totally at peace over her wayward children won’t fight for them and won’t see His glory. Those who don’t weep for the lost have no value in God. Without passion, a war cannot be waged or fought. But the Lord is showing me to quit shooting off cannons and stand strong with the full armor, fully confident that the war set before us is hard, but God is harder.

We have marching orders from the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. He will fight our battles. Faith is the Victory that overcomes the world.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

Good Morning! Ya know when my children were little, sometimes if I was low on eggs, I would fix eggs in a frame for their breakfast. It takes a lot less eggs than scrambled.

I would just put a dab of margarine in my cast iron skillet and a bit of oil, then you lay a slice of bread in it. Before you lay the bread down, just take a glass and cut a hole in the middle of the bread. Then as your skillet is on, just break an egg in the middle of the hole in the bread. Fry this on a medium heat and then turn it over to get the egg done on the top. Have patience with it, as the egg has to cook good in the middle or it will be raw and sloppy. Another way to stretch scrambled eggs goes like this. Just break your eggs in the skillet and then cook them up with a couple crumbled up slices of bread. You could add a few Tbs of milk, too.

Sometimes I would fry up a pan of fried potatoes for breakfast. Potatoes are so cheap to buy around here, especially in the Fall. Anyway, if I had a lot of eggs and not so many potatoes, I would fry the potatoes up and then when they were soft, I would add eggs and cook them in with the potatoes. Then at the end, when the spuds and eggs were cooked up, I would sometimes put cheese on the top and put a lid over it to melt the cheese. I mean if had cheese and I usually did. I tried to always have on hand the Velveeta cheese off brand. You can do so much with cheese to make a meal more hardy.

Also to fry potatoes and to get them crisp and good, try this. Oil your skillet with a bit of oil just to make it shine. Then add some margarine to the skillet. The margarine will float on the top of the oil and make the potatoes taste more buttery.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I just had the family here for dinner. We had a few birthdays to celebrate. Also John and Christine and Romeo are moving back to Missouri. So we wanted to all get together for a last visit. They will be back for Thanksgiving. We had a lot of fun and my mom came, too. We had potato soup and burritos and a salad. Later we had ice cream and cake.

This morning Christian Joy called and I asked her about the Converse high tops with a skirt. I said, “What am I seeing, Chrissy? Is that bluegrass?” And she says, “Oh, Mom, everyone in NYC wears those tennis shoes with skirts or anything.” Anyway, my daughter-in-law Christine, John’s wife, said she has wanted a pair, too. So she is going to try to find out where we can get some cheap to wear with skirts. The boys tried to talk me into the low tops. But Christine says, “Leave your Mom alone -she’s got a vision. I am going to find her some name brand high tops.” Sooo one way or the other, I am gonna get some nice high tops. Even Chrissy said she would send me some from NYC. Yaaay I had to do it.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

Last night on the phone as I talked to Aunt Toot, I had her goin’. “I want to buy some black high top tennis shoes to wear with a long cotton print skirt,” I told her. Oh, she had a fit. I said I like the bluegrass look — is that bluegrass? Anyone know? Well, I could just see myself in these high tops. I can’t wait to get some. I want to get some nice long cotton skirts for winter that I can wear with long underwear and a warm top. Aunt Toot says that now she can see where Christian Joy gets her ideas. “It’s no wonder your kids are nuts,” she tells me. But, hey, anyone on here know what I mean about the black high top tennis shoes and cotton skirts? I thought this get-up would look extra cute with a neat old-time apron? Well, I am up for it. Maybe it’s just my own style. I think I may stop at the Salvation Army today to see if I can find some skirts for winter that I like. I wonder, if Dan sees me in this outfit, if I will get to join the band, after all. (Only kidding, Toot … or am I?)

Dan loves bluegrass. And I can hear a twang in his voice that calls the southern hills and mountains to me. Dan hears a call of God and I can hear it when he sings. It’s not big yet and the voice of the mountains in his voice is small. But you can just hear it in him. As his Mama, I am like Elisha. I see the cloud the size of my hand and it promises rain. I weep for my children to be called as voices in the wilderness.

My children are so funny. They entertain themselves with stories about me and Jim. Sometimes when I come into the room, they laugh. I tell ‘em “I know you guys are telling stories again about me and Dad.” At the family reunion, David and his cousins played the guitars. As I walked by them, David says, “Mom, you know what the name of that song was?” I said “No.” And David says, “Prison Break.” And then they all laugh! I like to pretend I am mad. But ya know at least they talk to me.

You know what I did yesterday? The craziest thing! I told a church lady about my life and asked her to pray for me. Am I nuts? Her husband is at church all the time and is a perfect Christian Gentleman … God love him. She has seven children and all of them are perfect? So she knew all of my children when they were all good ducks in a row. And she asks me how each of them are? Oh, man what a nightmare as I had to tell her. I should have said, “What kids? I never had any but Jimmy. (He is perfect.)” This morning, I woke up ready to commit suicide. Ashamed of myself for even having enough nerve to breath the air.

Don’t Give Up

Anyway, I woke up this morning with the devil breathin’ fire down my neck. And I was shakin’ and quakin’ and tellin’ the Lord “Uncle” and “Whatever I did to deserve Mary, I am really sorry and I won’t do it again.” I started gasping for a Word from the Lord and my mind was too clouded with fear to get a Word. But the Lord showed me that it wasn’t a Word I needed as much as I needed to say with some Moxie, “I ain’t givin’ up until I see the GLORY of God” and “Whatever it takes, Lord.” I told the devil that the trouble with me that he would always have was this. “I have seen the miraculous before? I have seen the Glory before when Jim was healed saved and delivered.” And I told the devil eyeball to eyeball, with a hot demonic breath in my face this morning, “I don’t have nothing else to do but pray for Mary and Brandon and wait upon God.” And I promised Satan, “You will bow your knee to God on this.” And he will.

I am used to seeing a lot of prayers answered in my life. But this stronghold on Mary has about beat me out. But I had to make a decision this morning. “Whatever it takes, Lord. Whatever it takes.” I know I have made this decision before … and have fallen into unbelief. But I had to make it again this morning. And sometimes we have to make this decision a million times. But how often does God forgive us for our unbelief? As many times as we ask Him to. What is Satan after? He wants us as wives and moms to just roll over and play dead — and sometimes we wish we were dead. But God calls us back to life as He did Lazarus.

I am here to tell you that our only sin in having wayward family members is to give up. Satan wants us to give up. I mean we can have all the right faith scriptures memorized but if, in the final moments, we give up on God, those faith scriptures won’t be worth a sack of dung. The Lord this morning didn’t ask me how many scriptures I had memorized. He did ask me to make a decision. Was I up for this hell ride or was I getting off the boat and goin’ on home?

In the Word of God, the Lord told the prophets to tell the soldiers who were fearful to go on home. The Lord didn’t want fear in the camp. And we as Christians cannot allow fear in our homes.

Good News! Mary just called me on the phone and she said a prophet just came up to her and spoke to her that she would have another baby in a year and a half. I said, “Mary, is this what will set you free?” And she said, “Yes, Mom, I just can’t deal with Chloe Faye’s death.” Mary said, “Mom, is this man a true prophet?” And I said he would have to be, as I have prayed so much. Mary said it was an angel or a prophet but she shook all over when he spoke. “I couldn’t sleep at all last night, Mom,” she told me. She always gets right off the phone. But I told her before she got off the phone, “Mary, I claim the blood of Jesus over your mind body, soul and spirit. If two agree on anything touching the same thing, it will be done by their Father in heaven.” And I said, “We are touching this phone. And every time you touch this phone, you will feel Mom’s prayers and get another dose of them.” And Mary agreed with me. I told Mary if this comes to pass, what the prophet said, then we will know that he was a true prophet of God. But the way I have been up in God’s face on this, I can’t imagine that a false prophet could get in there in any way. But please agree with me in prayer that Mary is being healed more and more as she touches her phone. Because this is the only connection I have with her.

Don’t give up and you will see His glory.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers of the Hearth,

Oh, I had a jolly time last evening. I had John and Christine and Romeo Paul, age 4, over for supper. As I was preparing for supper, the neighbor children came over with a measuring cup asking to borrow a cup of flour. “Something smells good.” Cole, age 13, and his sister Abby, 6, visit a bit and look around to see if I have changed anything since they were here last. I told them that was chili they smelled and cornbread and homemade popcorn. I made a pot of coffee, too, and we also had iced tea with fresh mint in it from my garden.

I still had Baby Olivia when the kids all got here for supper. Oh, we had so much fun! My table is so big, it takes up the whole dining room. So Christine was sitting by the side door so she has to do everything on that side of the table and I am on the side by the kitchen. So while I am running back and forth from the kitchen, then Christine is in charge of letting the cat in and out and answering the phone. Olivia, 9 weeks old, had slept earlier as I got everything on the table but she woke up when everyone came. So I hold her — it’s just what I think I should do. So I run about with baby in my arms. It seems right! But then her Daddy came and picked her up and then we all settled to talk and eat leisurely and enjoy each other’s company.

We talked about the old “Laugh-In” show that we watched when the kids were little. I love to imitate Lily Tomlin as I pretend to be an old time telephone operator. “RING A DING A DINGA . . . RING A DING A DINGA. NUMBER PLEEEEEASE????” Then Johnny taught Romeo some things that James Cagney used to say, like “You dirty rat, you killed my brother.” I don’t like that but Romeo is such a ham and says it out of the corner of his mouth and I can’t help but laugh. Then Johnny started imitating W.C. Fields and I did, too. “Anyone who hates kids and hates dogs can’t be all bad.” And then May West. “When I am good I am very very good and when I am bad I am better.” Well, when Jim was gone in the old days, the kids and I would sit and watch old movies and eat homemade popcorn and drink the off brand of Kool-Aid and laugh our heads off. The JOY of the Lord was our strength. It takes a lot of faith to laugh in hard times like those were. Oh, but we covered a lot of comedy last night as we visited over supper.

Christine is John’s audience. She is so crazy about him. John quit his job as they are moving in a week back to Missouri. Christine says she loves it as she gets to see him more. Oh, I praise God that Johnny has a wonderful family like he has. Christine is one of the cutest girls you could ever see. And Johnny thinks the world of her.

Finally we went into the living room and watched TV with Romeo. I got out dessert, Brownies. Romeo loves the Hidden Camera shows and tries to do the stunts on there. It’s like Romeo has springs on his feet — he just flies through the air. Johnny does tricks with him and keeps me and Christine laughing our heads off. All of my little girls here are calm so it’s a treat for me to see Romeo being a real boy. I had 4 boys and I am used to the wrestling and yelling and running and jumping in the house.

As John’s family got ready to leave, I told them, “Always keep your Joy. We need it in times like these. It is our strength.” And this is part of faith. Those who can laugh and have a sense of humor will find a lot of strength in it. Laughter is the highest form of faith.

Depression Era

Ya know I read a lot of articles on the Great Depression era. Those old timers had a lot to say about survival.

The stock market crash came in October of 1929. It was pretty much world wide. In Kansas and other states called the flat lands, they had Dust Storms. The dirt would fly in the house and coat everything. The Mothers had to wash the dishes of the dirt before each meal. The farmers had cut out all the trees and wildlife to plant crops to sell. Before the Depression hit, there was a lot of profit in farming and the farmers got greedy. And so when there wasn’t any rain for 3 years, nothing held the dust down.

The families had to do without rain for 3 years. The ranchers had to sell their cattle and horses as they couldn’t water them. The housewives couldn’t water their gardens. Many of the men were out of work and then the women couldn’t provide, either, with no rain on their gardens. Some lived on dried beans and weeds. But by faith they made it. Some of the families lost their homes and had to move into old abandoned chicken coops in the country. Many families went back to the land when they lost their homes and jobs. Only to have it not rain for 3 years. This era was called the “Dirty Thirties.”

In other parts of the country, it did rain some and the farmers were the only ones making it. All they had was food and livestock. So cartoonists portrayed them as fat naked farmers. Because all they could afford was food and no clothes. But the ingenious Mothers of Faith made clothes out of feed sacks. The Mothers would get together and trade feed sacks so they would have enough of one kind of print for a whole dress. They used the old burlap bags that potatoes came in for towels and dish rags. I have a quilt my grandma made with an advertisement for chicken feed on the inside layer. You couldn’t see it when Grandma made it but, as it is older and thinner now, you can see she had a feed sack in the inner layer. To make a bed sheet, the mothers would bleach the feed sacks and then sew the squares together. They used the feed sacks to make all of their linens and curtains, etc. They used the Sears “Wish Book” or catalog for toilet paper.

The Gay 90s was a time of great prosperity — all looked well as if there would be a chicken in every pot. And when the Crash came in 1929, it was a shock to the country. But ya know the Mothers made do. And about once a week on Saturday night, the neighbors and friends would all gather at someone’s house who still had a house. And they would take all the furniture out of the living room and put it on the porch. And they would roll back the carpet to dance. And some of the men would come and bring their guitars and fiddles and play music. And the families would forget their cares and woes and dance til midnight. The women would bring all kinds of food for a late Saturday Supper. All the mothers tried to outdo the other Mother. Whose biscuits were the lightest and who was the best pie maker? The Mothers did their best to make what they could with the ingredients they had. The men would hunt and fish and the wife would bring fried fish or squirrel.

As I write, I can see them singing and dancing. I see the candles flicker and the shadows of dancing couples upon the wall. I can smell the meat dishes and the apple pies and biscuits. Oh, the anointing is flowing with Joy and gladness. I can hear the Mothers’ shoes as they clop upon the old wooden floors as they dance and sing to the music of long ago. Someone is playing the spoons — maybe Grandmother — and I hear the fiddle music. It is joyful as Papa plays and longs to play all night or until the Depression era has ended. The folks sang in the midst of many trials … they danced in the cabins of long ago. They made do. They lived it out with courage and that was about all they had to sustain them until better times came.

A Cloud of Witnesses

Well, I have Baby Maya Grace, age one year, this morning so I best get to caring for her. I feel such a flow to write. I do wonder if I saw, as I wrote Part 2, the great cloud of witnesses, telling me that if the Mothers during the Depression era made it, I will, too. Huh? Think so?

Love,
Connie

Dear Homemakers,

Well, here I go again, writing in the midst of children. But I love it. I love all of it. But, boy, my writing just drops off any place. Sorry about that. I do have some quiet time now as Baby is asleep. I just feel such an urgency to write on faith.

So many women around me are going through so much nervousness and fear. I guess I am especially burdened for one friend in particular. A dear friend, I will call her May. I have known May for many years . She called me from her bed last week. “I am so full of fear that I can’t get out of bed.” Now May has all this world could give her and a very wonderful, faithful husband. Not to mention godly, grown children who love God. But the fear about her is too much. Later she had to go to the hospital because of anxiety attacks. These are fear attacks. The only remedy is faith.

See, some of you can’t do your housework or live a godly life because fear is binding you. Spiritual housewifery comes out of a heart that has a dream. If your husband is wayward, how can you clean his house or care for his children unless you are assured by God that your husband is about to be saved — maybe today. Hope is in the future and faith is in the NOW. Each day, get up in the morning and say, “Lord, I plan on a miracle TODAY.” See, if you aren’t doing that, you are planning on not having a miracle and it will be business as usual. Every morning, get up and start a family meal for supper or whenever the family will eat the big meal of the day. Prepare for happy family times. And if they don’t happen that day, then plan the next day for a miracle and each day plan on a miracle. If you aren’t planning on a miracle then you are planning on defeat. Don’t plan a failure by not planning for a miracle.

In my faith, I was good at getting miracles. But I couldn’t hang onto them? But, hey, you are talking to a woman who has had a lot of miracles. As I have gotten older, I have learned how to maintain the miracles and keep them protected. But in the beginning, I couldn’t keep them but could sure get one. By my faith, I would call Jim from all parts of the nation. But I didn’t have the faith to keep my husband. I didn’t give up, though, on my sorry self and kept on goin’ and saw the glory of God.

But see, when you have a husband bound by Satan, he can’t hear God. God depends on the intercessor to get the weaker spouse healed. In the Bible, God used many people who were strong to bring the sick and demon possessed to Jesus. We as Christian wives and mothers labor to bring our loved ones bound by Satan to the feet of the cross. Many are bound by Satan. Dear Mothers and Wives, have mercy on those who are unsaved. Be glad you are the victim and not the one causing all the hell in your family.

I have never committed adultery. “Oh, Lord God, I am so glad to say that.” And I finished the course with Jim and my marriage was saved. I am so glad that I lived for the Lord. I am at peace with my life. Adultery is not fun! Early on in my married life, the Lord had me counsel a harlot who had been married to a Christian man. The tears that woman cried — the hell she went through was unbearable. It is not fun to be an adulteress. Every man she became one with, she received into her spirit.

It’s a looong time before you get your peace back after sex with someone outside your marriage. As a Christian woman who does this stuff, it isn’t like you have sex and then get peace back until the next time? No, God’s peace is a long time coming. This is where many of you women need to see the truth. If a husband is committing adultery, then he is bound in this sin. He is either possessed of the devil or at least oppressed. No man or woman who is practicing adultery is free and having it easy. It is a snare of the devil. See, they become one with a harlot. The Bible says adultery is like idolatry … it is becoming one with a false god.

See, we must walk by faith in every situation of home. We must see our husbands as godly priests of our homes. And you have to get on your husband’s side. He knows if he is bound in sin and he thinks you know that? And he hopes to God you are working on getting him out of it if you are a Christian wife. But Satan lies to you and says your husband is happy in his sin. I mean, I am writing about a man who is practicing adultery or some other sin. But love the sinner and hate the sin and see the sin as God sees it. A man bound in drugs or alcohol ain’t havin’ fun. It may be fun at first until that serpent turns around and bites back. You can play with a snake for a while but, trust me, he will bite you if you hang around long enough. Don’t be deceived — God is not mocked whatsoever you sow you will reap. And if you keep playing with sin, it will own you in the end. At all costs, wives and mothers, make strong homes. In this age, you ain’t gonna live very long if you have a family and you are walking in fear. Learn to walk by faith. The Word says “Let the weak say I am strong. Let the poor say I am rich.” We must learn to call things that are not as though they were.

The load I have carried lately would pound me to the ground if I didn’t walk by faith. But I ain’t goin’ under as I know how to stay on top. Hopefully?

Faith comes by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. You can’t make it alone, dear housewife. Forget it that you think you can make it with just positive confessions. I mean don’t speak negative words. But just because you confess positive thoughts, that won’t take you over. I mean it may for a while? But when you get into some real problems, then nothing will work. I mean when ya can’t get that dog to hunt no matter what ya do? Then you had better have something else goin’ on besides positive words. You gotta start diggin’ for gold and I mean NOW! You have to have a special word from the Lord.

I am famous for running out of road on a daily basis. I just can’t make it without a Word from the Lord. I don’t get up in the morning and start cleaning the house. I am better now. But even last week, I would wake up shaking in my boots. I try to take some of my friends’ nerve pills and they ain’t strong enough to get me to settle down. If I didn’t have Jesus, then nothing would put me out but a sledge hammer. I wish I was a Martha but I am a Mary who MUST sit as His feet, no matter what. If I don’t get a Word from the Lord each day, then you can all kiss my sweet cheeks “Good-Bye.” I have to have a fresh word from Him daily. My mentor Mary L lays prostate before the Lord in her living room and prays on her face for hours. If you want the power of God in your home, you have to pay a price. Oh, I got up this morning and top cleaned and did some laundry before Baby came. But mainly, I pray and watch before the Lord for hours before I come to this e-machine.

And I am tellin’ ya, Dear Heart, we are living in hard times. The earth seems to shake with fear right now. But the wise woman has built her house upon the rock. And the winds come and the rains fall but her house will not fall as she has built her house upon the rock. She is wise. She doesn’t fear this world. She fears God, and the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom. She walks by faith and not by sight. God is first place in her heart. And she has a Word from the Lord that says “All is well — all is well. No weapon formed against you will prosper. Your enemies may attack one way but they will flee seven ways. Greater is He who is in us than he who is in the world.” The word says that He will contend with those who contend with us and our families. (Isaiah 49:25)

My 2 Cents

Ya know last week or whenever it was, I was watching Fox News. And they said the stock market went up higher then ever in history. They said this meant the economy was good. For who I don’t know. But anyway, ya know what? Just before the Depression era of October of 1929, the stock market hit some all time highs. In the 1890s and on, our country was flyin’ high. But our country began making more produce than what folks could buy and this caused the Stock Market to crash. But that’s not our only problem as we have a war goin’ on. I wonder if it will go into a World War.

I believe God has been merciful to me to let me go through such horrid trials as lately. He is sharpening my faith and warning me to stay with Him. He wants for me to be crisp and clear and on the move when the really hard times come. He wants my children to be warriors and leaders in these days ahead. I am being tested and tried and He wants my visions in Him to be crisp and cutting edge. For these trials, I thank Him. “All things work together for Good to those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.”

For some of you who are seemingly suffering unbelievably, “Look up for your redemption draweth nigh.” God is getting ready to judge the unbelievers. But for those who are ready in Him, He will show them miracles, grace and sufficiency in Him. Plead for those in your families who don’t know the Lord. Have mercy on them. Walk with them through their darkness. Because a day will come when the way is closed and no man will enter heaven after this day. But don’t mistake the happenings on the earth as judgment to you if you are Gods daughters and He is your Husband. Yes, judgment is coming but it is for those who are rebellious in God. The Lord God is a just God and no one will get away with sin. But see, we as wives and mothers are sinners, too. And we can pick up our loved ones in prayer. God can’t touch sin but He can touch us, as we are born again, and yet still sinners. We are the intercessors — we are the go between heaven and earth. And we must go between God and our prodigals and plead with the Lord in prayer for their lives. If they are in sin and bound, they can’t find their own way. They need an intercessor. A prayer warrior that talks to God on their behalf.

And Mothers of prayer, once we get up off our knees we must talk to the king in our husbands and our sons. We must talk to the queen in our daughters. We raised them for such a time as this. Our handmaidens were raised at our knee. And even though they may act like they were raised by a mother who was an adulteress, they still have a memory of the true Mother who touched her daughter’s heart with the power of God.

With tears and weeping and wailing to the Lord, many of us mothers have paid the price and will win the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ. We as housewives will someday hear, “Well done thou good and faithful servant.” If you don’t give up, dear wife and Mother, you will see His glory. Run the race and be swift and anointed of God. Stand before your enemies and laugh with your hair and face anointed with the oil of gladness. “Oh well of Joy, come up in the heart of your anointed daughters and let them hear your voice like thunder speaking. Touch not mine anointed and do her no harm.”

Many of us daughters of Zion must live from one anointing to the next. Like riding on the night skies on flashes of lightening. We crave the next anointing — after the last one is barely cooled off. But we live from the pure and living Word spoken fresh from His mouth. We see not or hear not. We are blind to the world around us. We live out of the anointing, the Word spoken in the night as Jesus woke us. Our heart and spiritual eyes are riveted to His eyes and we watch Him and the world to us becomes strangely dim. We are filled with the Holy Spirit.

Love,
Connie

Dear Mothers,

I have had a teaching on faith in my heart all day but haven’t been able to write as I have been too busy. Oh, wow, what a day! Anyway, I will just jot down some thoughts.

Ya know I was thinking of the scripture that says that faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the Word of God. I guess for some reason, I thought that if I read my Bible a lot then I will get more faith. And yet the scholars of our day read the Word all the time and many have no faith. So what does this scripture mean? I think it is spiritual. That we get faith as we hear a Word in our hearts from the Holy Spirit. The Bible is a spiritual book. Yes, the Lord could speak a word as we read the Bible or we hear a message on faith. But for us to have the true faith that brings miracles, we have to have a Rhema word from God. Or an alive word spoken to us that says that we know that we know that we know that our miracle is going to happen. And it is this Word made alive in us that is the live seed that will grow and produce a miracle.

Also the Word says that without faith we can’t please God. Ya know on a regular day? You don’t need mountain moving faith to clean the house or homeschool the children. But when we run outta road to walk on and yet we have to keep walking? We have to have faith. The God kind that moves mountains and pleases God. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. OK, we have eyes to see … we can hear and feel and taste and smell. But faith doesn’t have anything to do with our senses. The Bible says faith comes when there is no evidence of a physical answer to the problems. God kind of Faith can’t be experienced if there is a physical way for something to happen, anyway. So a totally hopeless situation is what is needed for the true faith to be played out.

The things we see in the physical realm are subject to change but the eternal is forever. On this earth, we can loose things that will be loosed in heaven. And we can also loose things on earth that loose hell and its demons. All through our imaginations. In the area of our imaginations is where our faith is to be played out. Our visions are our power and they move heaven and earth and hell. If we are born again and we abide in the vine of Christ, then anything we ask in Jesus name we receive. But if we get into unbelief, we cause all kinds of hell on earth. We are powerful beings. We are made like that. The same power that raised Christ from the dead dwells in us.

In the Spirit realm, we do not use our eyes or our senses. Our physical senses are to be used for this earth and for our business here on the earth. But the spirit realm, in our spirits, we don’t use the physical senses. Just like we don’t smell with our eyes. Or we don’t taste with our ears. With faith, we don’t use our physical eyes or ears. I mean we know the wind moves the branches on the trees with an invisible power, the wind. And our faith is like the wind — it moves things mysteriously. Faith moves mountains, as it is more powerful then the wind.

How do we see with spiritual eyes and hear with spiritual ears? We see with our imaginations. God speaks to us about our imaginations. We are to cast down vain imaginations and all that exalts itself above the knowledge of God. The Word says that if we delight ourselves in Him, He will give us the desires of our heart. OK, the desires of your heart are your map inside your spirit to guide you. Of course, if the desire of your heart is evil, then I would question if you really loved Jesus. But if you have a wayward husband, then, of course, as a Christian wife, the deepest desire of your heart would be that your husband be saved. But then the devil comes along and says, “It ain’t gonna happen.” He speaks to you through your eyes and your ears and then he gets you to imagine evil and this is his stepping stones to get his work done.

FEAR

FEAR is faith in reverse. It is like faith but it produces evil instead of good. It is powerful and moves the flesh. It moves our flesh into perversions of all kinds. And it produces diseases and accidents and all the sins of the flesh.

Fear has to be present for Satan to work. He lives and breathes and has his being in an atmosphere of fear. Fear in a home, day after day after day, will produce wickedness. Satan will stay until he gets something done and then he will leave. At all costs, get the fear out of the house. Don’t live with it and hope things will work out. Satan ain’t gonna leave your house just because he feels sorry for ya. He breathes disease and fear and it is his workshop. Fear is a feast to him and deceit and lies are what he is powerful in. But see, God is greater. He is greater in us then he (Satan) in the world. So we can get rid of the fear in our homes by getting a word from God.

Satan won’t mind you — he just minds Jesus. So you have to pray and get a word from the Lord. You have to put Jesus first. Maybe you can just sit in a chair with the baby and pray. Pray until you can SEE the answer to your prayers. Pray until you know that flesh and blood has not told you the answer but only the heavenly Jesus has told you the answer.

See, the Lord is heavenly, daily manna. You have to ask Him everything all day long. Don’t move out on your own. Hear His voice through your spirit and through making sure your mind is clean and on the Word of God. If you are thinking negative thoughts about your family, then these are thoughts from Satan. No one knows the future. We have to stand on the word that says we will be saved and our household. Also the Word says that it isn’t His will that any perish. So if we think someone is hopeless, then our mind is being controlled by Satan and not the Holy Word of God.

Often the devil will tell us that our kids are doing wrong and we don’t know that they are, but we have a feeling, a fear that says they are doing wrong. This feeling didn’t come because someone told us that but it came out of our imaginations. And sometimes our kids do things that help our imagination to live in full bloom. But it is not usually the truth. Sometimes it is the truth? You can’t tell, as Satan is a deceiver and will play cat and mouse games with ya until you turn blue. But God’s word is true. It always is true! And it is eternal.

Ya know years ago, as I was believing for Jim to come home — man, it was hard. I would just get in bed and cover up my head and give up. I had no hope for sure. But God would speak to me of the God kind of faith. The kind that moves mountains. And I can say truthfully that when I would pray the prayer of faith, I would begin to see a miracle … and these were true miracles. I didn’t know where Jim was and no one else did, either. So it wasn’t like someone told me he was coming home. But when I would begin to renew my mind with the Word of God and give my imaginations to God, I would see a miracle. Jim would come home and God would give us some happy days. But then the fear would come and Jim would leave again. Jim said he felt like a yo-yo. But my faith brought him home and my fear would cause him to leave. Jim was a sinner — he was bound by Satan. But see, I was the intercessor and I held in my hands the answer for both of us. Eventually, I learned how to walk by faith and not by sight. Now I live like this all the time.

Reality isn’t this physical world or what we see with our eyes. We shouldn’t go around making all of our decisions by the rules of this world. Because this world is a passing thing. But true reality is Christ and His Word. He is eternal and we will live forever in heaven and that will be forever. Reality is the eternal life after this life. Don’t give yourself to a world that you won’t live in for more then an earthly lifetime. We who know Him were created for heaven.

Equip the Saints

Ya know the world is so full of terror lately and fear. The earth seems to be so unstable because of the sin in it. It seems our foundations are so shaken. And yet we should rejoice as He has overcome the world. Our faith overcomes the world and the laws of sin and death.

Some of us women are very sensitive to the spirits out there. Both holy and unholy spirits. Wow, some of us walk about as accidents going someplace. I know I do. We yield our faith to this and that and then to the fear and, boy, do we get smacked in the head. I don’t feel our diet has near as much to do with our nervous worry as our level of faith going up and down. The Word says to keep your heart for out of it is the issues of life. Yes, we should eat healthy if we can. But during the Depression era, folks didn’t hardly have any food but they lived on faith.

Well, I am interrupted so best stop.

Love,
Connie

Dear Warriors for Christ,

Wow, ain’t life grand! I was prayin’ this morning. Oh no, look out! Phillipa from England has been sending out flares all morning, “Somebody HELLLLP!” I was under the tent with one bullet in my gun, wondering if I had enough nerve to write this morning. Or if I should pray for another bullet or what? One thing the devil loves to do to ya is give you images in your mind of failure.

Ya know as I was prayin’ for Mary this morning, the Lord reminded me of her birth. And sometimes the birth of a child says something about the rest of their lives. Mary was my seventh child and I had one miscarriage just before her. So I had her when I was almost 39. But the hospital was about 30 miles away on an icy highway. So they said I was to stay in this place by the hospital for mothers who were at risk. They thought I was old at 39 and too far from the hospital. Well, so I went. I was overdue and so was there for a week and they wanted me to stay longer. It dawned on me one day as I prayed that I didn’t have to stay there. They had intimidated me and tried to scare me to death that I would die and the baby would die if I didn’t get to the hospital right away when I went into labor.

My fifth child was a C-section and the doctor who did that, they said, was a butcher and made a mess of my womb. He then left town and left no address to get ahold of him. He was a crazy man. No one could figure out if he had tried to make an incision up and down or across? He didn’t even sew me up right. So my womb wasn’t stable. But the place they gave me to stay was full of maniacs. They all loved MTV and that was on 24-7. I told Jim when he came to see me that I was leaving this popsicle stand and was he with me. He said he was and we left. The doctors saw us and tried to stop us but we just left, anyway, with them screaming, “You won’t make it.” Well, we did make it and I went into labor in a few days and made it back in plenty of time. I felt my health declined in the time I had been there in that sin infested place that I am still wondering about today. Just down the hall from where I was, they were doing abortions. This hospital does more abortions than, I think, any hospital in the nation. It’s no wonder I didn’t want to hang around there.

Then when I was in labor, they gave me two shots of pitocin. Of course, my womb that was mangled anyway blew and ruptured. Then after all of that, they wanted to take my womb out. Up to then, Papa and I had been pretty nice? But Jim loves to tell what I told the doctors. I looked up at about three specialists that told me I would die if my womb wasn’t removed. “I am going to own you and this whole hospital if you take my womb out.” I had been bleeding in a bucket and Papa was crying his eyes out in a chair. Papa came to the head of the bed and spoke to me. “Connie, we have five other children who need you.” So I said that I would do whatever. But the doctors didnt take my womb out. Because they had made so many mistakes, they knew I could happily and easily sue them and would have. I was in the operating room getting repaired for almost, I think, 3 hours. Papa sat and prayed alone. All the relatives were called and told that I may die. And my relatives came up to the hospital and told Jim, my grieving husband, that if I did die, the kids would be taken by the state. Papa cried and gave his heart to the Lord as he had never done before.

I nearly died to give Mary birth. And as I stand here, the Lord speaks to me, “Mary is the anointed one and will do great things for the Lord.” And it is the least among us who God seems to anoint. And the devil will lie on the anointed ones. But God will have a prayer warrior pray over the least of them. And by faith the intercessor will not give up. And the intercessor will have to stand alone and not give ear or eyes to the circumstances set before them. Warriors for Christ … that will not be moved by the flesh.

Love,
Con

Dear Mothers,

I am so tired this morning, I would have to dress up just to get shot. The new baby girl who is a one year old is so active. She is a doll baby, though. I can say that. She tries to eat everything. I turned around to look at her and she had a brown crayola hanging out of her mouth like a cigar. I only have her on Wedneday and Thursday. And it’s a good thing as I would be dead by now if it was three days a week. Today I have Olivia Rose who is 8 weeks old and she is asleep. I just haven’t had any time to write. But today should be an easier day. And tomorrow is Saturday. I love having the children but, boy, have I been busy.

I am so happy I can stay home and not have to go out to work. I have had so many thoughts about the Lord that I haven’t been able to write down. I feel full but a bit confused as to what I should write.

I think one thing that has been a lot on my mind is the fear that seems to be out there. It seems so many are having anxiety attacks. Most of the women I know are on meds for nerves. I take them sometimes myself. But the Lord has been speaking to me lately about the discerning of spirits. A good friend of mine (we have been close for almost 40 years) just went to the hospital lately over an anxiety attack. That fear could kill us if we let it get too out of hand. We live in an era of such a feeling of doom around us. But an overcoming feeling of fear for no apparent reason is an attack of Satan.

Ya know the Lord says in His word that in the end days there would be so much deception, even the elect would be deceived. And here’s my 2 cents on that. Well, first of all, I want to say something about the prophetesses and prophets of our age. See I learned a lot from being Dixie’s friend. She was godly in the beginning and then backslid. We think if someone is helping us or the Lord uses them in our life and we are set free, then they are of God. But, see, I can play the piano by ear if I am right with God or not. I have this gift. Some women are very gifted. They are seers and visionaries. This is why when I heard the gospel message, I came to Christ so easily and believed in miracles right away. Because in my old life, I had made friends with the devil and knew him to be supernatural. The truth that set me free to receive Christ was the truth that I saw in the Word that said that Christ was the stronger power. I didn’t know that. I thought if someone tried to fight me that my first punch was supposed to nearly kill ‘em. I didn’t know that Jesus was God — I thought He was just a man. But, see, I thought Satan was the king of kings on the earth. I knew I was goin’ to hell but thought I would get a special place as I was so bad. Then I read a book telling me what hell was like. YE-OW! I ran to Jesus as fast as I could. Oh Yeah! But, see, I was very spiritual but didn’t know the Lord Jesus. But just because someone is spiritual and does signs and wonders for ya is not a sign they are of God or will tell you the truth.

Now see, Jonah was like this. He was a true prophet called of God but he went the wrong way. As he was taking a boat out of town to the wrong town, he could have gotten you set free because he knew the Lord personally. I mean even though he was in rebellion. Judas walked with the disciples. He healed the sick and raised the dead, too. But He was a deceiver. And the Bible tells of many false prophets in the Word of God. And the Bible says not to believe every spirit but to test them to see if they are of God. Also the Word says that in the last days many would say “Haven’t I cast out devils and done many mighty works in your name?” And Jesus says He never knew them.

The Bible says Wisdom is the principal thing, therefore get it. Wisdom, I mean. The Bible says that the every wise woman builds her house and the foolish tear it down with her hands. Then there is the parable of the wise man who built his house upon the ROCK.

And ya know at times, I get so spiritually hungry. And I turn on TV and watch the prophetesses speak. It’s like going through the dumpster to try to find something to eat. See, our country is in a famine of the true word of God. It is no longer preached. But I can listen to prophets at times and pick up on what God is saying. It’s like tryin’ to listen to a tape recorder with a ten piece band marching in front of you. But God speaks His heart to me and often I can see He has spoken to the prophetess the same thing but she is in rebellion. See, women like Joyce M and some like Gloria Copeland are true prophetesses but are in rebellion. No one could dispute that. They are gifted and have an inner voice speaking the power of God. But they are Jonahs and are going the wrong way. They are Christian feminists. God has called them to be virtuous women — to be keepers at home. How powerful they would be if they would obey God. Think of the abortions they could stop with their prayers. Think of the marriages they could save. No, I don’t have the power of God that Gloria has. But I have the TRUTH. And I am tellin’ you that in these last days, the Truth is what is gonna take you to heaven, not your power.

I am tellin’ you what. The foundation of our nation is shakin’. We must be true to God and His word at all cost. No matter what we see or hear or experience, we must stay on the marriage covenant. This is our stability and our covering. We can’t go around thinking about who should get a divorce or whatever. I am tellin’ you what. God has kept me as I have stayed in my marriage promise. And yes, even though Jim is in heaven, I am going to still honor my marriage until I die. And this has brought stability to me, even as I have had many adjustments as a widow. But, see, the Bible speaks as wisdom being a foundation. The fear of God is the beginning of Wisdom.

The whole Bible speaks of the powerful women of faith as women who are keepers at home. None are preachers who stand up in church with a word from the Lord. She is not the spiritual leader as she stands and takes authority. She does take authority as she is obedient to her husband. Yes, she leads, guides, and directs the home with her prayers and intercessions. But on the outside, she learns in silence and subjection to her husband. Her husband is priest and covering of her life in the home. Jezebel stood up and ordered the prophets about. But Mary waited on God to give her beloved Joseph a dream. Elisabeth never told her husband off for not believing God. Zacharias was not a good and righteous man. And God took his voice away until John was born. And Elisabeth was the woman of faith who really saved the life of John through her faith.

True women of God are silent but deadly. God stands up for her and orders heaven and earth to attend her. She is not the strange woman who won’t go home and be a servant to her husband. She is not full of pride. She takes the secret place and hides away unto God until God calls her out. She has a place with God and doesn’t cry out for the attention of others. She has forsaken father and mother to cleave to her husband. She has abandoned herself to her husband and his seeds.

The word says that our children are not to forsake the law of their mothers. And the true mother of God would not ask her daughter to forsake her husband. And in this age of wickedness, we had better stand even more upon the marriage covenant. If your husband is truly hopeless or would harm the children, I think the Lord would cause the husband to leave. Because He says that the believer should not leave the unsaved. But too often, the wife leaves a terrible husband, only to find a boyfriend is doing worse to the children than the husband was. No. I mean, guard your children. And if husband doesn’t leave, then stand for the children and don’t let him harm them.

I want to say again that it isn’t the power we have as women — it is the TRUTH we have. I mean, the Bible says that we are to be keepers at home. So, of course, the devil is gonna try to throw us out of the house and into the lions den of the world. A mother bird thrown out of her nest will do a lot of tap dancin’, especially if there is a cat in the area. And it seems a lot of these women are like that.

Well, I have to go.

Love,
Connie