Good Morning! I just wanted to say, first off, that when I was writing that writing yesterday I got a miracle. I hope you will get to read that writing. I think it was called Remain Strong. Right in the middle of that writing, the devil attacked and gave me an opportunity to remain strong and not give up. And I was to see a wonderful miracle.
As I was writing yesterday, Jim comes out of the bathroom with alarming symptoms of sickness. I just stayed in my faith as I had been writing about it. I rebuked the sickness and the demons of lies as Jim is telling me he is dying. He yells out at me that he really is dying. I never yell at Jim. I probably haven’t yelled at Jim in 20 years. But I felt a leading of the Lord to argue with him. I never argue with Jim. And I didn’t argue out of a spirit that couldn’t shut up. I just felt led to tell Jim off, and I did. He had a lyin’ demon on him and I had to get it off.
So right in the middle of my prayer Wild Man tells me I ain’t no doctor and I don’t know what’s the matter with him. I said I knew a demon when I heard one. So I told him, “Jim, if you want to keep that thing, then go ahead, but it is a lying spirit.” (Actually, I was arguing with a demon and not Jim.) Finally, Wild Man admitted it was a lyin’ demon and he let it go? And the man was healed. I mean, completely healed. He got up and went to work. I gave him some pain reliever to take in 4 hours. When he got home, he told me that he didn’t even have the time to take the pain reliever and was perfectly fine. He made good tips, too, and was really busy at work. He put in a full day’s work at age 65 and was going strong still when he got home. God is good — really good — all the time!
I don’t say any of this so that you all will think I am any big deal. Oh no. I don’t even like to tell this stuff. But you all need to understand it. Why should I see miracles and not tell you all about it or tell you how they came about. I tell you all of this to show you how to walk out your faith. I can’t tell you all the details or it would scare you. But I had this miracle happen while I was writing yesterday’s writing. And I mean, you can see miracles, too. They are just a breath away. You have to get up in the morning and believe God! Believe Him for many miracles!
A few days ago, Jim had written a letter to Richard. He said in it that he (Jim) had been healed by God many times. I reminded Jim of that yesterday. “Remember, Jim, that you told Richard that you had been healed many times?” Then Jim reminded me that I wasn’t healed when I had to have my gall bladder out and he is still paying the bill for that. Oh, don’t Satan have a sense of humor. But I didn’t let up! I will go until the last dog dies, ya know. If I fail, I will fail, but it won’t be that I failed for lack of tryin’.
And, ya know, ya gotta be submissive to your husband. And I am most of the time. But I think, once in a while, the Lord will call ya out to say something. To tell your husband the truth. You have to earn that right. If you are naggin’ all the time and then you say something important, then your words of wisdom get lost in the shuffle. But if you are mostly quiet, and then you yell something, at your husband then he hears ya. Well, I wasn’t about to sit with Jim and agree he was dying. “Yes, Dear, I agree, shall I call the mortuary?”
Jim asks me if I will ever let him die and I tell him no. I tell him he is still young and I don’t want to live without him. I have always told the devil he couldn’t have Jim. For almost 40 years I have been tellin’ the devil he can’t have Jim. It’s a way of life for me and I can’t imagine doing anything else. I have served this man since I was 19 years old and now I am almost 59.
“How old do you want me to live?” Jim will ask me.
I tell him, “As long as I live, Wild Man, I want you there.” He would have to sneak off to die.
And, ya know, Brandon, Mary’s husband, has been so sick again with Chron’s. He is about 5 ft 7 inches and weighs 110 pounds. As I sat with him last week and we talked, he told me he felt he was dying. I, of course, rebuked that, too. Mary heard him say that and yelled at him to cut it out. Boy, she won’t put up with that dyin’ stuff, either. I mean, she is a hen on a bug if Brandon says anything about dying.
Brandon tells me that every day he loses weight. I told him, “Brandon, when I was your age, I weighed 95 to 100 pounds and I was 5 ft 8 inches. My nerves were so bad I couldn’t eat. I didn’t die and you won’t, either. You are getting enough nourishment to stay alive and you will not die.” When I was first married, I didn’t eat for days. Finally, if I got sick, I would eat enough to keep from being sick. The only taste I had in my mouth was toothpaste. I never ate anything and only drank water when I brushed my teeth. And part of the time I smoked. I told Brandon all of that and said if I lived he would, too. I did get him to laughing a bit.
But at times I feel I live in a burning house. We have never had any health insurance. Man, the devil has told me all kinds of stuff. I haven’t had a pelvic in 20 years. Certainly no mammogram. Heck, I can’t afford to get up in the morning! Well, it’s live by faith or die — for me it is, anyway. The state is always sending me letters about when I get to be 65 I won’t get any Medicare as I never worked enough. So it’s have faith or die in the street? Jim has to work. He gets Social Security but, heck, that ain’t enough to live on. So he will have to work until he falls in his grave. Yesterday, when he told me he was dyin’ he tells me to get him cremated. I just laugh when he says that. I ain’t gonna do that. He is too cute to get burned up.
I fixed Jim a nice supper to come home to last night. My brother had given us a nice picnic ham. I baked that and sliced it up and will have a lot of extra meals. I made gravy and biscuits, too. And I made Wild Man his favorite dish, candied sweet potatoes. We had coffee and enjoyed our evening last night.
There is so much peace in trusting in Jesus. And, yes, death is up in my face every morning as I wake up and think of Baby Chloe Faye who died. Death and destruction seems always about us. Destruction seems so often a blink of an eye away. But we must live by faith and not sight. Our fears are between us and God. We have to get this settled with God. We cannot live in fear as we will go from one defeat to the next one. Faith is the only way out.
We must live out our lives from our visions from within. We live in such an unsettled society. We need lots of quiet time in our lives where it is just us and God.
Yesterday, I was alone as Jim was at work. I didn’t call anyone and the phone just rang once. I needed this time to be alone with Jesus. To hear His voice and to do my works of faith. I spent the day in my homemaking and then prepared Jim’s supper. Jim came home to a quiet house with no TV on. I was alone in the kitchen working when he came in. Being a man of faith, he never mentioned the morning. He just says in a peaceful way, “I had a good day today. I made good in tips — we were busy.”
I said, “Oh, Honey, I am so glad.” Later, he told me that he didn’t even have time to take the pain reliever I sent with him in case he needed it. I said, “Oh, Jim, that is so wonderful. Praise the Lord.” He told me again and again what a nice meal it was that I had fixed. I told him he sure deserved it. I had been sick during the day. But I made up my mind I would hide it from Jim, as he had enough to do. I don’t want to worry him. Now, this morning, I am much better.
I just wanted to make a place of peace and Joy for Jim to come home to. I fixed our bed all up, too, with flannel sheets. He loved that. It hasn’t been so cold lately here in Iowa — it’s been in the 30s lately. I am glad for Jim’s sake.